[center [size10 So last night was chill asf. Talking with Victor was great. Told him he needa stop being a lil bitch and just watch JoJo with us and since he's pretty much Abbacchio pissing in my teapot, he is atleast not giving us a hard no. More like a "we'll see". I'll take it. We also connected more on a few areas and I was also able to convince him and Desmond to let me get him a gaming tower. Pippy can still get fixed on Friday and hopefully so long as the estimate they gave me is somewhat accurate, I should be able to order the computer Friday too so they should have it in a few weeks. We [i Useless Bois]™ gotta stick together and get those games played, son.
Even with me getting the computer, I'll be able to save for Kasvah's tank so once I get back to GA, I should be able to order it and then I can start saving for a car. Funny, the manager at Michael's in Rome already told Aleks' mom that I should go ahead and put in an application for when I get back?? Idk if that's a good sign or not but seems hopeful enough.
On another note, I want to give a shout out to Desmond. That big dumb drowned rat. It's been mostly the two of us out lately and he's helped me alot. I don't usually give "heartfelt" thanks to people but I feel that he deserves one. Been nice to have a bro living daily life with me that is on the same moral grounds that I am. And that is to say no morals. It's great. He and I seem to be cut from the same cloth so he's been a really relieving and relaxing dude to be around. So thanks, you fat fucking ocean cow. You're company is agonizing and much needed.
Things going pretty fucking great for the most part now. Some bumps here and there but shit's falling into place pretty well. Cause there's no 4s probably.
Oh and on a side note, no I don't want a fucking shiny rattata. I just don't. He looked like barf. A barf rat. I'm chaining for a shiny VULPIX. NOT a rattata. Fuck over an hour of standing there waiting for a shiny and it ends up being that barf face. Ugh. Just gimme a shiny vulpix please. ]]
[Center [size10 Friendly PSA. If you don't put faith in people they can't disappoint you. ¯_(ツ)_/¯]]
Tʜɪs ᴡᴇᴇᴋ ʜᴀs ʙᴇᴇɴ ᴀ ᴡʜᴏʟᴇ ɢᴏᴅᴅᴀᴍɴ ᴍᴇss. I ɢᴏᴛᴛᴇɴ ᴅʀᴜɴᴋ ᴀɴᴅ ᴀᴛᴛᴇᴍᴘᴛᴇᴅ ᴛᴏ ʜᴀʀᴍ ᴍʏsᴇʟғ, ʟᴇᴀsᴛ ᴛᴏ sᴀʏ ᴇᴠᴇʀʏᴏɴᴇ ᴡᴀs ɴᴏᴛ ᴘʟᴇᴀsᴇᴅ. Bᴜᴛ ᴍʏ ᴅᴏᴄᴛᴏʀ sᴀɪᴅ ᴛᴏ ᴛᴀᴋᴇ ᴛᴇɴ ᴅᴀʏs ᴏғғ sᴏ ɢᴜᴇss ʜᴏᴡ ᴍᴀɴʏ ᴅᴀʏs ᴇᴠᴇʀʏᴏɴᴇ ɪs ɢᴏɴɴᴀ ʟᴇᴛ ᴍᴇ ᴛᴀᴋᴇ ᴏғғ? I'ʟʟ ɢɪᴠᴇ ʏᴏᴜ ᴀ ʜɪɴᴛ: ɴᴏᴛ ᴛʜᴇ ᴛᴇɴ ᴅᴀʏs ᴀ ɢᴏᴅᴅᴀᴍɴ ᴅᴏᴄᴛᴏʀ ᴛᴏʟᴅ ᴍᴇ ᴛᴏ ᴛᴀᴋᴇ. Aʟʟ ʙᴇᴄᴀᴜsᴇ I ᴄᴀɴ'ᴛ ᴀғғᴏʀᴅ ɪᴛ. Iᴛ's ʙᴇᴇɴ ʜɪᴛᴛɪɴɢ ᴍᴇ ʜᴀʀᴅ ᴛʜᴀᴛ I ᴄᴀɴᴛ ɢᴇᴛ ᴀ ʙʀᴇᴀᴋ ғʀᴏᴍ ᴇᴠᴇʀʏᴛʜɪɴɢ ᴀɴᴅ I ᴅᴏɴ'ᴛ ᴛʜɪɴᴋ ᴀɴʏᴏɴᴇ ʜᴀs ʀᴇᴀʟʟʏ ɴᴏᴛɪᴄᴇᴅ ʜᴏᴡ ʀᴏᴜɢʜ ɪᴛ ɪs ғᴏʀ ᴍᴇ ᴛᴏ ᴋᴇᴇᴘ ᴜᴘ. Mʏ ʙᴏʏ ᴛʜɪɴᴋs I ᴄᴀɴ ᴘᴜsʜ ᴛʜʀᴏᴜɢʜ ʙᴜᴛ ɴᴏ ᴍᴀᴛᴛᴇʀ ᴡʜᴀᴛ I sᴀʏ ʜᴇ ᴡɪʟʟ ᴛʜɪɴᴋ ᴛʜᴀᴛ. I'ᴍ ᴡʜᴏʟᴇ ʜᴇᴀʀᴛᴇᴅʟʏ ᴛɪʀᴇᴅ ᴀɴᴅ ʜᴏɴᴇsᴛʟʏ I ᴅᴏɴ'ᴛ ᴋɴᴏᴡ ʜᴏᴡ I ᴍᴀɴᴀɢᴇᴅ ᴛʜɪs ʟᴏɴɢ. I ᴅᴏɴ'ᴛ ᴋɴᴏᴡ ʜᴏᴡ ᴀɴʏᴏɴᴇ ᴍᴀɴᴀɢᴇs ᴛʜɪs ʟᴏɴɢ. Mʏ ʙᴏᴅʏ ᴀɴᴅ sᴏᴜʟ ɪs ᴛɪʀᴇᴅ. I ʟɪᴛᴇʀᴀʟʟʏ ʟᴀɪᴅ ɪɴ ʙᴇᴅ ᴀʟʟ ᴅᴀʏ ᴀɴᴅ ʜᴀᴠᴇ ʙᴇᴇɴ ᴜɴᴀʙʟᴇ ᴛᴏ ɢᴇᴛ ᴍʏsᴇʟғ ᴛᴏ ᴅᴏ ᴀɴʏᴛʜɪɴɢ. Iᴛ's ᴛᴏᴜɢʜ. Eᴠᴇʀʏᴛʜɪɴɢ. I ᴅᴏɴ'ᴛ ᴋɴᴏᴡ ᴡʜᴀᴛ I'ᴍ ɢᴏɴɴᴀ ᴅᴏ. I ᴄᴀɴ'ᴛ ᴍᴜsᴛᴇʀ ᴛʜᴇ sᴛʀᴇɴɢᴛʜ ᴛᴏ ʙᴇ ᴀɴ ᴀᴅᴜʟᴛ ᴀɴʏᴍᴏʀᴇ. I ᴊᴜsᴛ ᴡᴀɴᴛ ᴛᴏ ʟᴀʏ ɪɴ ʙᴇᴅ ᴀɴᴅ ᴡᴀᴛᴄʜ ɪᴛ ᴀʟʟ ᴘᴀss.
[center [size10 Emily is, and always will be, the biggest cunt here.]]
[Center [size10 Well, I ended up using my 50 dollar amazon card that Davey's mom got me for uvb bulb for basvah, a strainer spoon so I can finally properly fry some chicken and pickles without burning shit cause I gotta pick the things out one at a time, and a min pin shirt thats pretty cool looking. I'm way too excited about frying some chicken.
Also started playing Red Dead and I was way too into beating that O'Driscoll boy in the barn to death. Not used to aiming cause we didn't grow up playing any kind of shooters so I can tell Im gunna be using dead eye pretty often, but it's still fun as fuck none the less and my cow boah Arthur is a whole snacc. Mmm he a full meal.
In other news, Misha's scar has fully healed from getting fixed and now the day has come for Pippy to get fixed on the 4th. Now Misha was no problem and didn't have to wear her cone cause she left the stitches alone and just wanted to rest the whole time she was healing.. Pippy on the other hand.. well.. I don't think she's gunna be that simple. At all. But I guess we'll see and I'll update on how she's doing when the day comes.
Finally, we got a big hermit crab figure from Michaels and he's pretty much a baby boy baby. His name is Sammy and apparently me and Desmond can't help but to parent the fuck out of it. To the point of me jokingly telling him to take Sammy with him to the bathroom and let him play in the sink while he took a piss and he came back saying "I felt too bad not to put him in the damn sink to "play". Thanks" And me sitting here putting him on the bed next to me to watch me play Red Dead. So I guess Sammy is me and Desmond's adopted son now and we are going to be lost in taking care of his cute little plastic self.]]
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[center [size10 If I wasn't living this shit myself I wouldn't believe half the shit I see or do or deal with tbh. Got off work and went to a hotel with Shannon to spend time with her kids. Wound up over there for 4 hours and come home to the apartment ransacked. Turns out the cops had raided the place looking for Shannon because someone had told them that someone they were looking for was with her. Motherfucker that was with her has robbed two banks this week. What even the fuck is going on??? The search warrant just said they were looking for articles of his clothing and money. They found maybe 3 items and only two were MAYBE what they were looking for. Needless to say I haven't slept since 9 am and it's 6 am and I'm mentally exhausted. Should have seen this coming and yet nothing I was oblivious and it fucking sent me into full on panic mode I won't fucking even deny tbh.]]
[center [size10 everything is making me jumpy as well, jumpier than usual that is. I fucking hate this. I hear a thump "oh god are they coming back" irrational af since I know they shouldn't come back they found who they were looking for but it's besides the point. I hate every part of all of this]]
[Center [size10 Reaching that point where there's no point in trying to fight to accomplish any of my goals. I'm determined but I'm not stupid. I can see when there's a roadblock and it's time to either wait, go around it or just quit for now. And with like 50 different things, it just seems like it's time to give up. Do I like it? No But I'm not going to foolishly pour resources and energy into things that have met a dead end? Hell no. I'd rather give up than to keep fighting the enevitable end and just wear myself out in the process. That's stupid and makes no sense to do. Now I just have to decide what things I'm gunna choose to let go of. Sure it's good to have hope. But not blind hope for all those 50 things. Some need to be cut out and that's where the diffuclties are in this decision to let some of it go. This or that. That or this. I guess I'll figure it out.]]
Sweet baby Jebus! No one fought on Christmas this year. Everyone got along. It's a friggin Christmas miracle if I do say so myself.
Anyways, I may get a job after the first week of January. That's a relief... I miss working and if not just be seasonal or for Halloween...
[center [size9 After Christmas was finished,
Jay was done.
I left my sisters and brothers at home and went to a cafe
I don't even know where I'm at in Sheffield.
But I sat there, staring out the window with my laptop on the table, headphones in my ears.
For once, I thought about everything in that chair.
I had emotions I hadn't had in years.
Yeah, I cried in the girl's bathroom of the cafe-
But it was on my terms.
I love life.
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[center [size10 all I'm going to say is fuck this holiday it's the literal worse and I hope my roommate feels better because she isn't a horrible person and she never deserved to lose those children. I'll just sit here while everyone is "celebrating" and watch movies and play games on my phone and try and ignore the sense of self hatred wanting to fucking set myself on fire.]]
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ᴅᴏ ʏᴏᴜ ᴇᴠᴇʀ ᴊᴜsᴛ ᴡᴀᴛᴄʜ sᴏᴍᴇᴏɴᴇ ᴇxɪsᴛ ᴀɴᴅ ɪᴛ sᴛʀᴇssᴇs ʏᴏᴜ ᴏᴜᴛ? ʟɪᴋᴇ ᴛʜᴇ ᴡᴀʏ ᴛʜᴇʏ ʙʀᴇᴀᴛʜᴇ ᴊᴜsᴛ ʟɪᴋᴇ ᴍᴀᴋᴇs ʏᴏᴜ ᴡᴀɴᴛ ᴛᴏ ᴘᴜᴛ ᴛʜᴇᴍ ɪɴ ᴀ ᴄᴜᴘ ᴀɴᴅ sᴇᴀʟ ɪᴛ, ʙʀɪɴɢ ɪᴛ ᴛᴏ ʜɪɢʜᴇsᴛ ᴘᴇᴀᴋ ɪɴ ᴛʜᴇ ᴜɴɪᴠᴇʀsᴇ ᴀɴᴅ ʏᴇᴇᴛ ɪᴛ. ʟɪᴋᴇ ʜᴏᴡ ʏᴢᴍᴀ ᴡᴀɴᴛᴇᴅ ᴛᴏ ᴛᴜʀɴ ᴛᴜʀɴ ᴛʜᴇ ᴇᴍᴘᴇʀᴏʀ ɪɴᴛᴏ ᴀ ᴛɪɴʏ ʟɪᴛᴛʟᴇ ғʟᴇᴀ ᴀɴᴅ ᴘᴜᴛ ʜɪᴍ ɪɴ ᴀ ʙᴏx, ᴛʜᴇɴ ᴀɴᴏᴛʜᴇʀ ʙᴏx, sʜɪᴘ ɪᴛ ᴛᴏ ʜᴇʀsᴇʟғ, ᴀɴᴅ ᴏɴᴄᴇ ɪᴛ ᴀʀʀɪᴠᴇs sᴍᴀsʜ ɪᴛ ᴡɪᴛʜ ᴀ ʜᴀᴍᴍᴇʀ. ʟɪᴋᴇ ᴛʜᴀᴛ ᴇxᴄᴇᴘᴛ ʏᴏᴜ ᴡᴀɴᴛ ᴛᴏ sʜᴀᴋᴇ ᴛʜᴇ ʙᴏx ᴜᴘ ᴀɴᴅ ᴍᴀʏʙᴇ ᴘᴜᴛ ɪᴛ ɪɴ ᴀ ᴏғғʟɪɴᴇ ғʀʏᴇʀ. ᴛʜᴇ ᴛᴜʀɴ ᴛʜᴇ ғʀʏᴇʀ ᴏɴ ᴀɴᴅ ʟᴇᴛ ɪᴛ sʟᴏᴡʟʏ ʜᴇᴀᴛ ᴜᴘ. ᴊᴜsᴛ ᴇɴᴏᴜɢʜ ᴛᴏ sᴄᴀʟᴅ ᴀɴᴅ ʟᴇᴛ ᴛʜᴇ ᴅᴀᴍɴ ᴛʜɪɴɢ ʜᴇᴀʟ. ᴀғᴛᴇʀ ɪᴛ ʜᴇᴀʟs ᴀɴᴅ ʏᴏᴜ'ᴠᴇ ᴍᴀᴅᴇ ɪᴛ ғᴏʀɢᴇᴛ ᴀʟʟ ʏᴏᴜ'ᴠᴇ ᴅᴏɴᴇ ᴛᴏ ɪᴛ ᴊᴜsᴛ ғᴜᴄᴋɪɴɢ sᴛʀᴀɴɢʟᴇ ɪᴛ ᴡʜɪʟᴇ ɪᴛs sʜɪᴛᴛɪɴɢ ʙᴇᴄᴀᴜsᴇ ᴛʜᴀᴛ's ᴡʜᴇɴ ɪᴛs ᴛʜᴇ ᴍᴏsᴛ ᴠᴜʟɴᴇʀᴀʙʟᴇ.
ᴛʜᴀᴛ's ʜᴏᴡ ᴍʏ "ᴍᴀɴᴀɢᴇʀ" ᴍᴀᴋᴇs ᴍᴇ ғᴇᴇʟ ʟᴍᴀᴏ.
ʜᴇ ʜᴀᴅ ᴛʜᴇ ᴀᴜᴅᴀᴄɪᴛʏ ᴛᴏ ᴛʀʏ ᴀɴᴅ sᴀʏ ᴍʏ ʜᴏᴍᴇɢɪʀʟ ᴍᴀɴᴀɢᴇʀ ᴡᴀs ғᴀᴋɪɴɢ ʜᴇʀ ᴀʀᴍ sᴘʀᴀɪɴ. ɴᴜʜ ᴜʜ ʙᴇᴛᴄʜᴀ ɪ ᴛᴏʟᴅ ʜᴇʀ sᴏ ғᴀsᴛ ʜᴇ sᴀɪᴅ sʜᴇ ᴡᴀs ғᴀᴋɪɴɢ ɪᴛ. ʏᴇs ɪ ᴅᴏ ʟɪᴋᴇ ᴛᴏ ᴀᴅᴅ sᴏᴍᴇ sᴇᴀsᴏɴɪɴɢ ᴀs ɪ sᴛɪʀ ᴛʜᴇ ᴘᴏᴛ. ᴅᴏɴᴛ ғᴜᴄᴄ ᴡɪᴛʜ ᴍᴇ.
ᴀʟsᴏ ғᴜᴄᴋɪɴɢ ɴᴏ ᴏɴᴇ sᴛᴀɴᴅs ɪɴ ᴛʜᴇ ᴡᴀʏ ᴏғ ᴍᴇ ᴀɴᴅ ᴍʏ ᴘᴇᴛs ɪғ ᴛʜᴇʏ ɴᴇᴇᴅ ᴀ ᴅᴀᴍɴ ʜʏᴅʀᴏᴍᴇᴛᴇʀ ᴀɪɴ'ᴛ ɴᴏ ᴘᴇʀsᴏɴ ᴡʜᴏ ᴏᴄᴄᴀsɪᴏɴᴀʟʟʏ ɢɪᴠᴇs ᴍᴇ ᴘʟᴇᴀsᴀɴᴛ ᴄᴏᴍᴘᴀɴɪᴏɴsʜɪᴘ ᴀɴᴅ ᴅɪᴄᴋ ɢᴏɴɴᴀ sᴛᴏᴘ ᴍʏ ɴᴇᴇᴅs ᴛᴏ ᴍᴏᴛʜᴇʀ sᴏᴍᴇᴛʜɪɴɢ ʟᴏʟᴏʟ
[center [size10 I wrote a whole ass long fucking post and hit post right as I realized I was typing in rt chat. What a dumb ass. For now, no way in hell I'm typing all that again. So I'll summarize. Pokemon Lets Go is actually good. Hope they make more remakes in this style. Got a chain of 43 vulpix to try to get a shiny, not knowing that 31 was the highest your change boost goes and ended up breaking the chain like a dumb.
Said I was gunna stop playing pokemon but then turned over and immediately started chaining again. Made a joke. "I lied to myself like a girl lies to her bf about getting the hydrometer. She did get it." Was glad my eevee and all 3 gen 1 starters atleast got to level 28 from all the chaining. And excitedly ranted about my big boy arcanine named Bante. What a good boy.
Mused about how the Vulpix that broke it would have been the 44th one and pondered if Mista's unlucky 4 was going to start rubbing off on me and start making me feel its unluckiness now.
And finally I talked about how thanks to the old gods of Blizz, leveling alts is now alot easier, the new gods of activision are shit, yadda yadda and Ocyra was 73 just a few days ago but now she's closing in on a solid level 90. Praise the old gods. I'm done here. We're in rp responses now, yes? Yes? Good. Holy fuck.]]
[center [size9 The nights waste away into daydreams.
Now, shut your dirty mouth.
If I could burn this town, I would.
I would watch as you suffocate and die.
So bite your tongue and choke yourself to sleep.
Money always talks to the idiot savants.
Because all you do is ever chant the same old, same ol'.
Some people think their sociopaths, some think they have some kind of mental intrusion via aliens.
Maybe I'm both, a little bit of both.
Anti-social disorder mixed in with extroverted thoughts.
But I don't know if I'm a sociopath, I don't want to be.
But damn do I wanna be called one by someone to push me over that fucking edge
It was on the tip of her tongue,
"Sociopathic tendencies and narcissistic tendencies too."
Fuck, I told you I don't have that shit-
Supposedly getting a phone for Christmas or a vape pen and that'll be fucking lit, literally.
Need sleep but I'm so good at telling lies.
And now you've done a little wrong.
And you need to be forgiven.
by the vicar and the company you keep.
And then you conjure a fiction
To get the pretty girl to listen.
It's a modern concussion.
The room is on fire, put it OUT!
We're an upstanding model
Of a modern day Cain.
With impeccable style.
Crawling up your skin.
Potions, pills, and medicines.
To drain you.
To drain your positive magic.
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[size10 I'd ask where I fit in but I'm pretty sure I've known for a while lol.
Merry Christmas to those that celebrate it.
Happy Holidays to those that don't.
Though I am curious what you guys celebrate. if you celebrate anything at all.
enough of that.
some people really suck @ hiding and are hella obvious but none of my business
you guys do you
my dog has the worst farts in the world
wanna buy his ass an air freshener
but mostly just wondering why they smell awful, why he's always farting, and what I can do to make it better.
still waiting to get a black cat. boyfriend's a bit of an ass.
mentally kind of stable.
exhausted from working seven days straight.
got paid time and a half today tho so fuck yeah.
gonna preorder kh3 with that mons.
should've gone to bed ages ago, but idk. I wanna play a million things since I actually have days off lol.
hoping the year ends on a good note, but I'm not convinced.
If I'm lucky, next year will be better, but who knows. I try to remain hopeful. The least I can do.
Not much more to say. I hope everyone has a good rest of their year, despite being almost over.]
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