I hate fake people. And I can't believe how many of them I saod were my friends.
And how now are acting like stuck up bitches. They are also ignoring me and saying I'm not talking to them. Bullshit. I hate that...I realize now that the only person who is my realest friend-is Flash. And I guess that's for the best. I don't really like people anyway. I mean...Our generation is a terrible one.

5-14-13

I miss Nicckkkk.
And I still get random waves of missing Logan...I miss him and what we had. But he's Sarah's now. So now she can share all the things I never really got to share, with him. Maybe next year I'll actually find someone-and we'll be together for a long time. I'm hoping Nick. But cha know. ;3

I'm so bored. And lonely. Meh. I need friends...

I most likely get to hang out with Nick tomorrow nighhhttt. ^u^ hehe.
I don't know why I try, but I guess I'll continue until I get shot down.

I need to stop lying to myself, that there'll be a future between me and Nick. It hurts so much.
I don't know what's wrong with me, that he has never brought up liking me at all. He's better than any guy I know. And I want him.
He was flirty..I know that. And so was I.. But...meh..Maybe next year there'll be some good guys..

Saturday, May 11th, 2013

Ever since Thursday, I've been so happy. It was a great day...And his hugs made me feel so...special. Wanted.. ya know?
I hope I get to hang out with him again on Tuesday. It was so nice..

I see good things for us...c:

Thursday, May 5th, 2013

Today was the best day of my life that I've had in a long time.
I hanged out with Nick. And it was the best.
First, he made me meet him at where the bus lot was, at Homestead. I waslked all the way around the school, not knowing that I could of walked the other way and of gotten there faster. So thhennnnn. When I first say him, he was like "you just adjusted your face 1000 and 1 times." then he continued to make fun of me. Heh. I drank out of his gaterade. And then we sat down in the grass, and just talked. We talked about everything-he talked most of the time. lol. And he laid on me, and he needed to shave. And then we walked aeound the field, and sat on a bench for the rest of Jasmine's game. He went through my phone, lol. And we talked about nasty Juliette, and he called her a bitch and it was really funny. He played with my hair for a very long time, and then he leaned on me again... It ws so... calming. Great..And he hugged me. And we laughed our asses off. And some little girls were dancing on poles..And we made fun of them. XD
THEN HE INTRODUCED HIMSELF TO MY MOM, AND I WANTED TO CRY.
My mommy asked me if he was my new boyfriend. I wanted so badly to say that I wished. XD
He told me that he had two strokes. One outside, and he showed me where, and one in the nurses office. He then had six asthma attacks, and several seizers caused by the strokes. I felt so bad.
He also went through my back pack, and when I got cold he offered me his jacket. c:

Today...Was a good day.

Bitch. You have absolutely NO right to call him that. I don't care what your relationship with him is. You have no right. What so ever. That was mine first. And it will always will be mine.

4/23/2012

Aaron. Stahp.
I just... it upsets me how you talk to me now.
And it pisses me off when you do. If you don't want to talk to me, don't. And today, I noticed that when you said something to me, and I said something back, I raised my voice...Sorta like I was yelling at you. lol..

I needa hang out with Suurrrruuuhhhh soon.
And moorgann.
And my dooggy..
It's raining. I kinda wanna go outside, but then again I don't...

UGHHHfawhjsdflzksdasdf
So many mixed emotions. I don't know what to do. I don't really wanna talk to anyone right now.

Saturday April 20th, 2013.

It really upsets me that you don't want to talk to me now, JUST because I said I'm not ready to go out with you...
What the fuck ever happened to being friends?...
...
"I can't wait forever."
I wasn't asking you to wait forever, Aaron... but it seems like you weren't waiting for me, you were waiting for a girlfriend.
Thanks.
Another asshole I thought was different.
I'm tired of it. Maybe I'm not going to date for a while. Unless, ya know. Nick. but that's besides the point.
I just...get upset when I think someone is interested in me, and not talk to me just because...