[size10 i want to make something explicitly clear.]
[size10 i will, and always will, do whatever the fuck i want to do. no amount of guilt trips or manipulation will waver my decision making - not like it used to.]
[size10 i won't feel bad for liking this or that or the other thing, even if it aligns with something someone else does and it makes them unhappy [i for no other reason than jealousy.]]
[size10 also, if you ship something, ship it. who fucking cares, they aren't real.]
Jesse Pinkman deserves the best. I love that boy. He a little misguided but his heart is in the right place. I really hope within the five seasons he turns out alright. Seeing him trying to turn a new leaf really got me to see hope in him.
His family too. He had a good family but obviously he just wasn’t the boy they expected him to be.
I love that boy.
If he dies tho I’ll fucking end my shit and everyone in the same room as me.
Watch breaking bad for the suspense?
I watch it to watch Jesse grow.
That horny little shit lord just need love.
I wrote a letter to you and refreshed the page. I didn't want to post it. I just needed to get the words across to you... I'm trying. I really am, but it's impossible not to be sad when someone you care for is gone. I'll always be your Darling. That nickname is forever reserved for you and you alone. Thank you giving me an unyielding friendship and a sense of security. I'll miss you and our rare late night conversations. You had a lot on your plate and our daily schedules pushed us away from each other, but that never stopped us from checking up on each other when we could.
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[center [size10 You were supposed to get better. I told you that you weren't allowed to leave, that you had to get better and come back to me. That you had to message me when you woke back up again. You told me "Please don't be sad if I die" but how foolish were you? I will never forget you. And I have been.. and always will be sad not to have you as mine. I never got to touch you.. to feel your existence. To bask in your presence. To relieve you of this place myself. My victim. You were taken from me, and that wound will never heal.. I wouldn't ever want it to.. You meant so much to me and you accepted me for everything I am.. and I wouldn't ever want to forget the love, the joy, the sorrow I felt.. I want more of it. Any bit of it. I've always craved more suffering from you. But this.. this is just too much, my sweet. How are you supposed to keep me suffering this way? The loss will have to do. I won't forget you. Damn my soul and everything I am if I did. But I know I can't. This craving will never subside.
You are free of me now, my love. So go and be free wherever you are. Find your one true love and thrive with her. I know how much you've missed and needed her. If nothing else, I am so happy that you can finally have at least this. Forget this world and the bad it held.
I wish I could say I'm keeping myself together, but I'm an absolute mess.. I don't think I'll ever be the same. A hole will forever be in my heart. A hole I refuse to ever fill with anything but more thoughts and love for you. Keeping it raw.. festering.. alive. I will keep you alive in the only way I can..
I won't be so bold to think you ever loved me in the same way I did you.. your heart was forever with another after all.. but this song you sent me.. This song you sent because it "sounded cool". Maybe I can hold onto it as at least some small fraction of what I had always desired for you to feel for me. And knowing you, you would let me believe as such if it made me happy. And my god does it.. This song will forever hold a dear place in my heart.. Thank you for sending it all that time ago.. Thank you for.. just.. fucking everything...
Rest easy, my victim.. Rest easy.
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Pushed back to square one, huh? Pushing people away because I'm falling deeper into a depression and giving no explanation as to why I stopped speaking to them? Maybe I don't have to explain myself to them, but it can't go without out saying that this damn virus has shown me who my true friends are. The virus has not only hit my family, but several friends as well. I check on them as much as I can and two of them I know cannot respond...
I am so tired of the drama, the tea, the bullshit. Tired of living and exhausted by living for other people.
Fr out here crying over some space robots and tough bois
[b “Existence is beautiful, if you let it be. Life is not a question. There does not need to be an answer.”]
Then fuckin korvax bois really know what the fuck is up
Hive mind and all
My bf: horoscopes aren’t real
My bf, a Gemini moon: so I was thinking.... wait, did I did I take my meds? ... yeah. Anyway what was I saying.... I forgot
You looked me in the eyes with your tired teal eyes,
With your beautiful button nose,
With the way your face wrinkles slightly as you smiled,
And you said to me, with that smile on your face,
That I was the first girl to drive you as wild as I did.
I can't express how happy that makes me. <3
I said “I love you” for the first time today.
You didn’t say it back; maybe you didn’t hear it. Maybe you heard it and weren’t ready; I’ll never rush you.
I said “I love you” for the first time today.
I felt static leave my fingertips as the words left my mouth. You smiled at me despite not saying anything.
I said “I love you” for the first time today.
And I’ll say it fifteen more times until you’re ready to say it back.
Thirteen. Kinda a big thing. Still processing it, but I guess I should be happy? I’m a whole year closer to achieving my dreams. I think so, anyway.
I’m not saying the ES discord server is specifically made to bully me
My nickname [i IS] gremlin on there [s imeanIDidSayIWasAGremlinButThatWasBecauseIHaveNoScheduleOrLifePlan]
Was peanut gallery
Jokes aside that server is on something smh
Love seeing these crackheads come up with new things to ramble about
And apparently me just babbling in the background is amusing enough too
Really aiming for that organic ship on NMS tho
Looks hella cool
And I’m tired of looking at goddamn C class ships 8^l Although I just bought a A class Freighter, a new ship, and multi tool. Moving up in the classes, gamerz. Also somehow magically got a buttload of money. Idk how I pulled it off. Wish that worked irl :’)
Pretty sure my eyes are fuckin deteriorating because I cannot goddamn read the screen that’s a foot or two away from my face. The text is pretty small but I also have trouble reading from far away. Oh well, I’m not handling machines or nothing. Just being a fuckin gremlin.
Jamjam heard us packing and thought the zip lock bags were ya getting his food for him. My poor fat ass can’t tell the difference between eating time and not eating time. He’s such a good boy. Eats so well, what ever it is I put in front of him. I would really like to mix things up for him, because that’s the best thing to do for just about any living being. But the whole moving thing and dying because existing is hot really takes away from that. Also because the other pets’ staples are Jamjam’s snacks lol.
I just can’t wait to start all of our lives together in a nice big home with more freedom.
Quentin will get to taste dandelions. I’m so excited to see how much he will or won’t like them.
Just happy things are looking up regardless of how bad everything else is going with the world. Have been kinda down about it, so this was good for me.
Also if I could just sleep through 4 am instead of waking up unable to sleep, I would appreciate that.
Didn’t you just say...
Catching people in they lies really fucks me up tbh
Not surprised just disappointed tbvfh
This is why I have trust issues lmao
Y’all too busy lying for the clout
Also this monkey looking around confused af is literally my entire life fuckin mood
Been playing a lot of Don’t Starve Together lately. I made a bunch of friends who cOiNciDentally are never online when I am or in a public server. Man, making friends suck lmao.
Kinda been in a mmo mood but that means I’m gonna actually have to commit to a story and reading and learning new mechanics... and me being me means that I need a day to process one bit at a time. That and no muthafukin friends.
I have been diving back into No Man’s Sky, too. Taking a break really was needed because my DUMB ass needs to process things before being able to dive in. It’s such a huge game I honestly needed to let it soak before I could enjoy myself. Mainly because I felt overwhelmed with learning and all the missions. But now I’m pretty chill with doing what ever I feel like doing. The story bits kinda draw me in now, too.
Also why is Aerith such a fuckin cutie?? Like I know she’s supposed to be so damn lovable-but damn. Like damn forget that edgeboi. But then Ben goes, “Tifa has two hands, she can handle cloud and aerith” AND I JUST
nah man let me just have my lesbians without a sense edgeboi ruining that sweet flower tea babieeee
Also in a month more than likely we’re out of here. I’m almost confident it might even be sooner because my boi really fuckin insistent on clearing every goddamn thing.
This is it, baby. Life is good.
My hair is getting long again and tbh I’m living for it
If my hair would just stop falling out like I’m balding that’s be great
As much as I don’t mind being a blonde, really would rather this hair be gray
Gonna have to buy gray dye or something to see if that will finally make me the gray haired anime girl I’ve always dreamt of being qwq
It’s not a fetish-i swear
Okay maybe a lil
I have a problem
I’m hoping something comes through for me because damn do I got my eyes on that muthafukin discount on that ark bundle <_<
I uploaded all the things that could possibly bring more bank so again pls good fuck bring em them thirsty boys who will pay me
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[center [Quicksand Okay, yeah, this game is a little out of popular. But it's a fun game. I have recently been playing a lot of it... Like, a lot a lot. But it's still something to do. However, listening to your teacher that sounds like Berry B. Bensen is something like a mood I guess.
God, I never knew someone could sound so much like Jerry Seinfield... It's not a very pleasant sound at 5 or 6 in the morning. But it's something to do... I have to do it early in the morning, when I do, more time to play Skyrim.
Another thing that it coming up is my birthday. Hah... 4 days. Who knew that something so small like this can be something to exciting to others. It's probably gonna be a sad event again. It's my 2nd birthday without mom, I wish she would come back, but now I have to wait for her until August.
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