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[size10 [center Also let me throw this one at you. Someone says they have cancer and they get alot of attention for it but they actually DO have it. Then someone else sees the attention they get and wants some of that for themselves. So they say they have cancer as well. When they've got no symptoms and haven't gone to the doctor to see. Just for the attention. Or would you consider them to have cancer as legit as the one who's been diagnosed. Your analogy nor mine fits the situation perfectly but that's the mentality of the people I was talking about in my post. People who have had a rather large past in copying the new fad for attention cause it's what's "in" and I'm sure many people would back me up on that cause they know who I'm talking about as well.

DO I know for sure? Nope. But have I seen a pattern from them and know that they had no interest in it before people they didn't like started being open about their witchcraft? Ya damn right.

Forgive me by believing that history tends to repeat itself. But again I ask, why do you care so much? If I'm just some random guy on the internet that you clearly have no understanding of in the slightest. Fuckin block me if you got a problem with me, hoe.

All the other smart people do.]]
  ᴍᴜɴ / Mun / 37d 15h 24m 29s
[center [size10 I've stated many times anything I do feel anger, frustration, etc only lasts about 5 minutes before I just don't care anymore. So I do feel but only in very minuscule amounts. As far as being scared of rejection, sweetie ask around from the people that know me, rejection is literally not even on my radar of worries. You must have only listened to the parts of my posts where I say all the mean shit and ignored when I say that I could lose anyone and be chill with it. Someone like that isn't afraid of rejection. I just- I can't begin to fathom how you got THAT from me lol. I don't think anyone that knows even the slightest about me is that stupid, but you do you. I don't blame my being an asshole on any illness, I've stated that it's why my mind is default that way but I fully accept I am an asshole because I choose to stay that way. Sooo sorry? I guess? Idk what to tell you, I'm fine how I am. I'm grown up enough to bring fights off journal when people bring it to pms. Though everyone is shocked to find that I actually do that like I say I will. Funny when people realize how civil I can be when people don't come at me in journal.

As far as the witch thing goes, who cares? Internet goes both ways, I'm just a dude on the internet that had perhaps an unpopular opinion. Who cares about that opinion? Obviously you do for whatever reason. Not like I made a 500 page rant about it, I literally made one small post and again, then went on not caring about it after that till you brought it back up lol.

People like you always amuse me for about 5 seconds cause you're momentary entertainment but then it's just sad cause you try to make it look like alot of thought went into what you said but- it just- it doesn't. If you actually payed attention to anything I said or how again, the internet working both ways, you'd have no reason to be complaining about me.

So just treat me like some rando on the internet and ignore me if you don't like me hun, I ain't going nowhere cause some half baked hero wannabe "stood up to Mun."]]
  ᴍᴜɴ / Mun / 37d 15h 41m 15s
Oh, how cute. It thinks it knows something about Mun. Truly so cute.
  [-Administrator-] / Strategist / 37d 16h 5m 35s
So, nothing screams stupid other than me forgetting I already have an appointment with an ear doctor and then realizing they rescheduled for next month. Whoops. I walked in and walked right back out. I was so frustrated with myself for not being able to remember even though I wrote it down and looked at every day for a week now.
  002 / LiterallyPluto / 37d 16h 32m 18s
[center [b [+red [size40 Greetings!]]]]

Alright, let's get down to this. For those of you way too lazy I will place this in sections. Please feel free to skim to the parts that you feel pertain to you. Since I don't really believe in bringing up the past I will only cover the topics I have read with in the last 10 pages of this thread that I feel need to be addressed.

[center [h3 "Fake witches"]]
Regarding those who claim people are on this site are "Fake witches" or just "hopping on the bandwagon" or claiming to be a witch simply due to the aesthetics. I have a few questions for you. First question being, how do you know? How do you know they are "Fake witches", do you have proof of this? The answer is probably not because the internet. Can you absolutely certain that these people you are attempting to attack aren't simply now announcing their craft because they feel safe enough not to be harassed and ridiculed for their spirituality? Also witchcraft is not an exclusive thing. Why would it be. If someone was interested in I don't know learning how to read you would call them a fake reader? Well if you answered yes to that question, I believe you should take a look inward and find out why you feel that way. Perhaps mediation could help you with that question.

[center [h3 ES is shit]]
Well let me start this topic here with do those of you realize this is a community? Here is an idea, if you feel like this place "has gone down hill" or "was never great" why not try to make this site better. You know be the change you want to see and all that.
And for those of you who fall under the category of "I don't really care, this place can rot. Ect whatever" you came here for a reason. Writing, right? Well if you believe this site is so terrible and you don't want to put in the effort to make it a better community, there are plenty of other sites that may better suit your needs. If you need assistance with that I can gladly help you.
Personally, this site is home for me. I was here way back when writing with KotaNashi and xKuukiChanx. So yeah, I would like to see this site become a stronger community. But that is just my own personal want. Even if it is rather naive.

[center [h3 Mun]]
Gasp. Am I call you out by name? Yes,yes I am. You claim to be an emotionless robot, who only has a bad side. Trust me I get defective programming. But your ignorant behavior is, I believe nothing more than a child terrified of rejection so he/she pissing all over the carpet, taking your anger and frustration on what ever easy target you spot. My well meaning and I truly believe we'll placed advice for you is simple. Grow up. I get it mental illness sucks, but it doesn't give you the right be an asshole.

[center [h3 Gangs]]
Okay now all about these gangs. I'm going to keep this one short If you have close friends on here that is wonderful. If you are defending your friend great. But don't go looking for fights, and "gang-wars" or whatever. Ever hear the expression live and let live? If not you should totally Google it. Trust me. It's a good quote.

[Center [h3 Dr. Weird or whatever]]
Okay Dr. Weird or whatever you go by now or whatever. People have issues with you. You have issues with people. Now here is a genius idea that I believe Gwen so wonderfully and brilliantly suggested. Leave each other alone. Gasp! What a miraculous conclusion. That is now being told to you by atleast two different people here. If you leave each other alone or even if you feel compelled too block each other, did you know you won't have to deal with each other?
[center [h3 Panthro]]
Yours is really short here.
One you seem to be acquiring a collection of "enemies".
If you are Dr Weird, or insert listed of alt. Usernames this person has used please see section above.
If not if you have a problem with people why not just block them and get on with your life instead of putting them all on blast. I know I should take my own advice. You are correct. But unfortunately for you I am great at giving advice not the best at actually taking it. So, sorry about that.

[center [h3 TLDR]]
Don't be an asshole, and looking back it sounds like this entire post is a full on attack on MUN but in reality you just fall under a lot of the categories. Everyone else, if you are in your twenties, act like it, if you are in your teens use this site to learn how to mature. Trust me it will help you later in life. If you don't like es either leave or work to change it in a positive way. Theodore Roosevelt said "Complaining about a problem with out posing a solution is called whining." and as it was stated on the hit sitcom Friends by Dakota Fanning's character on episode 14 of the 10th season "... Whiners are Wieners." don't be a wiener, be a winner.
If you have any questions, comments or quanderies. Please by all means feel free to contact me on this.
Mk? Thanks.
  I am Jess / WillowBear / 37d 16h 49m 9s
Legit, I'm super proud of how far Ace has come since he got here in July. Got a job, lost the job, but didn't lose the hope of finding another one. Got another job with some people I actually know and adore, and he's doing so fucking well. My future brother-in-law and my future mother-in-law are telling me how good he's doing. That makes me so happy. <3

I just wish life didn't cost money so he could put more aside, lmao. I hate asking him for money when he gets paid, but hey, what can ya do? ;-; I'd pay the bills myself if I could. Fuck you, Walmart.

In other news, I got in a fight with my co-manager yesterday and got my first coaching. I wasn't totally in the wrong so I refuse to step down, but I was the bigger person and apologized first. At least that's off my conscience. We only got in a fight in the first place because she was being a twat and I'm an emotionally explosive child. I'm working on it.

This is the most I've put here in a while, so eat it up, savages. Love you all. ;*

  Jeremy / _JeremyHapHap / 38d 4h 6m 7s
Y'all are posing as poser witches. I'm obvi a fake ass witch. Got myself a tarot deck my bf got me as a gift and into that spiritual shit but denies it, come at me, fam.

I hope you're doing well, I want to talk- but about what? I don't know. I've been flakey as fuck and blowing off all of my friends. I don't really understand what it is. I guess because I'm working full time hours I just kind of... live in my games and talk to my bf. I wish we were closer so we could talk more. I definitely talk more than via online. I'm so terrible at keeping in touch. I'm feeling more like max than the blue haired tattooed punk.

I miss you.
  Pouring / Yuuka / 38d 4h 20m 45s
[left [pic]][center [size10 Ace over here on that mother fucking grind. Going to work 5 days straight which might not sound like much of a feat but as someone who has never pushed themselves to work that many days straight because their jobs were that shitty it's saying a lot. Add to it I'm hopefully only going to have one day off next schedule, if I have two I guess I'll have to suck it up but I really want that extra shift next week. I don't do anything when I'm not working. I don't go anywhere, and I know I need at least one day of rest, but anymore than that and I'll get lazy.]][center [size10 Bitch I just want money so I can get on my own two mother fucking feet.]][center [size10 Also fun fact, I'm the fakest ass witch on this whole site, man. Like have you see me and my astrology and my earth and cosmic witch talk??? oh damn son I am catering to them aliens so hardcore it's not even funny.]][center [size10 seriously tho i wonder if there are any nice shops that have witchy stuff up here cause like this is a very nice place for me to delve further into all that and maybe find more like minded people. Or not idfc I just wanna like be one with nature and like feel all these good vibes from the universe that I been feeling since I moved here. Like florida was shit for vibes but here it's like a fucking cornicopia of energy.]][center [size10 also I tried pot for the first time in like two years yesterday. Worked the first two hours of my ahift high as a kite. Still fucking killed it my dudes.]]
  read me / Taekwoon / 38d 9h 44m 30s
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[Size10 To my ex. Eat your heart out.]
  · 。 ♠ / Grande / 38d 14h 3m 27s

I'm not a fake ass witch.

In case you were pointing shit at me, Mun.
  EmeraldValkyrie / 38d 20h 16m 10s
[Center [size10 Where all these fake ass witches on this fake ass site pouring in from..? Just cause you like the aesthetic doesn't mean you're suddenly a witch. Just cause someone is a furry doesn't mean they a fuckin dog. Maybe stop everybody hoppin on a bandwagon and do your own thing for once, yeah?]]
  ᴍᴜɴ / Mun / 38d 21h 4m 53s
My parents don't even want me around.

All that shit I went through when I was a kid, the physical and emotional abuse, and I get nothing for it. I get a house over my head and that's it.

I get treated like shit. Called lazy, by them, and my own sisters.

My mom sits on her fat ass all day reading books on her iPad, and complains how about how much my dad sleeps. When he works 12 hours a day so that way she can continue to sit on her lazy ass.

Ever since her heart attack, she expects everyone to feel sorry for her. I know plenty of people who've had massive heart attacks, and took their asses right back to work.

I keep my space clean, and clean MY dishes. I'm not going to pick up after everyone else, when I used to do that shit for my ex. I'm not a fucking maid. I go to school and I go to work.

And a fucking camper seriously is not that hard to fucking keep clean. So I seriously don't appreciate this bullshit.

My friends don't give a shit about me either. Otherwise I'd be staying with one of them.
  EmeraldValkyrie / 38d 22h 36m 47s
I don't know what you want from me. I'm not a piggy bank. So stop asking to use my debit card because you refuse to open your own account. I don't the funds for you to put me in a situation where I'm over drafted on for 175 days again. I just can't fix my account my again. Not right now at least. If you missed me, like you say you do. Call me, text, or even visit me. Don't just say you miss me. Do something about it.
  002 / LiterallyPluto / 38d 23h 21m 6s
[center [size14 [font "Courier New" [#696969 •☆•]]]] [i [size8 [font "Courier New" [#696969 "I didn't asked to be made.."

"My first day out of the house to socialize fell flatter than a pancake being thrown off a seven story building. I just fell back into the place of no talking to anyone, what the fuck is wrong with me? I don't want to hurt people with my words, but I don't want to hurt them with my lack of words. A car filled with people and I sat in the back and just said nothing staring out the window, a table layed out with food and I only drank water only to hide my face by looking at my hands hidden underneath said table. Went to a bowling alley in the dark, and I cried in the arms of my so called stepbrother, because a co-worker lied and tried to guilt trip me into coming in.. He thought it was funny, my panic attack said otherwise.. Lying that one of my managers wanted to fired me for not coming in to help him, making me bother her after her work hours to know the truth. I wasn't on the schedule, and I only saw light gazed with tears and I went and locked myself in my brother's car until they finished.."

"Their goes another person whom I cannot trust, I thought I could.. But him knowing of my past and my depression, of my anxiety, of my ptsd and still playing a "joke" like that is why I find it hard to trust people I barely know. Why I carry a boxcutter in my bag when the days I walk to work. Why I'm scared of falling in love with the guy who just wants to love me back.. I just keep repeating to myself: "What did I do so wrong in this life to have so many fucked up things to happen to me?" This is my thoughts on this life that fucks with me. I feel like I bother people, but I hear the same thing.. "No, your a great person." If I'm so great then why am I crying? Freaking out? Great means perfect and I'm far from that."

"My mind is a house, so this part of my house, no one's been in it for years. I built the safe room and I don't let no one in there, because if I do, there's a chance that they might disappear and not come back. And I admit I am emotionally scared to let anyone inside.. So I just leave my doors locked, you might get other doors to open up but this door's not.. Because I don't want you to have the opportunity to hurt me and I'll be the only person that I can blame when you desert me."

"People tell me not to worry, depression and anxiety can be beat.. I know it can, but what about being choked up? Being scared of being made fun of? Being rejected? My biggest fear.. And I regret the fact that I struggled trying to find who I am and I lie to myself and say I do the best that I can. Shrug it off like it ain't nothing like it’s out of my hands, then get ticked off whenever I see it affecting my plans and I regret watching these trust issues eat me alive. And at the rate I'm going they'll probably still be there when I die. Congratulations, you'll always have a room in my mind."

"I'm sorry for bothering you. "

"Their not demons, it's all me.. It's all because of me, I wish people weren't cheering on a useless piece of shit like me. I'm sorry.. I don't need a reality check, and I don't need your pity. So ignore me."

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  ʙʟᴏᴏᴅ / Adorabloodthirsty / 40d 7h 57m 35s
people have whined about how ES isn't as good as it used to be since I joined.

[ thirteen. years. ago.]

that's besides the point though, paedos please go
  The Master / K / 42d 1h 55m 30s

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