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[pic https://images-wixmp-ed30a86b8c4ca887773594c2.wixmp.com/f/6aea9a72-b071-442b-966e-bc3308037dd7/dbqfcip-4904f04d-251e-4412-ba5b-8c399b010e86.png?token=eyJ0eXAiOiJKV1QiLCJhbGciOiJIUzI1NiJ9.eyJzdWIiOiJ1cm46YXBwOjdlMGQxODg5ODIyNjQzNzNhNWYwZDQxNWVhMGQyNmUwIiwiaXNzIjoidXJuOmFwcDo3ZTBkMTg4OTgyMjY0MzczYTVmMGQ0MTVlYTBkMjZlMCIsIm9iaiI6W1t7InBhdGgiOiJcL2ZcLzZhZWE5YTcyLWIwNzEtNDQyYi05NjZlLWJjMzMwODAzN2RkN1wvZGJxZmNpcC00OTA0ZjA0ZC0yNTFlLTQ0MTItYmE1Yi04YzM5OWIwMTBlODYucG5nIn1dXSwiYXVkIjpbInVybjpzZXJ2aWNlOmZpbGUuZG93bmxvYWQiXX0.l_6C81IdFOEdqSL7BctmPuE7-l9X5uHcHFV3EQfSJAQ] ɪ'ᴠᴇ sᴀɪᴅ ғᴏʀ ᴀ ʟᴏɴɢ ᴛɪᴍᴇ ᴛʜᴀᴛ ɪ sɪᴍᴘʟʏ "ᴅᴏɴ'ᴛ ᴄᴀʀᴇ". ʙᴜᴛ ᴡᴇ ᴀʟʟ ᴋɴᴏᴡ ᴛʜᴀᴛ's ʟᴏɴɢ ғʀᴏᴍ ᴛʜᴇ ᴛʀᴜᴛʜ. ɪ ᴄᴀʀᴇ ᴛᴏᴏ ᴍᴜᴄʜ. ɪ ᴄᴀʀᴇ ᴀʙᴏᴜᴛ ᴘᴇᴏᴘʟᴇ ᴡʜᴏ ᴅᴏɴ'ᴛ ᴇᴠᴇɴ ʙᴏᴛʜᴇʀ ɴᴏᴛɪᴄɪɴɢ ᴍʏ ᴇxɪsᴛᴇɴᴄᴇ. ɪ ᴄᴀʀᴇ ғᴏʀ ᴘᴇᴏᴘʟᴇ ᴡʜᴏ ᴅɪsʀᴇɢᴀʀᴅ ᴍʏ ᴡᴀɴᴛs. ᴏʀ ᴍʏ ɴᴇᴇᴅs. ɪ ᴀᴍ ɴᴏᴛᴏʀɪᴏᴜs ғᴏʀ ʟᴏᴠɪɴɢ ᴘᴇᴏᴘʟᴇ ᴡʜᴏ sɪᴍᴘʟʏ ᴡᴀɴᴛ ᴍᴏʀᴇ ᴛʜᴀɴ ɪ ᴄᴏᴜʟᴅ ᴇᴠᴇʀ ᴀᴍᴏᴜɴᴛ ᴛᴏ. ᴏʀ ᴊᴜsᴛ ʟᴏᴠᴇ ᴛʜᴇɪʀ ɪᴅᴇᴀ ᴏғ ᴍᴇ. [pic https://images-wixmp-ed30a86b8c4ca887773594c2.wixmp.com/f/6aea9a72-b071-442b-966e-bc3308037dd7/dbmqwhu-800e25eb-7adb-412d-905b-899862c5500d.gif?token=eyJ0eXAiOiJKV1QiLCJhbGciOiJIUzI1NiJ9.eyJzdWIiOiJ1cm46YXBwOjdlMGQxODg5ODIyNjQzNzNhNWYwZDQxNWVhMGQyNmUwIiwiaXNzIjoidXJuOmFwcDo3ZTBkMTg4OTgyMjY0MzczYTVmMGQ0MTVlYTBkMjZlMCIsIm9iaiI6W1t7InBhdGgiOiJcL2ZcLzZhZWE5YTcyLWIwNzEtNDQyYi05NjZlLWJjMzMwODAzN2RkN1wvZGJtcXdodS04MDBlMjVlYi03YWRiLTQxMmQtOTA1Yi04OTk4NjJjNTUwMGQuZ2lmIn1dXSwiYXVkIjpbInVybjpzZXJ2aWNlOmZpbGUuZG93bmxvYWQiXX0.-3lIvG1fAvQgpojQXIaUM1b8kc2P-i7xk503U6rMQ1A] ɪ'ᴍ sᴏ ᴅʀᴀɪɴᴇᴅ ғʀᴏᴍ ʟᴏᴠɪɴɢ. ɪ'ᴍ ᴅʀᴀɪɴᴇᴅ ғʀᴏᴍ ɪɴᴛᴇɴsᴇʟʏ ᴄᴀʀɪɴɢ ᴡɪᴛʜ ᴀʟʟ ᴏғ ᴍʏ ʙᴇɪɴɢ. ɪ'ᴍ ғᴜᴄᴋɪɴɢ ᴀɴɴᴏʏᴇᴅ ᴛʜᴀᴛ ɴᴏ ᴍᴀᴛᴛᴇʀ ʜᴏᴡ ᴍᴜᴄʜ ɪ ɪɴᴠᴇsᴛ ɪɴᴛᴏ sᴏᴍᴇᴛʜɪɴɢ ɪᴛ ᴊᴜsᴛ ғᴀɪʟs. ɪᴛ's ᴀs ɪғ ɪ ᴀᴍ ᴛʜᴇ ʀᴏᴛ ᴏғ ᴍɪᴅᴀs. sᴏ ʟᴏʟ ɪғ ᴀɴʏᴏɴᴇ ɪs ʟᴏᴏᴋɪɴɢ ᴛᴏ ᴘᴜʀᴄʜᴀsᴇ ᴛʜᴇsᴇ ғᴇᴇʟɪɴɢs ᴛʜᴇʏ'ʀᴇ ᴏɴ sᴀʟᴇ. ɪᴏɴ ᴡᴀɴᴛ ᴛʜᴇᴍ ᴀɴʏᴍᴏʀᴇ. ɪ ᴄᴀʀᴇ ғᴏʀ ᴘᴇᴏᴘʟᴇ ʙᴜᴛ ɪ sʜᴏᴜʟᴅ ʜᴀᴠᴇ ʟᴇᴀʀɴᴇᴅ ᴍʏ ʟᴇssᴏɴ ᴡɪᴛʜ ᴍʏ ʟᴀsᴛ ʙᴇsᴛ ғʀɪᴇɴᴅ. ᴛʜᴀᴛ ʏᴏᴜ sɪᴍᴘʟʏ ᴄᴀɴ'ᴛ ʟᴏᴠᴇ sᴏᴍᴇᴏɴᴇ ᴇɴᴏᴜɢʜ ᴛᴏ ɢᴇᴛ ᴛʜᴇᴍ ᴛᴏ sᴇᴇ ᴀʟʟ ᴛʜᴇ ʟᴏᴠᴇ ɪɴ ᴛʜᴇ ᴡᴏʀʟᴅ ʟɪᴋᴇ ʏᴏᴜ ᴅᴏ. ᴛʜᴇʏ ᴄᴀɴ'ᴛ ᴀʙsᴏʀʙ ᴍʏ ᴡɪʟʟ ᴛᴏ ʙᴇ ʙᴇᴛᴛᴇʀ. ᴛᴏ ᴅᴏ ʙᴇᴛᴛᴇʀ. ɪ ʜᴀᴅ ᴘᴜᴛ ᴍʏsᴇʟғ ɪɴ ᴀ ʙᴇᴛᴛᴇʀ ᴘʟᴀᴄᴇ. ɪɴ ᴛᴜʀɴ ɪ ɢᴏᴛ ʙᴇᴛᴛᴇʀ. ʙᴇᴄᴀᴜsᴇ ᴛʜᴀᴛ's ᴡʜᴀᴛ ɪ ᴡᴀɴᴛᴇᴅ. ᴘᴇᴏᴘʟᴇ sᴀʏ ᴡʜᴀᴛ ᴛʜᴇʏ ᴡᴀɴᴛ, ʙᴜᴛ ᴀᴛ ᴛʜᴇ ᴇɴᴅ ᴏғ ᴛʜᴇ ᴅᴀʏ ᴡʜᴀᴛ ᴍᴀᴛᴛᴇʀs ɪs ᴍʏ ғᴇᴇʟɪɴɢs. ᴍʏ ᴍᴇɴᴛᴀʟ ʜᴇᴀʟᴛʜ. ᴀɴᴅ ɪᴛ's sᴏ ᴅᴇᴘᴇɴᴅᴇɴᴛ ᴏɴ ᴍʏ ʟᴏᴠᴇᴅ ᴏɴᴇs ʙᴇɪɴɢ ʜᴀᴘᴘʏ. ʙᴜᴛ ʏᴏᴜ ᴋɴᴏᴡ ᴡʜᴀᴛ? ɪ'ᴍ sᴛᴀʀᴛɪɴɢ ᴛᴏ sᴇᴇ ᴛʜᴀᴛ ɪ ʜᴀᴠᴇ ᴛᴏ ʟᴇᴀʀɴ ᴛᴏ ᴡᴀʟᴋ ᴀᴡᴀʏ. ᴍᴀʏʙᴇ ᴇᴠᴇɴ ʀᴜɴ. ɪғ ɪ ʜᴀᴠᴇ ᴛᴏ sᴀʏ "ᴡᴇʟʟ ᴛʜᴇʏ ᴀʀᴇɴ'ᴛ ɪɴ ᴀ ɢᴏᴏᴅ ᴘʟᴀᴄᴇ" ɪ sʜᴏᴜʟᴅ ᴘʀᴏʙᴀʙʟʏ ɢᴏ. ɴᴏᴛ ᴇᴠᴇʀʏᴏɴᴇ ɪs ᴍᴇ. ᴛʜᴀᴛ's ᴡʜʏ ɪ ᴛʀᴇᴀᴛ ᴇᴠᴇʀʏᴏɴᴇ ɪ ғᴇᴇʟ ᴅᴇsᴇʀᴠᴇs ᴋɪɴᴅɴᴇss sᴏ ᴡᴇʟʟ. ɴᴏᴛ ᴇᴠᴇʀʏᴏɴᴇ ɪs ᴍᴇ. ɪ ᴡᴀɴᴛ ᴛᴏ ɢɪᴠᴇ ᴇᴀᴄʜ sᴏᴜʟ ᴛʜᴇ ʙᴇɴᴇғɪᴛ ᴏғ ᴛʜᴇ ᴅᴏᴜʙᴛ. ʙᴜᴛ ᴛʜɪs ɪsɴ'ᴛ ᴀ ғᴀɪʀʏᴛᴀʟᴇ. ʀɪᴠᴀʟs ᴅᴏɴ'ᴛ sᴏғᴛᴇɴ ᴜᴘ ᴡʜᴇɴ ʏᴏᴜ'ᴠᴇ ʙᴇᴇɴ ᴋɪɴᴅ ᴡʜɪʟsᴛ ᴛʜᴇʏ'ʀᴇ ᴠᴜʟɴᴇʀᴀʙʟᴇ. [pic https://images-wixmp-ed30a86b8c4ca887773594c2.wixmp.com/f/66a57468-5202-4c8b-987a-733b3eb4a6ca/davvaat-06f92861-f77d-4796-b682-05344c79cb0e.gif?token=eyJ0eXAiOiJKV1QiLCJhbGciOiJIUzI1NiJ9.eyJzdWIiOiJ1cm46YXBwOjdlMGQxODg5ODIyNjQzNzNhNWYwZDQxNWVhMGQyNmUwIiwiaXNzIjoidXJuOmFwcDo3ZTBkMTg4OTgyMjY0MzczYTVmMGQ0MTVlYTBkMjZlMCIsIm9iaiI6W1t7InBhdGgiOiJcL2ZcLzY2YTU3NDY4LTUyMDItNGM4Yi05ODdhLTczM2IzZWI0YTZjYVwvZGF2dmFhdC0wNmY5Mjg2MS1mNzdkLTQ3OTYtYjY4Mi0wNTM0NGM3OWNiMGUuZ2lmIn1dXSwiYXVkIjpbInVybjpzZXJ2aWNlOmZpbGUuZG93bmxvYWQiXX0.bfT5WN-GBGiVBrTeJXC8oqWpUJ6P2EC1YG_NsqDmW2U] ɪ'ᴍ sᴛᴀʀᴛɪɴɢ ᴛᴏ ᴇɴᴛᴇʀᴛᴀɪɴ ᴛʜᴇ ɪᴅᴇᴀ ᴏғ ᴊᴜsᴛ ғᴀᴅɪɴɢ ᴏᴜᴛ. ɪ'ᴠᴇ sᴛʀᴜɢɢʟᴇᴅ ᴡɪᴛʜ ᴛʜɪs ғᴏʀ ʏᴇᴀʀs, ғɪɢʜᴛɪɴɢ ɪᴛ. ʙᴜᴛ ɴᴏᴡ? ᴡʜʏ ғɪɢʜᴛ ɪᴛ? ᴡʜʏ ғɪɢʜᴛ ᴍʏ ɪɴsᴛɪɴᴄᴛs ᴛᴏ ᴊᴜsᴛ ᴅʀɪғᴛ ᴀᴡᴀʏ? ɪ'ʟʟ ᴀʟᴡᴀʏs ʙᴇ ᴏɴ ᴛʜᴇ sɪᴅᴇʟɪɴᴇs, ᴘʀᴏᴜᴅ ᴛᴏ sᴜᴘᴘᴏʀᴛ. ᴠᴇʀʙᴀʟʟʏ.. ʙᴜᴛ ɪᴛ's ᴅᴀᴍɴ ᴛɪᴍᴇ ɪ sᴛᴏᴘ ᴅʀᴀɪɴɪɴɢ ᴍʏ sᴏᴜʟ ᴛᴏ ᴛʀʏ ᴀɴᴅ ʟᴏᴠᴇ ᴘᴇᴏᴘʟᴇ. ʟᴏᴠᴇ ɪs ғᴏʀ ᴍʏ ᴘᴇᴛs. ᴡʜᴏ ᴅᴇᴘᴇɴᴅ ᴏɴ ᴍᴇ. ʟᴏᴠᴇ ɪs ғᴏʀ ᴍʏ ᴀʟᴇx, ᴡʜᴏᴍ ɪ ᴄᴀɴ ᴏᴘᴇɴ ᴍʏ sᴏᴜʟ ᴛᴏ ᴡɪᴛʜᴏᴜᴛ ғᴇᴀʀ. ᴀɴᴅ ᴛʜɪs sɪᴛᴇ? ɪs ғᴏʀ ᴍʏ ʀᴀᴍʙʟɪɴɢs. ᴡʜᴇɴ ɪ ғᴇᴇʟ ʟɪᴋᴇ ɪ ɴᴇᴇᴅ ᴛᴏ ʟᴇᴛ ᴛʜɪɴɢs ᴏᴜᴛ. ɪ ᴅᴇᴄʟᴀʀᴇ ᴡᴀʀ ᴏɴ ᴍʏ ᴡᴇʟʟ ɪɴᴛᴇɴᴛɪᴏɴs. ɪғ ɪᴛ's ɴᴏᴛ ᴅɪʀᴇᴄᴛᴇᴅ ᴛᴏ ᴍʏ ʟᴏᴠᴇ ᴀɴᴅ ᴍʏ ᴘᴇᴛs, ɪ ᴘʀᴏʙᴀʙʟʏ ᴡɪʟʟ ʟᴏsᴇ ᴛʜᴇᴍ ᴛᴏᴏ. ᴍʏ ʜᴇᴀʀᴛ ᴄᴀɴ'ᴛ ᴛᴀᴋᴇ ᴛʜᴀᴛ. ɪ'ᴠᴇ ɴᴇᴠᴇʀ ᴡᴀɴᴛᴇᴅ ᴛᴏ ᴄʜᴏᴏsᴇ ʙᴇғᴏʀᴇ... ғᴏʀ ᴛʜᴇ sᴀᴋᴇ ᴏғ ᴍʏ ʜᴇᴀʟᴛʜ ɪ ᴍᴜsᴛ. ᴛʜᴀᴛ's ᴀʟʟ ғᴏʀ ᴛʜᴏsᴇ ᴡʜᴏ ᴇᴠᴇɴ ᴄᴀʀᴇ ᴛᴏ ᴋᴇᴇᴘ ᴜᴘ ᴡɪᴛʜ ᴍʏ ᴡᴇʟʟ ʙᴇɪɴɢ.. ʜᴀʜᴀ.
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  Indefinite / 19d 10h 1m 24s
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  ˚༄♡、 / chiyuki / 19d 18h 54m 4s
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[center [size10 I have zero regrets man like I'm owning what I did. Oops yeah I did it. It blew up in my face a little but I honestly kind of expected it to. None of what has transpired has actually surprised me. Has it stressed me out some? Oh fuck yes.]]
[center [size10 I'll deal with what consequences my actions have as I'm handed them. I'm a big boi with my lion king back pack and shibi I can handle em. Kind of got to dont really have any other choice. So if I get a lecture the next time I see her then so be it. I'll get a lecture. If I get chewed out I get chewed out. Whatever fate awaits me I'll just have to deal with it.]]

[center [size10 as long as at the end of the day there's no deep seated resentment I'm totally okay with whatever the hell bullshit i got myself into. I've starved long enough just one outlet won't hurt to have. The less it feels like sneaking around though the better. That shit was some dirty feeling shit ngl.]]
  ATINY / 20d 18h 29m 11s
[center No one asked you to save anyone.
Ever.

So what’s with your dumb ass savior complex?
Why do you lead yourself to broken people who don’t even give a shit about what is good or not.

I really can’t stand you. I wish you would fucking stop.

Stop trying so hard for people. Okay?

I wanna fucking strangle you for trying to help when NO ONE ON PLANET EARTH WANTED IT.

Mind your fucking business, bitch.
  ʟɪᴇʙᴇ / Indefinite / 20d 21h 6m 39s
[size10 the truth is, i'm hurting.]
[size10 i want to cry, and i've wanted to cry, but no tears fall out. it's like my heart is accustomed to this.]
[size10 the worst part is i feel so helpless. i want to be there, but people close me off.]
[size10 and i know these things take time, but we lose time shutting people out. and a part of me feels untrustworthy in their eyes, although i know the truth.]
[size10 opening up is scary.]
[size10 it's not about lies or trust, it's about fear. vulnerability is horrifying, because it leaves you susceptible to hurt.]
[size10 i would know.]

[size10 i remember the time i'd tried to close myself off .. and isolate myself from those who cared about me. the people i loved and love. i hid away and hurt them, and made them believe their words and feelings couldn't reach me.]
[size10 i was blinded by this cloud of self loathing. i wanted to wallow in my loneliness and became addicted to the sadness i had in my chest.]
[size10 and i had to wake up.]

[size10 healing isn't easy. i still have a long way to go.]
[size10 but my heart yearns to heal others in a way i can't explain. i attract broken hearts, and my soul aches to mend them and see them smile again.]
[size10 it's my fatal flaw, i'm pretty sure.]
[size10 i'm learning how to let go.]

[size10 i just hope that .. the ones i really care about i won't have to.]
[size10 i want to cry. i wish i could cry]
  ˚༄♡、 / nejirechan / 23d 11h 35m 59s
[size10 to all of my friends, our little talks mean the world to me. i appreciate not having to hide who i really am anymore, and having people i can be authentic and not pick apart myself over.]

[size10 of course, there's always room for improvement, and i could do better. but i've made a lot of progress. and i'm proud to be able to share myself with you.]

[size10 thank you for giving me the opportunity to. you're all very special, and make me feel warm.]

[size10 cozy. beautiful. unforgettable.]

[size10 like a sunset.]
  ˚༄♡、 / nejirechan / 29d 5h 45m 39s
[size10 yesterday was hectic, and i think the universe is sending me messages. i'm understanding more why this job is so important for me to have, and how much my life will change because of it.]

[size10 the way things are now, i'm just unhappy. this isn't healthy for me, or for anyone for that matter. i'm forced to be stagnant and to feel trapped and sad all the time, and it isn't me. i don't like feeling this way so often, and at the hands of someone else's foul mood.]

[size10 not to mention, it's dangerous. i learned that lesson yesterday.]

[size10 i just hope that the people i care about here don't perpetuate this cycle for much longer after i'm gone. there's a lot they'll realize they needed me for that i'll no longer be around to provide. and i know that makes a certain someone very upset.]

[size10 but i'm not going to let that waver me. it's a lesson i hope they learn, too.]

[size10 and if they don't, that's not my problem anymore.]

[size10 good luck, me. it's not much longer now.]
  ˚༄♡、 / nejirechan / 30d 10h 46m 21s
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A NEW CHALLENGER ENTERS THE FIGHT


Isekai Quartet season 2 just started and guess who joins the already four existing Isekai's?
MOTHER FUCKING SHIELD HERO
FUCK YES
HOLY FUCK
SO MUCH FUCK
ANOTHER VARIATION OF FUCK


Omg jokes aside his entrance?
Just opens the door looks at the whole class.
"Hmm.."
Closes the door and fucking leaves.
That's my boy Naofumi that shit had me rolling.

I just....
Fuck
I thought Rezero was my favorite show of the bunch but now it's competing with Shield Hero here man. I had to pause the show to let out my excitement okay Ima go back peace xD
  Naofumi / ShieldHero- / 31d 6h 19m 16s
[center [size10 So me and Des have moved into the basement. Mom and brother moved to the empty room and our room upstairs, which means we got his mom's, brother's and the living room all to ourselves. As well as the kitchenette and a half bath, and the side door so we don't have to wake people up leaving at night upstairs. We are getting the rest of the materials like drywall and boards tonight to finish the walls. Took down the walls separating all three rooms to make it one long room and what was his moms room will get a halfwall and an open doorway with a gate so we will have the whole ass room as a rat room. The cage and another piece of furniture safe for the rats and just the whole rest of the room for the rats to come out and run around for hours every day, supervised of course. We also ordered another section of cage so they will have a whole critter nation cage and a second half section and maybe next month get the top so the boys will have not one.. but two whole ass critter nation cages to run around and be crazy in when we can't have them out. I feel so happy about it cause one lady that got rats from our same rat breeder has five boys... FIVE huge boys.. in ONE half section of cage. How in the fuck do you do that to your rats lady? You're fucked up. Fuck you. Anywho, we also made the decision that only since we now will have a whole ass rat room and double full cages, we will get two final rats, bringing our total to 6. Right now we have Hopper, Eggo, Murray and Dart. All obv Stranger Things references. One of the boys we are going to get is black and white and we are going to name him Billy. The breeder says the boys in his litter are the best temperament she's ever had and what she strives for all of her future litters to be like, so I'm excited to see him. And the second is going to be a marble rat. If you don't know what a marble rat looks like please look it up, they're so pretty. She hasn't posted pics of the marble boys she has yet and won't until the day they can be adopted, but said that to make sure I get one of them since I already have the black and white boy ready and waiting for the marble to be adoptable, she will message me the day before they're made ready and let me pick one out before anyone else. I'm super stoked, a marble is the color I wanted most, so this is great. And his name shall be Scoops. To keep up with the theme. I love rats, they're so fulfilling and while I also love my reptiles, the rats for sure give so much back in love and affection that reptiles just don't. I can't wait to have the rat room finished and can't wait to see our two new baby boys.]]
  ᴍᴜɴ / Mun / 32d 4h 57m 9s
[size10 sometimes, we unwittingly say or do things that permanently affect the people around us. you never know what words will stick, what will leave an impression — we just assume that what we intend to stick will, and everything else is forgettable.]

[size10 and sometimes, it's our job to make sure that one sentence or phrase or even word hones a positive impact, rather than a negative one. i never want to make someone remember me for the rest of their lives as the person who made them insecure about this or that, or fearful of the other thing.]

[size10 living isn't easy. no one really knows what the other person deals with or thinks or feels deep down, because we're all different. but we can connect, and leave our mark in a positive way. i want to be kind to people, and hope that something i've said or done makes other's lives even an inkling better than it was before they'd met me.]

[size10 i've been this way since i was a child. i remember my mom telling me i'm too nice for my own good, and in a lot of ways, she was right own the line. but back then, i had no backbone. i didn't know that i could love and stand up for myself — i didn't know those were options.]

[size10 being kind isn't a weakness. you just need to know who to be kind to.]

[size10 anyway, i'm rambling. i just really hope someday we can all just be nice to each other and teach people proper lessons they'll take with them years beyond what we'd ever think they would.]

[size10 my special message today is keep up the good work. and you'll be okay!]
  ˚༄♡、 / nejirechan / 33d 6h 1m 11s
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[center [+green I recommend this Anime to anyone here. Even more so if you have any passion for music.]]
  Naofumi / ShieldHero- / 33d 19h 19m 9s
[size10 I DID IT!!!]
[size10 i got the job! i can't wait to move in and get my life started. it feels so liberating already, i can hardly comprehend it!]
[size10 i'm going to work really hard and get my shit sorted out. i wanna save up lots of money so i can eventually get my own place for real.]
[size10 it's really inspiring, seriously.]
[size10 for a while there i was convinced i would be trapped forever .. and here we are now.]
[size10 i'm so happy.]
  ˚༄♡、 / chiyuki / 35d 19h 51m 14s
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[center [size10 I'm amazed. The amount you've clung to me and continue to try and do so. Just please let go of me. I don't want anything to do with you and I'm not going to tell you that myself solely cause that would be attention I'm not willing to give you. So I don't know what to tell you buddy other than take the hint and just stop. It's funny you can Facebook message me now that I'm ghosting you to tell me you're worried but for whatever reason I was unfriended on that account.]]
[center [size10 not my problem anymore though. I'm not questioning these things anymore I'm just distancing myself from them because it's what I feel is best for me. Shit happens and I numb myself from it because it's my base instinct to do so. Sue me.]]
[center [size10 moral of the story, I'm ghosting you, stop messaging me in every way possible thanks. I'm not going to respond because I don't want to. Just live with not having answers or closure.]]
  ATINY / 39d 6h 46m 45s
[size10 [i I did a lot of overtime but it kinda worked out. Get to buy new rings, finally. My finger feels naked. Cute leggings in the work plus a pulp fiction shirt. I have to say I’m a happy girl. Oh yeah a new phone case because a faux fur case was just so unrealistic lmao. I can’t even describe the hassle of this case. Oh the consequences of being so extra. I created a book for my love finally, can’t wait to read it in person. I don’t think I’ve ever been so excited for physical items before. Need to add a whip to this list. ]]

[size10 [b I had such a good day I shall not even discuss the hell I went through with Wells Fargo. As soon as I get a car I’m most definitely switching banks.]]
  funky monkey / AdaptOrPerish / 42d 17h 9m 16s
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[font "Times New Roman" [size12 DREAM LOG {15/01/2020}:

Some strange cross between Outlander and Witcher. Details are a bit fuzzy, but I remember Ned Gowan looking particularly run down and old, and the Dies Irae was playing in the background of the dream for the latter half.

JOURNAL:

I woke up unnerved. A lot of my time lately has been devoted to either tidying or playing music. A small aside for writing has been a candle in the window on a long and arduous journey to getting a grasp on my own creativity and a decent stretch of the vocabulary.

To be honest, I feel as though I could sleep forever.]]
  Black- / 44d 15h 49m 47s
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