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[center I've become so numb. So disoriented. Uncle Richard died yesterday. Two months after his big sister, my grandma, passed on. I'm surprised he held so long to be honest. I just..I want to curl up and stop existing. I know it wouldn't do anything but I feel like it at times]
[center I'm tired of the hatred, of the anger, of the negativity. It does me no good. I can't keep doing it. I want to let go and mend broken bridges. I want to reach out to [i you] but I'm afraid of your reaction. I want to apologize and tell you let's not throw this away. We've been friends since I was eighteen years old. I want peace. I want happiness. I don't want to be angry anymore. I want to move on in life.]
[center Yesterday was most definitely an adventure and I got to spend it with one of my best friends and adoptive older brother. We went and got computer parts for me to upgrade my computer. It runs so smoothly now, all I need is a bigger desk, better keyboard and mouse and I'll be set to go for gaming all games on PC. Which I prefer just difficult when your desk is as little as mine is and Destiny 2 requires you to move it back and forth. I'm super thrilled with how it turned out, even though we were exhausted as hell after doing it.]
[center I'm in a funky place tonight. Thinking on the past. Of how things used to be. Not bad though, just there. Sometimes I wonder how things would of turned out if it had gone differently. Like if Donnie and I had never dated. We would of been best friends this whole time. We were just a really really bad couple together. I guess you live and learn right? I wonder what would of happened if I hadn't walked away from two people. Or if I hadn't gone digging against a friend of mine and found out he was catfishing me. I guess that's the imagination in me though, always has to go wild.]
[center I know though without all that happened I wouldn't of met or gotten who I have in my life. And those people I love beyond words. They are my life. Even if I don't have tons of people to do muses with, I have some and that's okay.]
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