They can't seem the grasp the effect of their cause.
They blind themselves to the pain they give you
and you cover the pain to blind yourself.
Who could blame you given the life you've had?
They turn away when your eyes aren't on them and strike out.
Children trying to wear their parent's clothing thinking they can act the part.
Yet when you blow in their face they show their age plain as day.
So stay strong, stand tall, I know its not empty in there.
I know what its like living in a castle broken down, ruined and haunted by demons and ghost alike.
They say they understand but they never try to venture into that castle for fears they could not understand.
So stay strong, stand tall, I know its not empty in there.
It will all fade away, the ones holding the thickest mask will crack and we shall watch them crumble.
We might not be saints but we are certainly not sinners.
It's annoying but I sort of want to show people areound here. Bring them to the sites, shrines, gardens, parks, the gothic style college near by with cherry blossom trees surrounding it, these little cafes and restaurants and crap like that. Tch, if I can even tolerate anyone long enough to waste my time.
[center [size10 loud thunder just really caught me off guard ... kinda screamed a little and definitely jumped ....
I love thunderstorms, I swear ....]]
[center whenever I try to headbang, my glasses fall off]
[center [youtube http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LbfvR5JOts8]]
[center [size10 [font "Courier New" I am dissapearing...and soon when I speak my name, no one will remember it.]]]
My cousin once said he would never have children for fear of creating a deaf one. He said that raising a deaf child is difficult, and it's hard to give them a good childhood. Now that my brother is here with his two children, I believe that it's harder to raise hearing children as a deaf person. You can't hear them when they start crying and have to have someone wake you up when they do. The communication just isn't there, whereas with a deaf child it would be their first language rather than a forced second. There is so many miscommunications that you don't understand why your child is upset or if they are hungry.
That's just the basics, add on the fact my brother has his one year old sleep in her car seat at night when she has a crib, and it's his two year old's job to wake him up when she starts crying. He doesn't feed them properly, giving them nothing but junk food for every meal. His youngest doesn't even eat solids because he still gives her a bottle of milk, never anything else, my sister's kid is seven months and is already drinking juices from a sippy cup.
He has no clue what the fuck he is doing and my mom refuses to be a parenting crutch for him. I'm going to pop a fuse if I keep being woke up by children crying.
Ugh..the moment I get home you're sleep. Not like I want you up with me or anything anyway, stupid. It's just weird not having you annoying me. I ate bean paste bread the other day and it was actually decent. I want to try all the sweets I can while I'm here. And decent ramen and fried pork and a bunch more. Oh..! Oh...! *tries not to seem as excited as she was* And we're going to take a Japanese history tour and see shrines and whatever on Saturday. I guuuuess that'll be sort of interesting
I ᴋɴᴏᴡ I ᴀᴍ ɢᴏɪɴɢ ᴛᴏ ɢᴇᴛ sʜɪᴛ ғᴏʀ ᴛʜɪs ᴇᴠᴇɴᴛᴜᴀʟʟʏ. Assᴜᴍᴘᴛɪᴏɴs ᴡɪʟʟ ʙᴇ ᴛᴏssᴇᴅ. Yᴀ ᴋɴᴏᴡ ᴡʜᴀᴛ ᴛʜᴏᴜɢʜ? I ᴅᴇsᴇʀᴠᴇ ᴛʜɪs. I ᴅᴇsᴇʀᴠᴇᴅ ɪᴛ ᴀʟʟ ᴀʟᴏɴɢ, ᴘᴀᴛɪᴇɴᴛʟʏ sᴜᴘᴘᴏʀᴛɪɴɢ ᴀɴᴅ ᴡᴀɪᴛɪɴɢ.
Aɴᴅ I ᴡᴏɴ'ᴛ ʟᴇᴛ ᴀɴʏᴏɴᴇ ᴄᴏɴᴠɪɴᴄᴇ ᴍᴇ ᴏᴛʜᴇʀᴡɪsᴇ.
Yᴏᴜ'ʟʟ ɴᴇᴠᴇʀ ʙᴇ ᴀʟᴏɴᴇ ᴀɢᴀɪɴ. Yᴏᴜ ᴡɪʟʟ ʜᴀᴠᴇ sᴏᴍᴇᴏɴᴇ ᴏɴ ʏᴏᴜʀ sɪᴅᴇ, ᴡʜᴏ ᴡᴏɴ'ᴛ ʀᴀɴᴅᴏᴍʟʏ ᴡᴀᴋᴇ ᴜᴘ ᴏɴᴇ ᴅᴀʏ ᴀɴᴅ ʟᴇᴀᴠᴇ ʏᴏᴜ ᴏʀ ᴅᴇᴄɪᴅᴇᴅ ʏᴏᴜ ᴀʀᴇɴ'ᴛ ɢᴏᴏᴅ ᴇɴᴏᴜɢʜ.
Yᴏᴜ ᴡɪʟʟ ʜᴀᴠᴇ ᴍᴇ, ʙᴇ ɪᴛ ᴡʜᴀᴛᴇᴠᴇʀ ʏᴏᴜ ᴡɪsʜ.. I ᴡɪʟʟ ʙᴇ ᴡʜᴀᴛᴇᴠᴇʀ ʏᴏᴜ ᴡɪsʜ ᴍᴇ ᴛᴏ ʙᴇ..
[Center Commitment scares me.]
[Center The vulnerability of the word alone makes me anxious. I don't know why we're trained to believe that marriage is seen as normal, and that those who don't accomplish it are missing out on life. What if people are too scared to consider that idea of sharing their future? What if you grew up seeing multiple struggling / failed relationships and marriages. Hopeless, because you're worried that the same exact could happen to you? I know for sure that it's not the way I want to live.]
[Center I rather just trust in myself to obtain a happy, and healthy life. I don't need somebody to fix my life for me.]
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tfw you finally get to close all your goddamn tabs after your essay is done
and then go cry in your sleep cause now you actually have the fucking time to]]
[center [size11 i'm curious as to how other interpret me. when they speak to me, what color do they think of? what voice do they hear? what animal do they see?]]
[center [size11 who am i to you?]]
[center [size11 i'd like to know everything you've ever thought of me.]]
[coming+soon [center [size15 [#859ecc [b Hear that sound?
It rings softly when you're not around.
Grip it tight. If you stop then you'll catch the blade.
Are you bleeding out? The world is fuzzy before you're cut down.
Is anyone around? Everything's in flames, yeah you tried to fight.
Look up. Remember this when someone else comes in town.
Then you hit the ground.
Consumed by flames
You're a monster. A demon of ruin.
You carry curses beneath your skin,
Like a wounded bird they let you in.
When will it stop-stop don't..
The heat comes back again
Your fire within won't stop but fight again.
The sound is gone when you're with them.
You're light in the darkness-you're
Aggression, still kicking them
It's fire what's making it seem like
You're a harmless blaze?
There's that tune,
It blares into your ears: Run. Run. Run.
Oh, I'm fire, can't remember it any other way.
I can't stop the stings I've given them
I told them to not try to touch
My flame within.
Today was odd. I actually did something productive around the house.. maybe I'm not as lazy as I think. Though I got a feeling what actually got me to be productive for once...
I think that was the first time someone said it's okay not to play the hero, all those days ago, in your own special way. it was a suprise but the more I think about it I understand. Dangerous and self destructive isn't even where I would start.
I like that. I'm not required to be anything special around you. Nothing required but my presence. rather liberating. Besides no one can be a hero or knight in shining armor. That's why we say they "play" it. Get so caught up in the act we forget ourselves.
Afterall I'd rather be an honest dog then a false hero.
You know I'm not one for fate but I certainly do feel like a lot of choices have led to me meeting this wild tiger. Such an odd time it's been yet I'm happy for each and everyone I've had. Even though I worry sometimes I can honestly say I can put my faith into this.
Afterall they say a tiger is a symbol of good luck.
And a dog is an extremely loyal companion to those who travel...
Can't wait to see what a combination like us can make!
[center I don't want to leave the band... and I won't
We're performing,,, I promise.
Ugg, smoking has been a blessing and a curse, I'm relieved of so much but I feel like I've gained more weight EVEN THO IM LIKE THE SAME SIZE
fml idk anymore]
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