I don't blame Life for whatever decision she might have made. I will always love her and think of her as a sister. She was my best friends, even if she says that she started this with being fake. I know deep down there was a real person. It was easy to see. I miss her and hope her well.
It has been yet another long time, things aren't the same anymore. Of course, I've already accepted that fact. I was so childish back then, really. I was seventeen/eighteen by the time I've pretended that I have died. It was really horrible, even more than that. I had no friends back then, I was curious about this roleplay thing. I wasn't really planning to be real, I've decided that I'll act as someone else at the very beginning. I didn't like nor love who I was before. That's why I thought "Oh, at least I could be someone better in here, someone who's beautiful, kind and intelligent." I was wrong. By the time I've started to meet you guys, it was already too late to reveal myself. I was too ashamed as to why, I even lied when you could have loved me for who I really was. It was too late for that, I was young, so scared and immature. I love you guys so much, so much that I couldn't even think of hurting you, but then again, I was wrong. I pretended to die to stop all these. I didn't want to lie further. I thought it was the best option. I'm stupid.I've hurted and pained you more because of what I did, you've changed because of this. Even up until now, I'm still very sorry. There was never a day that I wasn't thinking about you guys, never. All the bad things that's happening to me right now, even before. It's my fault. I'm sorry. Never in my life I've changed my love for you. Maybe it did for you, but the love will still remain in my heart, and I'll wait for the day that you'll finally say that you forgive me.Goodbye, thank you. I'll apply the lesson and the things that I've learned from each and everyone of you, thank you that somehow, you loved me. That's enough for me. Thank you.