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Funny shit.

My haven has fallen apart. I wish I was there to fix it.
It's protector has lost its way.
I don't know what happened before.
And I don't know if things are narrowing in.
Dragging my feet down the path,
Almost like snow is catching onto me.

Where is my safe haven now?
A box battered by the glass it holds inside.
Hold my kiss until I get there,
Hold this warm hug 'til I get there.
My safe haven has fallen apart.

And so many people haunt it.
I have to say, I was out clubbing with my peers and this song played and I couldn't help but remember the bitterness in the tune and the words again. Made me think of you and I almost choked on my drink, want to reiterate that your pathetic grasp over my life is over.


Ps, this 90s music video is mint for that time.
  Spider Queen / Mercy_ / 52d 4h 53m 36s
[center [size10 time to find the rainbow within the storm.]]
[center [size10 roses have withstood the test of time, and so will i.]]

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  ᵃᶰᵍᵉˡ / lovesick / 52d 5h 37m 29s
[center [size12 I actually managed to do something I severely needed to do. It's ridiculous how long I let myself go with out doing it. Also it's amazing that I heard from Kota for the first time in a long while, was more her reaching out to me to let me know if I ever wanted her to just come over and hang out she'd be down. Hopefully everything will work out better once Ali is back. I have no structure right now and I'm just doing whatever I want when I want which is a whole big pile of nothing tbh. I don't even feel like eating that much at this point. I'm falling down a hole lol. Oh well time to try and sleep since my WiFi seems to hate me this morning and I have zero energy to walk to bravo like I planned.]]
  ᴅᴀʙɪ / Believe / 52d 7h 54m 33s
[google-font][Josefin+Slab [size18 [#424242 I'm in one of those particularly numb moods. I don't exactly know how to deal with it. These are the times when I end up suddenly not talking to anyone. It's not because I hate anyone or am annoyed by them or something. It's just this sudden dissociation that sometimes I don't realized has happened until it's been a few weeks since I last made contact with people.
Maybe it's because I'm just really tired after recent events.
When something happens I obsessively think a lot over it.
Funny, how my friend said that as strong as I may try to be, I'm fragile in that I break quite easily. And, it's the truth. I'm not a particularly strong person emotionally. I just crumble because I've no idea how to cope.
I want to be angry at the people who really pushed me and ignored how it would make me feel but I just let them back in.
Old habits die hard. I guess I'll just never learn.]]]
  / Arcane / 52d 12h 8m 59s
lol, todoroki

  The Master / K / 52d 13h 35m 22s
[size10 Maybe if you stopped running off on your own, idiot.]
  ᴛᴏᴅᴏʀᴏᴋɪ / Shouto / 52d 13h 43m 6s
I fucking knew it.
I really fucking knew it.
Sorry but there is no forgiveness
You can't do shit like that and expect everything to be okay.
  [ᴛᴢ] / Duality / 52d 14h 51m 5s
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I fucking love this movie

Hey, where is your motivation to live?
Logan - 1:38:47
"No existo - Do you understand?"
No existo
Kill me, I snorted
[center [size10 i've become numb.]]
[center [size10 [i 'you can't take my heart']]]
[center [size10 i'll turn the tables.]]

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  ᵃᶰᵍᵉˡ / lovesick / 53d 2h 12m 23s
[center [size10 Today was a good day. It's nice being stress free.. though it'll only last for awhile cause college just never seems to end. I'm thankful though. Blessings.]]
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  / Sakura / 53d 10h 44m 28s
[center [size10 i feel like it's my fault it died. all my brain is telling me is "i should've" "i should've" "i should've.."]]
[center [size10 i'm hallucinating its chirps. i'm too depressed to hardly move now.]]
[center [size10 i guess i'll just.. sleep..]]

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  ᵃᶰᵍᵉˡ / lovesick / 53d 11h 18m 52s
When your anxiety tells you that they don't really want you around. That your fiance is better off without you, you've only made things worse for them.

That maybe your grandmother was right....but you arent pretty anymore. That you look ridiculous.

"I don't regret you. You mean the world to me."

Hearing you say that eased all of my worries. But my anxiety is still eating at the back of my mind.

[Center [I You're not worth it. You're not worth anything.]]

I adore you all so much and I'm selfishly clinging to the hope that I'm wrong.
  -fσя мє- / Kotyonok / 54d 21h 5m 58s
[center [size10 is it true that life boils down to living out of spite eventually?]]
[center [size10 i've thought about mom a lot today. it's not healthy for me to be thinking of her this much. and i bet i know why she's on my mind so much lately.]]
[center [size10 i don't miss home. i never did, not since the moment i started running away. since the beginning of this mess.]]
[center [size10 and a part of me feels guilty for it. but the truth is, no matter how much i wish that it were the case, she never truly loved me. i need to keep it in mind.]]
[center [size10 keep in mind that she viewed me as a tool and as something disposable. from the moment i was born i was seen as nothing more than a mistake.]]
[center [size10 "i will prove her wrong."]]
[center [size10 there's nothing to prove. no matter what i do, to her, it's a failure. i don't have to prove myself to anyone, especially her or dad.]] [center [size10 my family is more than "dysfunctional," it's not cute or silly like a sitcom. it was my personal hell living with them. my brother, my sisters, my mother and father. i have night terrors about them.]]
[center [size10 i need to let go of my fear. but it's hard when they're the cause of my worst mental illness.. but i'm confident in my abilities.]]
[center [size10 i've survived until today, after all.]]

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  ᵃᶰᵍᵉˡ / lovesick / 55d 10h 59m 22s
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[coming+soon [center [size15 [#859ecc [b Shit has been good.
Honestly. So. Good.
Granted, Ryan [u fucked] me over more ways than I thought he did, and it has come to bite me in the ass, but it is solved. And I got to aggressively tell him he's shit. And my wonderful boyfriend got to put him in his place too. <3

We're tag teaming Nioh and honestly it's great.
I work with some kids he doesn't like, but I think they're fun to be around.
I lost some resoect for them, sure, but they're still people.
That I work with.

My head hurts.
And I honestly hate fast food so much. Worsens my anxiety and depression.
But it's okay.
I have him.
And Neon, and my mom-even tally and rye.
They really keep me going.
And after my nightmare today, it really showed me who is important to me.
They're my treasures.
God bless them.
  Indefinite / 56d 17h 33m 46s

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