[size10 Feeling like I'm chained to the past.
I try to move from it, will myself to find a placeholder.
I try to entertain the thoughts of finding someone else to fill these spots I hold just for you, but they remain empty.
I hate that I remain loyal even when it's unwanted.
No matter what, no matter how much I try to forget, how many reality checks.
My heart still aches about it.
I'm really trying to protect myself.
It's a hard pill to swallow when you realize you're not as special as you think anymore.]