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as the winter season approaches, I'd like to remind everyone who drives to buckle your seatbelts and drive slower. especially if you have children riding with you. I've already had to deal with one child death this winter, a ten year old boy killed in a roll over. I don't want to hear about any more. be careful and drive safely. don't become a statistic.
  ooc / ouroboros / 30d 14h 34m 11s
Facebook is being stupid. I can't like anything and my stuff keeps getting flagged. How are the videos I share against your community policy, but these people posting porn videos of themselves or of other people acceptable?!
  Himiko / LiterallyPluto / 32d 3h 37m 9s
[center [size12 "Beaten In Lips." ]
[size8 Instruments Used: Rhythm & Electric Guitar and Drums
Tempo: 97 Beats Per Second.
Genre: Emo
Time: 3:32 ]

[size11 Everything that I say won't mean anything less.
When I'm down in a grave and you've put me to rest.
Everything that I say won't mean anything less,
When I'm down in that grave and you've put me to rest.

Will the story end?
Will it ever change?
I never knew a person could be so deranged.
Does it make you feel good?
Do you feel strong?
Ruining the lives of everyone you love!

As if life isn't hard already,
Just add it to the list of things to forget.
With one chance to define ourselves,
We're gonna keep on living,
Keep on living!

This is for the kids with the beaten in lips,
Who's parents try to shut them up using their fists.
Keep living loud and proud,
They never can hold you down!

This is for the kids with the soul like mine,
When people tell living is a waste of your time.
Keep living loud and proud,
They never can hold you down!

Pull the plug with a single decision
Your way of life is a contradiction
Go to life, celebrate with ketamine
Mend the wounds
And light it with kerosene!
Light my wounds with kerosine!
Light my wounds with kerosine!

As if life isn't hard already,
Just add it to the list of things to forget.
With one chance to define ourselves,
We're gonna keep on living,
Keep on living!

This is for the kids with the beaten in lips,
Who's parents try to shut them up using their fists.
Keep living loud and proud,
They never can hold you down!

This is for the kids with the soul like mine,
When people tell living is a waste of your time.
Keep living loud and proud,
They never can hold you down!

Listen to the sound of your children revolting,
Listen to the sounds of the lives your ruining.

This is for the kids with the beaten in lips,
Who's parents try to shut them up using their fists.
Keep living loud and proud,
They never can hold you down!

This is for the kids with the beaten in lips,
Who's parents try to shut them up using their fists.
Keep living loud and proud,
They never can hold you down!

This is for the kids with the soul like mine,
When people tell living is a waste of your time.
Keep living loud and proud,
They never can hold you down!

Everything that I say won't mean anything less,
When I'm down in a grave and you've put me to rest! ]
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[size10 my girl made it into NT and you can fuckin' fight me

jkjk

I'll probs just be over here crying and actually picking up NT again

haven't played it since it came out tbh
not really sure why

guess I've just gotten sucked into other games.

Finished Automata C+D the other night. Was up until 8am but it was worth it lmao.

Guess that's it.

@the people I know
take care of yourself guys]]
  Akali / 32d 11h 47m 37s
Fun.

Guess all I'm good for is fucking nudes.

I have a low self-esteem. Stop helping with it.

Thanks.

--Xephy
  Yusei Fudou / _YuseiFudou / 32d 17h 26m 42s
I’m low key pissed someone has been pretty much copying my roleplay responses and character ideas for a similliar roleplay they are in. :/ Unsure of how to deal with it but I think I’m going to stop roleplaying with said person and hope they don’t continue to read my responses before posting in their roleplay and copying literally word for word some of my paragraphs.

Please be original.

It literally makes me not want to roleplay on here or write.

I so badly want to vent but I’m awful at conflict but at the same time it took me a long ass time to come up with my ideas for my character and her past. So for someone to just pluck up what they want and use it is annoying and upsetting.

Not even sure I want to continue said roleplay any longer. Might just start fresh with all roleplays.
N U L L I
  Lucrezia C Gardens / Nullification / 32d 22h 10m 54s
It's finally cold here. I'd enjoy it if I weren't sick.

Though, my week has been shitty, some of my wigs are on the way and so are these cute Bulbasaur kitten ears I I won in an Instagram auction. Now, if only I could la d this job at the new service station here and I could save up and get my K/DA Ahri and K/DA Akali cosplays commissioned.
  Himiko / LiterallyPluto / 33d 3h 41m 58s
[Center [size12 "Under The Weather." ]
[size11 I know I said it a 1,000 times
These doubts fill my mind but
I refuse to keep mine shut.

No one believed in me,
Well, motherfucker, they'll see.
When I was lost and you knew I was lost,
Why the struggle?
Just breathe.

When you forgot and
You knew I got caught.
They all say
"Baby, you're just under the weather."
They never knew my problems.
And I don't care any longer.

Dish all you want, but who's gonna save me?
You'd never make me leave,
I wear this on my sleeve,
Give me a reason to believe...

So give me all your poison, your pills
Your hopeless thoughts and make me ill.
If this is what you want then fire at will.

God, I want to call you my father
I'm tired of drinking my life away
When did my life start at the bottom of the bottle?
My body's stuck to the floor,
I don't feel like myself anymore.
I have a problem,
We have a problem.

I've always been a fan of the nightlife
'Cause it's the only life I've had
Expressing my mind with paper and the pen,
Playing my guitar 'til my fingers bleed!
I wasn't like all the other kids,
I was born just a little bit different.

You say I'm just a loser in the background,
I could seem to get it right.
Well, I'm learning my worth is more than your worth.
More than your fucking worth.
[center [size10 Sometimes I just want to admit everything to you, but I don't think that would be a good thing to do, even though I highly suspect that you already know. I told you tonight that I care about your feelings and you just came back with "What feelings? I don't have those." and when I told you to just take the statement as I meant it you gave me a sarcastic "suuuure" boy I will fight you, I care a lot about you, I hate that you work yourself so much, I know that's just who you are but I hate that you're wearing yourself down that much. I hate that no one takes your work seriously either. You went to tell jordan about raven leaving her shit unfinished and all you got in return was a "you don't even finish your shit" but the thing is you actually go out of your way to do the shit none of the other night cooks do, and yet when you have to half ass some of the shit you get all the shit for it. You bust your ass with nothing to show but overtime when they feel like giving it to you. Then again you are cross trained on pretty much everything. You go from being scheduled as cook to doing line and drive thru. I wish you took what I said seriously even if I don't show it I mean it. There's a reason I can't say no to you unless it could get me in trouble and even then I wind up doing it half the time. You cover for me more than anyone else in that place. Our bickering gets us in trouble and yet instead of me getting yelled at for it you take the brunt of it and tell them you started it even though it's a two way street with our bickering. It's just how we are, even when I'm in a good mood I give you attitude. You'll say something and I'll roll my eyes because good lord how can one man be that much of a pain in my ass and be so perfect in my eyes even though I know you're not. We've both been through similar shit and it's why I wanted you to know I care about your feelings. I don't just say that shit to anyone, and trust me there are people who I don't need to say it to that I have never once uttered those words to. But you were in such a shit mood last night and mentioned "why would anyone care about my feelings" and I tried to tell you multiple times then that I cared, being 100% serious about it but you were so distracted that you didn't hear me. I know you probably don't think you deserve anyone's care or concern but I will 100% give you both of those things, because it's all I can do. You let me bum cigarettes off of you tonight and paid for the majority of my cab fare so the least I can do is buy you a pack of cigarettes before work. The least I can do is buy you red bulls when I have the money to. The least I can do is help you with dishes when I can when we close. These are the least I can do. The least I can do is let you vent to me by the dumpsters until you get yelled at by whoever the shift lead is when you're working and I'm not. I can't do much for you but that's what I can give you. I hope to everything I believe in that you do take me when you leave, I don't want to get left behind, you're what makes work worthwhile. It's nice having someone who doesn't take me being a whiney baby, though you do to a degree. I want to give you everything I possibly can and that's a dangerous thing, considering I know you don't want anything, but it's okay, I don't think I need anything like that right now anyway, whatever this is that we're doing I'm okay with it. I adore you and I just want you to be okay and happy even though I know that's asking for a lot but one can at least hope.]]
  / Crow-Sama / 33d 14h 10m 43s
[Center [size12 "Doomed." ]
[size11 You must have made some kind of mistake.
I've asked for death but I'm still awake.
And you make me feel like I'm drowning.
My world is coming down around me.
Drowning in the smell of weed and you,
Your pity parties and my problems.

All this time I fight for myself,
As you try to screw me over
I bet you never cared,
I knew you never fucking cared.

Drowning in this pain of a human being.
But I still carry on.
I messaged NEDA and got a really sweet ans supportive reply. The even sent me links to see if there are any free meet ups for group therapy. I found a few. I wanna go sit in them and see what's it like.


Yesterday was fucked up. I feel like absolute shit and my eyes hurt from crying...
  Himiko / LiterallyPluto / 34d 2h 53m 58s
[center [size12 11/14/18 ]

[size11 So lately, I've been going to the center of Old Town to get some stuff and even just hang around with Juko at night. That is the time where all the addicts come out to buy their drugs and I didn't know why but I wanted to see what it was like. Someone was selling some heroin while Juko was going shopping and I did the most stupid decision ever.

I bought $100 worth of heroin from this guy and I hid it on me until Juko came back to the car. Eventually, when I did get home I kinda blanked out after smoking some of the weed that I have leftover from a week ago. I guess I decided to go out and try this shit out and now I have track marks on my upper arm.

I've been wearing sweaters and jackets more than usual to hide the track marks from everybody and I feel ashamed but at the same time, it felt good. I don't know what I should do but I should tell Juko since he had a coke problem before. But at the same time, I don't want to disappoint him.

I don't know what to do anymore, I'm sorry God. I'm sorry Juko. Please forgive me.

[youtube https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CD_tD26E7k0 ]
[center [size10 Everything has been weird. Yesterday was a mess. I was a mess yesterday. Matt and me were both high af at work. I went out to smoke a cigarette with Jordon in her car, matt poked his head out to ask if i was outside and she told him I wasn't cause it wasn't any of his business where i was. Matt mentioned taking me with him when he leaves again. So I can supposedly keep everything clean for him and get my license and a better job that fits what I wanna do more. Plus also prolly so he can keep a better eye on me. When I asked him who would give me shit when i make bad decisions if he leaves and that was his response. My cab driver tonight gave me some cigarettes when I mentioned I only had one left. Tbh live pretty good right now despite the small amount of drama but it's okay, that's prolly going be figured out soon anyways. So glad I have tomorrow off, and then after that is payday, and I have so much shit I gotta try and buy tomorrow as well as take out the rest of my rent or might just do that next paycheck since I can't even give it to her until she comes back in two weeks. Time do to some art and listen to music and then pass tf out for who knows how fucking long.]]
  / Crow-Sama / 34d 12h 51m 59s
Wow, thanks, phone. I didn't want to post in real realtime chat.


Anyways, I'm going through a lot changes, most of them negative, but I'm trying to only focus on the positive changes...

I'm thankful for my friends I still talk from ES and the ones I still talk to on ES now. I can't wait to cosplay with Bby Ash and Mun one day. It'd be an experience.

My boyfriend wants me to fly to Washington and meet his family for the holidays. I'm not sure if my anxiety would let me. I'm scared I'll be looked at in a bad way by his mom.
  Himiko / LiterallyPluto / 35d 2h 51m 22s
[youtube https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CD_tD26E7k0 ]

[Center [size12 "Some people steal, some people rape your heart." ]
[size11 All the good people have died this year, Stan Lee, Prince X, Diana Sowle, Oli Herbert of All The Remains, Stefan Karl Stefansso, Mac Miller. ]
  [ᴏʜ ɴᴏ] / Catharsis- / 35d 4h 14m 40s
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