Well I’m fucking glad you were so eager to spend some fucking time with me.
Fuck this noise I’m working on my song now.
I don’t know how many people knew but in November I had jaw surgery where they broke my jaw in two different places and screwed plates in to correct my overbite. Well, two months after that I developed a bump on the right side of my jaw. I saw my surgeon who told me everything was fine and that it was either a hematoma or a bone callous from the surgery. I took his word for it and continued to monitor it, two months later with several emails to him where he continued to say I’m fine and not to worry about it. The small bump slowly developed into a large swell that became so painful almost my entire face felt like one giant bruise because of the amount of pressure this swell created. Yesterday, March 13th I went in to see a resident at the oral and maxillofacial department to get a second opinion. Not only did he actually show concern but he ran several tests and asked many questions about the pain it was causing, etc. Only to confirm my fears, it was an infection. So, he said I needed surgery as soon as possible and that’s exactly what happened. I took a cat scan with iv to light up my veins and skin tissue, and then an hour later I was put under anesthesia to cut open the swell and remove what puss was inside. They took an entire syringe of puss out, and placed a drain tube inside to remove anything else that will develop and also put me on antibiotics to help fight the infection. The weird part is that the person who did my surgery said there was no reason for me to develop such a large abscess under the scar tissue and the only way it could’ve happened was via spider bite, which I wouldn’t be surprised about because I recently discovered I have a small black widow infestation in my room that I’ve been working on removing. So for those who are wondering, yes the swelling is going down and the pain is starting to fade more, and I’m beginning to feel better. I am however still working the anesthesia through my system so I am heavily exhausted and walking like I’m drunk. Just wanted to update everyone and let people know I’m okay.
I still believe in you and love you
You got this..
Gnats. Gnats everywhere. Living in the South, it gets warmer and warmer and the gnats come in swarms. They come through sink, shower, and bath drains and they're hard to kill. They bite too and it's annoying.
Also, Ebay owes me cute little devil horn clips. Dx I wanted them for a lewk I wanted to try.
Oh, and I hope that this all works out how I hope it does and I'm able to go to meet several Instagram friends and Justin Briner, Clifford Chapin, and J Michael Tatum in August.
[center [size11 It's funny how people tend to mention me as 'Mr. Sinister' just because of something I did in one class period. Like how does that fucking work? One class period and now the whole school refers to me as the name? Honestly, some kids are really shitty and I'm gonna give them no respect at all if they call me that. I don't even like the name, I'm not sinister or am I?
At this point, people are also trying to pull me into a religion by telling me what I personally believe doesn't exist. It's not my fault I believe in karma cos it's gonna give you what you get and we're all gonna get a death we deserve. Now that sounds bad, right? Nah, you just gotta do good in my opinion to get good karma.
Anyways, fucking EP's huh? I've been recording with a chorus and it's honestly been so frustrating when the tenors kept singing F sharps instead of naturals like guh bro, this is my EP and I need you to sound better so I can get signed into a record label.
Anyways life is being frustrating as usual, I'm being torn away from my mate and it feels really bad because I won't be able to call her as much as I used to and I don't get to hear her laugh at all either which is KILLING ME. But I wrote a song for her named 'Prey' and she did the instrumental with me despite me living halfway across the country for her.
What love would do to make music huh?
Honestly, big mood.
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[center [size11 The throbbing of the bass guitars reach the back of my ears as I think of you, love. You know I'd kill for you in the name of love and sticks and stones will break my bones but bulletholes won't hurt me. Invincible, unbreakable, unstoppable, I'll show you who's worthy.
You grab the wheel, I'll take the gun and fuck this world, my love is real. Fuck the world, our love is real and they can't take it anymore can they? In the name of love I'll follow you, and if your body is cold and dead, I'd die for you.
I hope you know you are worth it and everything you stand for.
It's you who showed me what true music was with that voice of yours and you still complete me and help me grow to who I am. Even though the cuts that adorn our bodies, we will get through this together as you always say.
Though it doesn't sound like it sometimes with my bouts of depression, I put full faith in you when you tell me it's gonna be okay. And by fucking God's name, you're right.
Cheers love, your name Rix means a lot to me.
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[center [size10 Y'know, I get petty remarks, I get not being in a mood to take shit, but how fucking long have I been wanting to get everyone together to just play this damn game. I know I know, "I really like the game" or whatever bullshit comes out of everyone's mouths, but y'know, there comes a time when not feeling like it or the complete lack of being able to pull it off except like once or twice a month really shows me how much everyone really "enjoys" the game.
Let me just for a moment put into perspective what's going on here. Because as you few remember, I wasn't as into the thought of DnD as all of you were. I wasn't sure if I wanted to do it at [i all]. But everyone was so fucking excited to do it that I joined along anyway. And now when we can't even get along enough to run a few simple old content raids in WoW? Why the fuck should I bother?
So when Wednesday rolls around, you all can control my character and play without me. That seem fair in the giving what I'm getting? Cause it sure as hell seems fair to me.
I'm fucking balls deep in needing to move and not sure where all my money is going to be able to stretch out to do so as well as paying Caleb back for the computer and neck deep in the annoying fucking stress of it all. Yet you two can't seem to figure out how to get along for two fucking seconds.
I get it, you've both got your stress too. But here's the thing. I'm still fucking me. And if hanging out with the two of you and us all [i pretending] to be friends is supposed to make all our lives a little more fun and a little less stressful, and all it manages to do is make the stress worse.. then I have no fucking issue with cutting you both off.
The joy of being close to someone like me, I know. So enjoy DnD, enjoy your few days, week, few weeks, till I get back home or however long of a break I fucking need without the children fucking bickering and unable to be civil long enough to give me finally just ONE fucking night in forever that we can actually all play WoW. Thanks mates. Real swell of ya. Take care.]]
[coming+soon [center [size15 [#859ecc [b It’s weird. This thing we’ve done.
We have our love and we had our fun.
And even after all this time it’s left unspoken.
We’re not shoes, meant to be worn until we’re broke in.
I relay these thoughts, I sing all your songs.
But no matter how many days go,
I still choke, when it comes to you. You..
Where do you go when you close your eyes?
Because, maybe, I go to you. I hastily resist the truth.
I’ll keep fighting to keep this standstill.
Because it’s better than hearing it from you.
Well, that went from zero to a hundred real quick.
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[size09 to you. though I'm sure I never cross your mind anymore.]]
@Sapherno11 and everyone else:
[https://imgur.com/a/289d3P6 HERE FOLKS. Here's some screenshots if you're curious.] This here is a 30 year old man who can't stop trying to tattle on a girl 10 years his junior because I left a roleplay. Aren't I AWFUL?! Send him your thoughts and prayers!
He messaged my friend to tell her to ban me from a thread, and now he's threatening to get me banned and telling my friends to 'rein me in'. I don't care what you say or think of me, my guy, but stop messaging my friends. They're not going to stop writing with me or being my friends because some fucking idiot messaged them and told them to.[center [pic https://i.imgur.com/RUadTdI.png]
Hey, douche nuts! [b Colorful_insanity] is [i actually good friends with me on facebook]. If he needs to talk to me or would like to ask me about my DLO thread or wants to chat about ANYTHING AT ALL, he has the means to do so.
[b Stop. Involving. Other. People. Stoooop.]
You must not realize I have a steady flow of screenshots from like 6 different people who think you're [i hilariously ludicrous].
I told you to stop messaging my friends about trying to get me kicked from threads; What do you do? You do it again. AGAIN AND AGAIN AND AGAIN. MF, honey, sweetpea, DARLING, I don't even care that I'm not on your good side, I don't care about your feelings. I didn't create 7 accounts, 2 of them are new. TWO. I lost the password to the last one (Melmetal) because I never attached it to an email. All the people you say I 'bailed' on, [b I am currently speaking to on Discord and Facebook [i THEYRE MY FRIENDS]].
The rest of my accounts are old. SOOOOO OOOOLD. Ive known you what, a month? I messaged you from 2 accounts well over 3-4 years old each, because you blocked me on this account LIKE A TOOL. We didn't have beef before you started trying to get me kicked out of threads, dude, even when you threw me up on your lil 'wall of shame'. Seriously. It's not a good look for you.[center [pic https://66.media.tumblr.com/4ba0751a6a3431f33a5d86021bf4f4a9/tumblr_nzbnr4zEzS1rlafseo1_400.gif]]
The questions I get asked... >~>
Me: I'm ready to dye my hair two pastel colors.
[center [size10 someone has a bucket out by the dumpster at work so when they go out for a cigarette they can sit. Asked one of the managers if I could take it home cause it only says not to throw it away and not anything about not stealing it. She told me no. My dreams have been crushed. In other work related news me and suga won't get a day together for a while cause my next day off isn't until Friday. I didn't bother to see if it's cauae certain other people got cut back but all I can say is pray for my at least Tomorrow cause i just got home and I'mma have time for at most a nap before I have to go back in at 7 am. Suga isn't even going to be there either. I knew I should told my body fuck off and went in yesterday but also i still prolly woulda wound up coming in tomorrow/today anyways and honestly i wouldn't have hated that when it came time for my paycheck which i mean at the rate I'm going should be pretty decent considering thanks to Brandon I got 6 extra hours so for this week alone that's gonna put me at 37 total. Also my dumbass forgot to clock in when I came in at four and I didn't realize until 8 when I got put on front oops]][center [size10 also got two coworkers who are having me do their natal charts for them. Had another one who tried to ask me if I was looking for a boyfriend which obviously showd how little she knows about me cause uh no I'm not thanks. Also another super special co-worker left me a hella cute note that I randomly found while doing my job and it made my day. And one of the people whose natal chart I'm doing told me they think my mullet actually fits me so I mean all in all i didn't die today but it was weird with out suga and I'mma cry not having Tuesday off.]]
[coming+soon [center [size15 [#859ecc [b Yo this song fucking attacking me get it the fuck away
Also I saw my son today for five seconds and I didn’t wanna leave because I need to be by him all hours of the day lmaaaooo is clingy af
Watching the magicians, playing sims, or breath of the wild.... hard decision. Fuck I need to edit to magicians.
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