[size10 going to surround myself with fictional waifus and call it a day.
also, if ya can, donate money to Mochi/Ace . cuz y'know. He doesn't deserve to be homeless, or miserable, or anything bad really. He deserves good things and any small amount of money helps.]
[center [https://www.youcaring.com/nikolasokolov-1141064?utm_campaign=buttonshare&utm_medium=url&utm_source=copy&utm_content=cf_cp_01 Hey, people of ES, take like 5 minutes out of your day to give me like a dollar or two or however much to get my bitch ass out of fucking florida.]][center Thank you in advance yo][center [size10 Also like I'll be moving in with Xephy/Repo, like help reunite some hella rad soulmates while you're at it.]][center [size10 Or don't and make xephy cry cause you let Neon wind up on the streets and never to be heard from again]][center [size10 That actually might sound dramatic but that's legit what might happen folks. I'm in one hell of a predicament.]][center [size10 That Sharon bitch really is a piece of work y'all, so glad I don't have her name attached to me.]][center [size10 "Who's this sharon bitch???"]][center [size10 Idk man, some bitch that thinks she's a human I guess, what a joke.]][center [size10 Okay I'm done I swear it.]]
Like a puppet on string. All feels like its strangling me at last. There isn't many words left to write. There isn't any thoughts left to process. I'm just a puppet on string. String of my choices. Nothing left but get strung up. This puppet is fed up. Yet this puppet ain't Pinocchio, this puppet is Geppetto. Crafting away with words endlessly. Yet there ain't many words left for him to say. His words turn choices turn string. Tie him up, wrap him up, hang him up. Now you hang a mirror up to his face. Make him realize there ain't no such thing as fate. Whats there left to say, in this digital age? Where the words we choose aren't our own. There's nothing left here in this wasteland of junk, masquerading as punk.
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I think I genuinely like this person.
Patting myself on the back for all this hard work.
I have set aside now 550$ for this move. It's 250 on wednesday, 200 on the first, and then the apartment is #Mine. Cheaper than anything. I get paid twice before then, too. Yes, this is going to be a good couple of weeks. Finally getting out of here and living life again. WITH INTERNET HOLY HELL I CANT WAIT TO USE MY $3000 GAMING RIG AGAINNNN
Ugh it's gonna have so many updates though Dx
[size12 I realize I'm not the best at communicating my own emotions, and people only seen to fathom that something is wrong after I'm finally broken down and sobbing. I never smiled much and I'm a burnout. My stress levels are always through the stratosphere now. I thought I had escaped everyone's expectations when I moved miles away. Of course it's never that simple and I'm drowning again. I've tried and I'm tired.]
[size12 Guess I'll just go and bake a cake.]
GUYS MY BOYFRIEND ISN'T A FAN OF DINOSAUR CHICKEN NUGGETS AND HONESTLY THIS IS DEVASTATING.
That's all I have, peace.
I've had quite the anount of emotional break downs and fights, but regardless I've been actually doing really good. Like Life legit feels nice. It's weird....
Does it ever strike ANY of you as odd that you claim to love me but gang up on me on a daily basis?
Do you know how much that hurts?
You all claim to be so much better, so much more responsible than me, but with YOUR last dime you'll all buy just about the DUMBEST thing you can think of. You'll buy more televisions and videogames when your pantry is empty. Some of you have children. Do you know how tired I am of the criticism and the nitpicking?
Are you perfect?
There are so [i God damned many of you], so why am I always crying alone in corners? Why do I bother worrying about any of you when all you do is blame irrelevant problems on me? I walk EVERYWHERE, on weak bones and ruined tendons. I have nothing to do with your cars. Somehow, three of you have found a way to jump me with your car problems.
Please, leave me alone. I'm leaving soon? I won't bother you anymore? Please stop yelling at me. I'm breaking. If I weren't 20 I'd run away again, lol. I tried to leave you people 4 times growing up and you wouldn't let me leave. Tried to run away at 5, 8, and 12, and tried to get myself into a girls home at 15-16. For my 18th birthday, I moved out and got MYSELF a place 900 miles away, got even more depressed after grandpa died, and was somehow lured into coming here back out of loneliness and despair.
Now I remember why I left. You didn't love me then, and you don't now. My expectations have been unrealistic, it seems. Do excuse me.
Im really thirsty for a victorian set roleplay
I feel like I bother people so easily and it's something that weighs heavily on me
[size10 I feel very sad. I'm not sure why.
I guess I'll just ride it out..
All I can do.
I'm also moving.
Moving further and further from God's Light, that is.
Instead, I'm moving to Weebsville, population me.
I'm getting closer to full-on NEET levels of degeneracy.
I've got a couple wall scrolls with waifus on them.
Next it'll be Nenderoids or figures.
Or maybe I'll go to a con.
I just hope I don't hit the final phase, what with the body pillow that stands up on it's one and the endless torrent of VNs, LNs, and H games.
[center [pic https://i.imgur.com/LC9Fy0J.gif]][center [size10 Seeing all this talk of moving and then realizing ah shit i'm moving soon too. Well soonish, in a few months. It feels so close thoooo. Once my shit starts getting shipped up to maine it'll be real and once I start applying to places it'll be real. I can smell it man, I can taste it. Being outta this place will be so nice. I won't have to worry about bumping into people I don't wanna deal with and I'll be able to possibly settle down and get my shit straightened out with out the constant botherings of certain people. I'll be in a completely different environment 100%. Maine will be my new home and Hell will be in the past. Also there is a cat child there I plan to harass with my love. All of my love. 100% of my love will be used to harass said cat. I will need to def get some new clothes after a while there tho. Hell I'll prolly have to get work pants and shoes and shit cause fuck knows I don't have those at the moment.]]
[center [size10 In other news the thought of flying on a plane for only the second time and this time on my own is kind of terrifying send help]][center [s [size10 also snow resistant clothes are something i gotta invest in now too fuuuuuck]]][center [size10 All I got is that fucking parka]][center [size9 4ish months imma die]][center [size7 diabeetus]]
[Size10 [center When ya bitch movin the same month as you and she better be getting internet so she can play some games with us. Also who needs furniture when you got hella rad gaming computers? Blankets and pillows on the floor, yo, fuck beds and couches.]]
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