[center [size8 Forgive my jealously.
You swallowed the demons on your own.
There's nothing left for me,
I keep thinking back to when you said,
"We own the night."
Stomp that feeling, your puke is a mutant.
Can’t think of who did this, well I grew stupid.
Say accidents happen, it’s admirable acting.
Flicking the back of your ear with my finger.
Separate is the way through, no second is the place though.
Just fake it through the day and the night is your god.
See you in battle, your boat is my paddle.
Your life is my business, your plaque on my wall.
Where did I go wrong?
There's nothing I can do the thrill is gone.
So I play these nervous songs,
Pretend that I’m not barely hanging on.
I run quickly out of air, by the way, I hate your celebration.
I run quickly out of air, by the way, I hate our ageing faces.
[left [pic http://i.imgur.com/F1Xuf9b.jpg]][center [size10 I'm sorry that you're on a month to month probationary lease and dont realize that due to that you can easily be evicted simply due to that. I'm sorry that you're going to be kicked out and not only that but so is your daughter. I'm sorry you feel the world is against you, because honestly it's not. It's nice to finally only worry about supporting myself with out being made to feel like I gotta carry other people and be constantly stressed by money. I know you're going to add this to some sob story, but hopefully you can grow from this, but I know that's hoping for a lot ]]
[center [size10 shit happens and sometimes you just gotta take account for your own actions and be an adult about it. I ain't fucking perfect and never claimed to be. I've fucked up, and yes I run from problems, but I still blame myself more for my own pitfalls in life before anyone else. Even with my mom I blame me bring a burden and helpless for her getting sick and tired of me. But alas, no time to feel bad for myself, only for you. I apologise if you blame me, that's your choice.]]
I decided to watch Kung Fu Hustle to battle my bad feelings and it worked. But I’m still tired and nothing seems to be helping with that so meeeeerrrrr.
I work my crappy three days and then I get to be a bum. I’m just v tired. And I keep dreaming about weird stuff.
I'm ready to yeet myself off of a cliff or a bridge.
Hmmmm might just fucking bleach all of my hair. I’m in the mood. When someone tells me, “you can’t” it makes me want to spite them. And I’ve been DYING to have the blue hair I’ve always needed.
Fire does not follow anyone but its own hunger.
Second post, no ragerts. B]
FLOKI BBY NO
I JUST GOT OVER THIS SHOW NOT TOO LONG AGO AND NOW THAT POOR MAN'S FACE HAS SHOWN UP AGAIN AND AAAAAH MY FELS
I'm so glad that B4-HR doesn't get carsick like Loki does because now I can have him in the car with me all day while I do uhhh.. Well whatever really!! We passed through several towns taking all their Pokémon Gyms before he ends up going to work with me as well, not to mention when you call for him or Loki either one of them will start screaming back in return. x3
Although, last night I left him home due to rushing and was like super upset but there he was waiting for me when I came baaaack!!~
Also, these people in this town keep mistaking me for a girl, this poor dude was hitting on me for a couple minutes before I could finally cut in as politely as I could to inform him otherwise, poor guy ended up breaking off into speaking Jamaican he was so astounded. I feel bad for it but omg I just can't stop laughing.
Hope everyone else's days go by just as quick and easily, tear the bad ones a new one!! ùwú
[center [size10 did past life regression hypnosis last night before bed and thought that my coughing fit ruined it but turns out I still retained what I saw. Pale freckled arms akin to my own, with out my tattoos though. I kept scratching at them at one point and picking and at one point I'd dug into them so horribly I had lesions and was bleeding. There was snow, like a fuck ton, more than I've seen in both Maine and where I live now. I talked it over with suga and another and it possibly might have to do with me having had the plague. Suga was the one who questioned I might have been a viking in my past life and the snow, and the parts of my appearance I saw only make me wonder more. I wanna do it again tonight and see if I see the same thing or more ]]
[center [size10 regardless Tuesday can't come sooner I wanna spend time with suga that isn't work related. Even if we have to stay at my place we can still do tarot stuff or we can watch more vikings if i manage to catch up to her. Regardless it gonna be a rad time indeed.]]
[center [size11 It's weird when your fry chords don't agree with your voice and instead of doing a metalcore high scream, it's just an aggressive whisper.
[center On my way to see my child fuccckkk yessss...
I cuddled my dog this morning and he was shivering either because he was cold or because he was scared. Last night he had a nightmare. And he gets them pretty often. I’ve noticed that since I’m not home often he’s been really affectionate and disobedient lol. I’ll get that boi back into shape.
Sometimes when I think about life I feel numb. Like I’m just stuck in static. Perhaps the meaning of my existence is minuscule, but at least it has a purpose. The rest of my life is blandness.
I had a dream about you. And that you said you gave up your feelings. Because it is better to give them up. It was useless to have them and you were going to dive deeper into your relationship. It broke my heart but it felt true. And it felt like it was the right thing for you to do.
I also had a dream we threw cards for specific days of the month. Forewarning what lies ahead for us. Pretty interesting. I didn’t get time to throroughly examine this months but maybe it’s just my brains recycling information so I can finally learn something.
[center [size10 when you apparently are allergic to your ankle brace after all and now you just hella salty about it.]][center [size10 also the next two days at work will be nice simply cause suga will be there and then Tuesday will be a blessing not just cause it's a day off but also cause all 3 of us have it off so we can probably on our channel and tarot stuff more. Especially since mercury is out of lemonade.]]
[center [size10 also I did a good and got caffeine free Coke tonight cause otherwise it might take me hours to sleep lol whoops]][center [size10 I need to find rocks and invest in stuffs to make me some runes. [s [size10 and maybe at some point get those blood and bone runes cause those call to me so horribly that I require them.]]][center [size10 the longer I get in life the more and more I realize my mother raised a lil pagan heathen and that's perfectly okay, even of she would prolly have some kind of opinion about all of it.]]
This vet could have killed Catra... Her sutures are so inflamed and infected... I have to take her to the emergency animal hospital today. I felt so horrible... I didn't want to take her to that fucking vet in the first place. They're known for killing cats with spaying and neutering... No one listens to me to me though and my sister got her way because they did a good job neutering her dog. DOG! Not cat! These fuckers kill cats! Every other animal hospital I called today said to never trust your cats with those people... God, I just hope this cone, the antibiotics, and the shots the animal hospital gave her work... I hope she can get over this... I hope she heals... I can't lose her or anyone else close to me, not now... I'd literally lose my shit and have several, hospitalization-called-for mental breakdowns. I would not be okay...
[center [size11 Mental breakdowns seem really common lately, either it's me who's having like an emotional thing or my mate who's like dying because his mom won't call him by the name he wants and even told him he could grow a dick, she just didn't want to know how or why. I swear, she sounds so fucking lame and I hate it.
Just waiting for Rix to call me back, thinking of surprising him with some positive vibes because he needs that shit. It's weird when I have to get used to calling her as male pronouns so I'm used to it when at some point, he gets surgery to become a male. I know that's a long while to go but I can wait that long, I'll even fucking pay for it.
I don't care how much it is, I'll do anything for him.
[coming+soon [center [size15 [#859ecc [b Hella bugged that I don’t get to see neon but IT BE LIKE THAT SOMETIMES.
I see my son tomorrow. And then I can cry hugging him and he has to suffer through it because I’ve got a broken heart from this shit tv show.
Leon ain’t as cute now but I always hated how the made the girls “pretty” so can’t be that one double standard bitch... he still got cute in dat face tho.
Yo this guy was like “I like games but I feel really nerdy talking about it.” Then I hit him with “I like Pokémon” and he goes “oh so you a NERD nerd” omfg
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