Anyone like being accused of raceface in an anonymous app? 'Cause I don't! I didn't know working outside, tanning easily, looking like toasted bread, and having the genetics that I do counted as raceface.
Yep. Big ass elephant.
No shame. Fuck outta here with "cyber with me or I'll kill myself"
[center [size9 Sick of being in my head and thinkin' about my fate and worried about my health.
Wanna waste away my days with a pretty young thing and blow through all my wealth.
I made some mistakes, not so good with planning,
But I got some skills in easy living.
Cut my ties with desperation,
And learned to live with a little sensation.
[center [size10 "GET OUTTA MAH ASS PLS IM TRYING TO BE A NICE PERSOn"
"I never even knew you but I FUCKING HATE YOU and I hope the worst of you."
Anyone see the elephant in the room? And the problem with these two statements?
Anywho, been meaning to post in here anyway but been so tired from moving shit for 3 days straight. It wouldn't be so bad if I didn't already have carpal tunnel and a neck that likes to feel broken but oops I do. So I've been in alot of pain, no position feels right cause my whole self is just hurtin. So since tomorrow I'll finally finish unpacking my shit, I'll go ahead and post now.
Back in Rome and it's alot better here now. Their new car is hella rad and knowing that everyone seems so excited for Davey's side to move here soon is great. Kasvah got his new huge ass tank set up today and he didn't appreciate it one bit, but I know he secretly will love it. The dogs all get along so whenever I leave the room now, Pippy and Misha come out there with me. Shit's going so much smoother now, it's fantastic.
Don't like being away from Setka and Desmond but y'know.. Just tryin not to think about it. Don't have time to, kek.
Also, oof. When other people do the asking someone out when you're already with someone and it doesn't work. Meanwhile Aleks' mom knows I'm with Davey's side and Caleb and is trying to think of a way to eventually get him here too. But bad bf alert, I have no idea how long we've been going out, I'm terrible with periods of time. Oh well. Long enough that Setka is just completely used to it and doesn't even think twice about it now.
Fuck you Desmond, get off my dick. You just mad you can hear me typing but you can't watch my journal entries over my shoulder while I'm making em now.]]
I clicked a link that was "Mercy-" and was lead to that profile and i thought it was the chick who was all "CYBER WITH ME OR ILL KILL MYSELF"
but apparently I've got the wrong account
Fuck you Mercy and your emotional manipulation. Wherever you are.
That was a message for you not that poor person
Fucking big whoops but I know what I said
[center [pic http://i.imgur.com/Smh7kxM.jpg]][center [size10 gonna ask James tomorrow if I paid him if he'd give me deer antlers and deer blood. I wanna make proper runes but I don't want to take as long as wood would and I think I've sort of missed the window to get the wood I'd need. But also there's really no trees around here that call out to me. I also want to mix my own blood in with the deer blood but I'd have to first research the safest way to get my blood with out harming myself horribly. I want to mix me essence with that of nature's. I don't know what my life is turning into but that's perfectly okay. Should have bought a bag for the runes I bought but that's okay. This is just a learn set anyways.]][center [s [size10 I spent so much money today but at least rent got paid and I still got money for what few bills I do have.]]]
[center Will someone please collect their angry child please? I think she got lost in my pms.]
[center [pic https://imgur.com/nCe2xRq.png]]
I'm glad I got the job and all, I just wish people wouldn't see that as "oh, you'll be making money, no buy me stuff". That's not how that works. I have vet bills and and soon I'll have car insurance to pay. I won't have enough to just spend on people that think they can push me around.
[center [#FF0000 [b Teenage Drama Alert ]]
[size8 [#FF0000 Don't fucking read it if you don't want to be annoyed. ]]
[size9 I've done something so stupid, it almost ruined my WHOLE relationship. I had the balls to pull a fucking 16-year-old and ask someone else out whilst still dating Rix. Amazing right? How could I possibly fuck up anymore with my love? Rix just reassured me it was fine, how in the FUCK could she forgive me? It was a huge surprise not gonna lie, I'm not afraid of my mate but when you do something to him, he can get pretty intense.
I guess I worship that intenseness. Anyways, Rix reassured me it's because currently, I'm off my Adderal or whatever and that I'm going through a depressive withdraw and that I felt hopeless in love. It's weird when Rix get's me right. Anyways, gotta live through this week without it and it already seems really bad.
[size10 [+silver Sigh. I just really need to vent a let it all out... part of me just want to keep it all bottle up...
Look I don't want to be here either... I know pretty sad I still live with mommy and daddy right? Well I've been saving for a house they're pretty fucking expensive... Maybe by the end of the summer if I am lucky...Then again luck doesn't seem to be on my side.
Another thing....You act like I don't do much of anything around the house. I take care of your dogs when you are away... I guess that don't mean much... you probably miss your dog sitter when I move out. Once I hopefully have my place, I'll be busy with my own animals. So sorry I won't be able to take care of yours....
[right -Monster ]
[google-font https://fonts.googleapis.com/css?family=Croissant+One] [croissant+one [center [#79a07c I just need to survive a few more days and by a few more days I mean one more week and I get a shit ton of days off to recover from this bullshit job. After December and me getting crazy sick I have just been stupid exhausted. I can’t even get myself to enjoy anything. It’s hard. Oh well lmao. Such is life. It feels like I’m starting to disassociate again so peace lmaoooo
[left [pic http://i.imgur.com/WwodPSQ.jpg]][center [size10 "here's an invite to my church's Easter service"]][center [size10 okay first of all I'm pagan so no thanks. Literally no one you gave those cards to is going to go. Three of us threw them out the window, and Easter isn't something I've celebrated since I actually had a "family" and I've already been reminded of it thanks to Facebook so I think I'll just spend Easter Sunday doing tarot stuff, but I guess thanks anyways for inviting me to a service for a holiday y'all stole from us anyways. Gotta come into work one night with my emo looking ass and prove a point to you I guess cause boi I was hoping my Facebook woulda scared you by now but I guess that shit too tame.]][center [size10 also I got make up again so guess who can doll themselves tf up. This bitch.]]
I know this isnt a journal, but I've made a discord server for those who are wanting to reconnect! ^~^
Just let me know who you are when you join.
[google-font https://fonts.googleapis.com/css?family=Croissant+One] [croissant+one [center [#79a07c We. Are. Getting. A. KITTY! Alas, Spring is here, and kitty kitty kitty. I really fell in love with Willy... grey cat. And his bud Zach. But they don’t want two cats uuuurrrgghh.
Nothing too crazy eventful happened the past two days. I mean Neon and I got matching necklaces and I made mine into a choker because am smol. I had a dream Faith bought a set of cards that were beautiful.
Also cannot put on false lashes for the life of me. Rip.
I’ve been hella slacking on my Pokémon go. Ugh. I keep forgetting though. Kinda wish our work place was a pokestop or SOMETHING.
This year is gonna be my year. Yup. Last year was too tho lol. This life is mine now. Think positive the universe shits positive.
[croissant+one [center [#79a07c It turns out Luke Combs is coming to Saginaw next Saturday. Which is some booty. I wanna see him so fucking bad.
Also I’ve been thinking a lot about how Faith said Neon and I are Twin Flames..... twin flames. It just never occurred to me I would be twin flames with neon. From the day I first met him I believed I was never good enough to be his friend. I love watching him exist and grow and honestly helping him has brought a lot of joy in my life. It kind of agitates me that everyone doesn’t quite use male pronouns, but, he doesn’t mind. It just bothers me. I don’t think I’m really notable of the universe to have a twin flame or a soul mate of any kind. Although we know my Karmic soulmate will always keep me fucked up. I don’t know what to say about them anymore. Nothing good or bad. Just a stranger to me and it hurts to see it that way. But it’s probably for the better.
A lot of things have been affecting me but I’m trying to not let it get to me. Example, a certain Virgo Unfriended me. We seem cool? We still talk so it just confuses me. Makes me feel especially annoying and.... idk. My depression has been really getting the better of me the past few days. I’m trying to be positive. But I’m not a positive person.
Things have been very nice with the fiancé. He hasn’t been totally aggravating for once. Maybe it’s because I’ve just decided to let things go because I’ve got no energy to be stubborn.
Brandon has his last shit day today. Good riddance you swollen crack head. Don’t catch a bullet on your way out.
My dreams the past few weeks have been sticking to my brain the past few weeks. I remember them as I wake up and after. Typically I don’t. Or st least in recent years I haven’t remembered them. Today I dreamt I was at a pet store. And I dealt with an obnoxious kid. Whose parent couldn’t even be bothered to try to correct his misbehavior. Something unsettling about the fish tanks really scared me. I avoided looking at them at all cost. Behind the murky water was some curtains and a room that looked like a hospital room? I just couldn’t look. I was scared. I then found myself looking at all of the other fish and aquatic creatures. I loved it. Surrounded by fish. Then I saw a family who’s wanted turtles. I informed them a bit about the hardships of keeping turtles and they seemed very intrigued and committed. I woke up right in the middle of conversation though.
I’ve been having a lot of dreams about fish. Not quite sure what that means.
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