[google-font https://fonts.googleapis.com/css?family=Josefin+Slab][Josefin+Slab [size18 [#424242 When you gotta hook up your Prince with your cuisine [s Kraft] Mac and Cheese
Barely been awake like two hours and already wanting to go back to sleep. This does not bode well with Mothers Day coming up. I don't know if I'll be able to afford that necklace I wanted to get for her and that honestly makes me really ashamed of myself.
She's not perfect by any means but she tries really hard for me and really I probably wouldn't have made it past eighteen without her.
Edit: I need to get this off my chest but I aint gonna double post
Thanks for making it clear now what I am to you. Or at least was.
A scapegoat for your anger.
Not worth your actual time.
You get so angry about people turning on you yet don't even blink an eye with me. And I never did anything but blame myself.
I sobbed over you and loved you to the point I let myself be your doormat in the hopes you'd soon stop, that I'd finally get through to you that I only want the best for you but I didn't like being hurt.
I might not be perfect but you never even bothered to tell me what I did wrong and you know what.
Do you even care I was drinking that night to try and bury what was already hurting me?
Did you even stop to wonder if maybe you should've eased it on me first?
Do you even give a shit I've been so depressed all I can do is sleep and walking hurts because I hated myself so much that night like it seemed everyone else fucking did that I went back on an old promise I'd stop self harming?
No, probably not.
Thanks a fucking lot.]]]
Dammit, I can't cook from for crap. Not that the directions in Japanese help. But grr...I wrecked that Mac and cheese. Shut up I know it's supposed to be easy. "Supposed" to be. Not like it was kraft or somthin. Tch what a waste of time. Now I have wait a couple of days before I can get a decent meal bc their schedule is garbage. Tch, your prince is gonna staaarve. The struggle is real
[center [pic http://images.complex.com/complex/kc5w68j7anjj1my9to0x.gif]]
[center [i look, my heart's free again]]
[right [size27 THAT.]]
[center [size32 [b LIBERATING.]]]
[center [size20 ♥]]
I think we surprise ourselves for what we can really achieve when we're surrounded by the ones who love us.
I may not know it all, but this sums it all up.
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[right [i [size10 Burned outta my system,]]]
[right [i [size10 [+blue incendio!]]]]
[center [size10 So befor Ali leaves I'm gonna have to ask her to borrow some pliers so the next time I get to hang out with Clair I can have Eugenio yank out this tooth because it's aggitating my anxiety. I don't like holes in things that shouldn't have holes. I don't like unnatural textures. I hate this. I want this tooth gone asap.]]
Im not ignoring anyone btw just putting this out here
My brother graduates tomorrow
I'm going to be cleaning more
Everyone is safe and happy and ok
Please don't worry
[google-font https://fonts.googleapis.com/css?family=Josefin+Slab][Josefin+Slab [size18 [#424242 I've been massively tired the past few days. Yesterday for instance I fell asleep on four different occasions. Not for like, an hour or two each time. I was probably only awake six or seven hours yesterday.
I woke up four hours ago but already the feeling of having not slept for days is setting in.
I really need to take this as a sign that I am [i emotionally incapable of dealing with these stressful situations], but who am I kidding, I don't usually take the time to put myself first anyways.
I guess the only thing I really took out of all this is what people are genuinely worth fully trusting, not just in the way of with sensitive information, but friends I can trust to fall back on when I need them and the friends who just make me feel even a little like I'm worth it.
So hey, thank you. You all make life a little less shittier.]]]
[center i fall asleep at a decent time for once, have no dreams,][center no nightmares,] [center but i wake up feeling funny. something felt off]
[center and here is why]
[center how does stuff like this [i always] happen when i'm taking a break?]
[center y'all're okay one second, i blink, everything turns to shit]
[center and now everyone's gone and i have to sit here and worry]
[center what the fuck.]
I'm not sure what I'd do without my friends.
I really love them.
Been here for me through a lot.
They support me.
We have fun.
& especially Sasha,
thank you so much.
I'm so glad to have met all of you.
Tomorrow's gonna be a better day, yeah?
[paprika [center [#a47f82 [Pic http://i.imgur.com/t4MW0yX.jpg]
Guess what this slut just watched today?
I didn't cry, you fucking did.
[center [size10 I'm usually pretty chill until people start messing with my friends or family
then I'm basically all, "who's fucking with you?? LEMME AT EM"
[center [size10 There goes my mood. It really bothers me, I don't know.]]
[center [size10 Sigh.]]
[center [size10 Kinda funny because I always end up being right. My gut doesn't lie. I like how these losers won't respect our relationship, why is it so difficult to? They really think they can pull a mister steal yo girl? Fuck boi... I bet you can't even cough up a word outside of the internet to a female, cunt..]]
[center [size10 So annoyed. Piece of shit. Nothing but a [i nah] when I'm a [b yes.]]]
part of my mind yells on repeat
"what's the point?" until it convinces me to just give up
while an other part yells on repeat
"every one will leave or betray you, everything is out to harm you, everyone wants you sabotaged or dead" until it convinces me that my best option is to hide away
another part sits me in the center of a whirlwind of thoughts, all of which count too fast to see or become complete
and another part repeatedly tells me that this will always be my life and there is no hope for escape, that the things that traumatized me were things i deserved, that my existence's soul use was to be used and abused by others and thrown away when i had nothing left to give,
convincing me that my only options are death or that my entire being is a useless, worthless piece of garbage
my once pure white soul has been tainted by a multitude of foul colors snd noe it's just a flurry of inpurities and tears
i never get a break
i never never never never never get a break
[center [size10 All this time and I still blush.. ♡]]
[center [size10 So thankful.. life isn't perfect but it's close enough. My sister is cancer free and I have someone who loves me unconditionally and I, her.]]
[center [size10 Thank you.]]
[center Ya know what I find so adorable about you, Emily? You go on and on about how you're "done with this site" but then still turn around and make [http://rp.eliteskills.com/u.php?u=54767 yet another] account. The fact that you already had me blocked on it leaves me little room for doubts that it is host to your "muses"
Just so you're aware, you can't say something is "mine and mine alone" if you literally stole 50-100% of the information about them.
Have fun creating these endless new accounts so you can steal from us some more! Hope it's entertaining for you.]
Same bullshit different place and people. Somethings never change no matter who you end up grouping with.
Maybe it's just human nature?
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