ѕυιcιdal тendencιeѕ

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[center [pic https://i.imgur.com/Thutltw.jpg]][center [size9 [b [size9 Note:]] Please for the love of god, if this role play is triggering to you, DO NOT FUCKING APPLY! This is going to be dark, and mature. Suicide isn't something you should do. It's heartbreaking, and damaging to those who are still living. You have been warned.]]

[center [b [font "tempus sans itc" [u A shot to kill the pain; a pill to drain the shame. A purge to stop the gain; a cut to break the vein.]]]][center [b [font "tempus sans itc" [u A smoke to ease the crave; a drink to win the game. An addiction's an addiction; and it hurts the same.]]]]

[center [font "tempus sans itc" Everyone has been told, 'Suicide isn't the way to go'. People have also been told 'Everything would be better if you weren't here'. Sometimes it's hard to hear things like that. What people don't understand is, words really do hurt. You would think you have a good support system, your family was there, your friends cared, and the world wasn't out to get you. How wrong you are. There is suicide around ever where you turn. You can't escape it, and you sure as hell can't get away from it. No matter how hard you try, there is always someone killing themselves, or simply calling out for help.]]

[center [font "tempus sans itc" There are things that run though your head, things you wish other's would understand. Things you don't want to think about, and things you wish would simply end. For these four adults, their whole lives have been changed. They are all suffering from something. If it's an eating disorder, to being bullied, it doesn't matter. Inside of their minds, suicide is always at the top. The feeling of the blade as it slices though the skin. The feeling of the sticky blood, the feeling of being able to deal with that pain in the worst way possible. The signs are there, but no one is helping, no one is listening, and pretty soon it's going to be too late.]]

[center [font "tempus sans itc" Simply calling out for help isn't enough anymore. The four adults don't know anything about each other. The Jukes siblings aren't close like they used to be. They are slowly drifting apart, and it's not helping their cause at all. Their parents don't care. They are alone in a world filled with people. Lyale has turned to drinking, while Kianna has turned to the call of the blade. They have tired more than one way to end their life. That's until one day, while they are in a chat room, two other adults catch their eye. Something about these strangers is drawing them in, and maybe they will be able to seek help.]]

[center [font "tempus sans itc" [b Female Two] and [b Male Two] are in the same boat as the Jukes siblings. They don't have anyone to trust. They are alone, and they are losing the will to live. Reaching out to other's like them, is their last chance. They decide to meet up. Meet up in New York City for a month. See where things lead, and maybe they would be willing to heal each other. Things pop up, things go wrong, but the four still manage to make it. Now that they are all under the same roof, is when things take a different turn. A turn they all thought wasn't possible. A healing process is underway, and it's scaring all of them to death.]]

[center [font "tempus sans itc" What'll happen when feelings start to rise? Will the four be able to keep the bond they have? Or will something come and tear them apart? Will they be able to get the help they have been seeking for? Or will it all be done in vein? You will never know unless you join [b [i [u Suicidal Tendencies]]].]]

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[center [b [font "tempus sans itc" [u The cast of Suicidal Tendencies.]]]]

[center [b [font "tempus sans itc" [u Kianna Jukes: Taken]]]][center [pic https://i.imgur.com/vbN6OI2.jpg]]

[center [b [font "tempus sans itc" [u Lyale Jukes: Taken]]]][center [pic https://i.imgur.com/Blk2aK3.jpg]]

[center [b [font "tempus sans itc" [u Erin Hans: Taken]]]][center [pic http://share-fastly.picmonkey.com/prod/photo_posts/1ibypqLqFGN_16283710.jpg]]

[center [b [font "tempus sans itc" [u Emil Hans: Taken]]]][center [pic http://share-fastly.picmonkey.com/prod/photo_posts/GKxXiNEu7tc_16283706.jpg]]

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[center [b [font "tempus sans itc" [u What I need from you.]]]]

[center [font "tempus sans itc" I'm going to make this really simple. I would like you to fill out a little skeleton and private message me. When you do message me, make sure it's titled Killing Spree so I know you read this, and the rules. Here's what I need inside of the Private Message.]]

[center [font "tempus sans itc" [i Character Pictures *Don't fully link them* || Character Names || Character Ages || Job || Biography.]]]

[center [font "tempus sans itc" See, that's not too hard now is it? Just make sure you send everything I'm asking for, because I won't ask again. If I have to ask you twice, then I'll know you didn't read everything. Now onto the rules.]]

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[center [b [font "tempus sans itc" [u The rules of Suicidal Tendencies.]]]]

[center [font "tempus sans itc" [b [u First-]] The pictures are going to be real. None of the over used shit either. If it's too big, I will ask you to resize it to a smaller size. If you can't find one to your liking, simply message me and ask me for help. I would be more than happy to help you look, or edit your picture for you. Just don't get mad at me, if I ask you to change/edit it.]]

[center [font "tempus sans itc" [b [u Second-]] Romance will be a big part of this story, but not at first. Just like in real life you have to work up to it. It's not a love at first sight type of thing. Cybering is a no on this site, if you want to keep the story line going, then we can move this to e-mail, or just skip it all together. That won't happen for awhile though, so we won't need to talk about that right away.]]

[center [font "tempus sans itc" [b [u Third-]] Joining and then ditching is a no. If you don't like where this role play is going, simply message me and we can plot something out. Or if you are simply bored of it, and don't want to do it anymore, simply message me and tell me. I won't be mad if you get tired of it. Just if you join and then never post, is when I will be slightly annoyed with you. So please, at least talk to me about leaving the thread.]]

[center [font "tempus sans itc" [b [u Forth-]] Plot twists is a must. I love plotting things out, and see where we want it to go. It's not that hard to become my friend either. So if you have something in mind, and wanna run it by me, all you gotta do is message me and be like 'Hey! I have an idea, and I just wanted to see what you thought about it!'. Because honestly I will do the same thing to you, so don't be surprised if you get messages from me about ideas.]]

[center [font "tempus sans itc" [b [u Fifth-]] Stealing this idea is a no. It's something that's important to me. If I see anything like it, or someone stealing the main idea I will make it known you stole it from me. I have worked hard on this idea, and if you like it that much, ask me if you can borrow it. Just make sure to give me the credit for it. I will most likely say yes to letting you borrow it, as long as you ask me first.]]

[center [font "tempus sans itc" [b [u Sixth-]] Posting. I know we all have lives outside of this site. I work full time, and sometimes on my day's off I'm not always on until later that night. So if you need a couple of days to post, I'm okay with that. If you are gonna be gone for a week or two, please let me know because if you don't, then I'll think you ditched out on me. I will do the same thing for you as well. If I can't post, or having a hard time I will make sure to let you know.]]

[center [font "tempus sans itc" [b [u Seventh-]] Doubling is a must. As you can see I'm playing one male, and one female. I would like you to do the same. If you insist on playing only one role, and one role only, then I will deny you the spot. I'm doing this to make it fair for the both of us. Sometimes you have to come out of your comfort zone a little bit, push yourself a little bit farther. It's really simple.]]

[center [font "tempus sans itc" [b [u Eighth-]] Please for the love of God don't message me over and over asking when I'm gonna post. That's something I really hate, and it get's on my nerves when that happens. I like to take time on my posts, and I like to make sure it's the way I want it. If you see me online, I'm most likely working on my post, and making sure it's done right. If I take two weeks to post, that's when you can message me and ask what's going on. Other than that, do not bug me to post, and I will not bug you to post either.]]

[center [font "tempus sans itc" [b [u Ninth-]] I love details inside of my role play's. I can post well over 1,000 words. Yes I said 1,000 words. That's only if I have the right partner, and if I have a lot in my head for a post. For this story though I'm only looking for about 500-600 words a post. If I need to put a posting limit I will. Anything less than that, and I will lose interest, or it'll take me longer to post because I don't have anything to work off of. So please don't make me put a posting limit.]]

[center [font "tempus sans itc" [b [u Tenth-]] Now that I'm done sounding like a total bitch, I want this to be enjoyable for the both of us. That's what writing is about anyway. Having fun, and making something beautiful together. So please enjoy writing with me, and let's make something amazing, and see where this will lead.]]

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[font "tempus sans itc" Kianna looked up at the two siblings, and when her eyes locked with Emil's she felt like she was home. Seeing him face to face, instead of just typing to each other was a whole new feeling. When he made his way over, and hugged her. She nearly broke down just then. The feeling of his arms around her, feeling like she meant something to someone, was an amazing feeling. She wrapped her arms around him and hugged the male back, before he let her go. Then he started talking about rooms, and she nodded lightly.]

[font "tempus sans itc" She was about to speak when Erin came out. Seeing how sickly the woman looked, broke Kianna's heart. She wanted nothing more than to talk to the female. When Erin grabbed the broom, Kianna followed behind her. She heard a door click and knew what one Erin walked into. She tapped on the door before opening it, and stepping inside. She shut the door behind her, and looked towards the female in front of her. She felt her heart breaking at the sight. [#D7ACAC "Erin.. I know you don't want the company but hear me out"] she breathed.]

[font "tempus sans itc" [#D7ACAC "I read your messages to my brother, and in a way I was pissed off with you for hurting him. You didn't know him, you knew what he wanted you to know from being online. You don't know my brother in real life. You can't just treat someone like shit, and not expect anything to come of it. I know it's hard, and I can see the toll it's taking on you. But please, for the love of all that is good, give my brother a chance. He will surprise you"] she said softly.]

[font "tempus sans itc" She wanted more than anything to reach out and hug the female. She wasn't about to do that though. She didn't want to scare her off, and she took a breath and spoke once more. [#D7ACAC "I don't know what personal demon's you are fighting, but please don't shut Lyale out. Don't shut me out.. If you need a good female to talk too, I will be more than willing to take the time and talk to you. You really are a beautiful woman. I mean that too. Just please.. Get the help you rightly deserve"] she said.]

[font "tempus sans itc" She then turned and opened the door, and slipped out of the bedroom leaving the woman alone. She knew the woman had an eating disorder, but she didn't know how badly it was. She just hoped the woman would take it all into heart, and get the help she needed. Either with her, or with Lyale. She sighed lightly as she went back to the living room, and grabbed her things. She then went and found the master bedroom. She was surprised that Erin or Emil hadn't claimed it, but she did.]

[font "tempus sans itc" She put her things into the room, closed the door behind her, and she pulled out her light blue and black bikini. She hurried and changed into it. She then slid her feet into her flip flops, and grabbed a towel. She then walked back out into the room, both men were still there. [#D7ACAC "I don't know about you guys, but I'm going to the lake"] she said. She felt her cheeks turning a small shade of pink, realizing that her scars could be seen clear as day. She shoved that aside and walked out of the cabin.]

[font "tempus sans itc" They weren't too far from the lake, and she was there in less than three minutes. She put her towel down, kicked off her shoes, and ran towards the water. She jumped right in, and the feeling of the cold water shocked her. She broke the surface and gasped for air. She was used to it a moment later. She then floated on her back, trying to let herself relax. Things would be okay. They had to be.]

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[font "tempus sans itc" Lyale wanted nothing more than to just turn around and leave. He wasn't about to let Erin treat him like shit either. He looked up when Emil started talking, and he nodded lightly. He wasn't going to say anything to the other male. He was more worried about Erin. When she walked out and spoke, seeing her made his heart skip a beat. She was beautiful. She couldn't see it, because of her personal demons, but he saw it clear as day. She was beautiful and he had to prove it to her one way or another.]

[font "tempus sans itc" He noticed that Kianna was the one to chase after her, and he let his sister. He picked up his things, and then looked towards Emil. He walked over and took the male's arm in his hand. His eyes were blazing and he spoke in a low whisper. [#01A9DB "You so much as break my sister's heart in anyway, I promise you I will break your face. I will make sure you won't ever hurt another woman in this lifetime. Kianna is all I have left in this world, and I would die before someone hurt's her again"]]

[font "tempus sans itc" [#01A9DB "As for your sister, you have my permission to break my face as well if I ever hurt your sister. But seeing that beautiful creature walk out, I can tell I'm not going to hurt her. Hell I will make sure she get's the help she needs. If I need to take her to a doctor myself, I will fucking do it. Just protect Kianna, and I'll protect Erin"] he said. He let Emil go, and he stepped back when Kianna walked out in her swimsuit. She was boldly showing off her scars, and that pleased him.]

[font "tempus sans itc" He went and found his room, and realized it was right next to Erin's. He put his things away, and he knocked on her door. [#01A9DB "It's Lyale, I'm coming in"] he said as he turned the knob and opened the door. He walked into the room, and saw her standing there. He could tell she was really sick, and that didn't bother him in the least. He walked over to the small dressing table, and he found her make up wipes, and picked up a couple. He didn't say anything as he walked over to her.]

[font "tempus sans itc" He spotted the glass, and he took the broom from her fingers. He then lifted her gently into his arms, and he stepped over the broken glass. [#01A9DB "I don't know what you threw to break that glass, but you have quite the arm on you"] he said lightly. He then placed her onto the bed, and he tilted her head back so he could see her face. Looking into her eyes, he felt his heart swell. He wanted nothing more than to take her pain away, and make her see what he saw.]

[font "tempus sans itc" [#01A9DB "I know what you are going to say, but listen to me first. Erin, I don't see a monster. I see a beautiful woman in front of me, fighting personal demons. You might think I would run away from you, but I haven't. I'm not going to. I'm going to fight tooth and nail for you. I want you to believe me when I say this. You are the most beautiful creature I have ever seen. I'm so glad we never swapped pictures this last year, because I would have asked for more and more"]]

[font "tempus sans itc" [#01A9DB "Talking to you has made me the happiest man alive, and seeing you for the first time makes me feel like I'm walking on air. Please.. I'm begging you, don't push me away. Let me into your world, please. Because if you don't, and you tell me to leave, it'll just mean you never cared about me. Please.. Let me in.. Let me take care of you"] he said softly. He meant every word too. He leaned over and wiped her make up off, and he locked his eyes on her's. He then leaned forward and kissed her forehead.]

[font "tempus sans itc" [#01A9DB "Talk to me Princess.. Let me into your world, trust me. You have my heart Erin, please don't break it.."] he breathed out. He knelt down in front of her, and looked up at her. He stayed there watching her with silent eyes, waiting for her to let him into her world for once, and for the rest of their lives.]
  ѕυιcιdal / HoneyBee- / 10d 13h 35s
[center [font "Letter" Emil couldn’t believe his eyes when the two had shown up it was finally happening they where all finally together. He went to go over to Kianna but then Lyale spoke. [#008B8B “ Yeah im Emil, Erin is getting changed into something more comfortable she will be out in a moment. Its nice to finally put faces two you both.”] he spoke before heading over to Kianna. [#008B8B “Ill take your things inside, I hope neither of you mind that Erin had already chose her room, my things are still in the living room so you both can choose yours then ill take the last remaining room.”] he spoke before greeting Kianna with a hug wrapping his arms around her then released her.

The male then grabbed some bags bringing them into the house before turning around to face them. [#008B8B “Erin and I stopped by the store on the way home and bought a lot of booze maybe more than we needed but its all packed in the kitchen as well as food snacks and other soft drinks. The fridge is also packed with different types of beer and meat was thinking of grilling up some steak for us you both and me. Before you ask why I didn’t include Erin is because she wont eat it she will j..”] he stopped as he went back out to their car grabbing the last of there things bringing them into the living room before heading into the kitchen where he would start to make mixed drinks for everyone making jungle juice in a water jug so they could drink as much as they wanted.

He heard something crash in the back of the house and sighed his sister was up to something again. He brought out four drinks setting two on the table and handing Kianna her drink and Lyale his drink. [#008B8B “Ill be right back im going to go see what the noise was while you two wait drink up and settle into your rooms, take a walk in the jungle with my Jungle juice.”] he chuckled before kissing Kianna on the cheek. He didn’t want her brother to get mad if he made any move on his sister to soon so he was trying to be a little cautious of what he did.

The male was about to go to his sisters room but she had already walked out her hand bandaged up she smiled and walked passed him. Emil was worried about the others and how they would react to seeing his sister. He had always been so protective over her and she wasn’t getting any better with her weight it seemed as if it was going back down hill.


She introduced herself but then walked back to her room, Emil sighed as he went over to the two and grabbed his drink putting it in the air. [#008B8B “Well cheers to new friends….im sorry about her let her rest and she will come out to play she is normally like that when she is cranky…. She didn’t sleep much on the plane here since she could hear p…. since she has a fear of planes….ha.”] he laughed nervously looking at Kianna. [#008B8B “I have something for you that ill give to you once I unpack.”]


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Erin heard the car outside and she sighed then sighed once again when her brother had told her to come greet them. Of course she wanted to but did they even really want to see her, see the monster she thought she was. The woman put on a long summer dress that revealed her arms and boney back luckly her long hair covered up her monster like body. Or so she thought. She sat down in front of e mirror staring at herself.

Even if they didn’t want to see her she still wanted to great them and let Lyale see how hideous she was and prove to him that she wasn’t worthy to be anything but a friend in which she had already ruined. Erin began to put on her make up a dark smokey look on her eyes light peach on her lips. When she stood up she gave one last glance at the mirror trying not to cry so her face wouldn’t run. She believed that the make up didn’t cover the monster that it was plain to see. She saw someone to fat while everyone else saw a skeleton so either way she was truly a beautiful monster. She picked up a bottle of perfume chucking it at the mirror watching it shatter.


[#6495ED “Maybe I shouldn’t have gotten this room, im not good with mirrors. Ill just replace it when I leave.”] she sait to herself before starting to clean up the shards of mirror glass off the floor putting them into the small trash bin. The glass cut her hands in a few places making her whince in pain but she ignored it until she was done picking up the larger pieces. Erin grabbed her first aid kit cleaned her hand then wrapped her hand up well as around each finger so she could still move her hand around freely.


Not realizing she had some blood on her dress she walked out of the room putting on a fake smile passing by her brother. She stopped in the hallway where her eyes met the two not so much strangers. [#6495ED “Im sorry I was not able to greet anyone outside I have been caught up in my room. If you excuse me I must clean up my mess in the room before coming back o…”] she pause shaking her head. [#6495ED “Im just a little tired I might take a shower and go to bed take care of my brother okay. Hes a good guy…. “] her sad eyes met with Lyales and her heart skipped a beat. She quickly walked past the two grabbing the broom and dust pan then headed back to her room tears filling her eyes. [#6495ED “Not yet not yet you can make it to your room monster.”] she whispered to herself as she passed them once again.


She knew she broke his heart but it was better this way knowing how handsome he was he could have anyone he wanted. Anyone but her, she wasn’t worth it she didn’t deserve someone like him.]]
  Tendencies Emil& Erin / BelialPrinceLust / 39d 21h 20m 31s
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[font "tempus sans itc" The next day and a half seemed to go by in a blur. Kianna was busy packing, and making sure she had everything. She made sure her suit was packed, along with everything else. Might as well have shorts, sweats, and whatever else she was comfortable wearing. She couldn't help but wonder what Emil would say when he finally saw her. She bit the inside of her cheek, and she shoved that all aside. She would worry about that later. Right now, she needed to make sure things were packed up, and ready to go for in the morning.]

[font "tempus sans itc" She had barely slept the last couple of nights, and because of that, the urge to have the blade against her skin was strong. She hadn't had that feeling in a long while. What really brought it was the fact one of her old friends had messaged her, he happened to be her ex-boyfriend as well. He had treated her like total shit, and had made her do things she didn't want to do. She remembered the messages, and her heart fell into her stomach. She shouldn't be thinking like this right now.]

[font "tempus sans itc" As the sun started to rise over the mountains, she realized she hadn't slept again. She sighed lightly, as she heard her phone going off. She hadn't checked the messages from her chatroom, and she knew who it was. She walked over to the dresser, and picked up her phone. She opened the message, and read it. [b [i I know I'm the last person you wanna hear from, but Kianna I can't get you out of my head. You are all I fucking thinking about, and it's killing me. I'm sorry for being a total asshole to you.]]]

[font "tempus sans itc" [b [i I know I don't deserve to ask for your forgiveness, but I hope to God you will forgive me. Give me another chance to love you right. I was young, I was stupid, and I fucked up. Let me know as soon as you decide. I love you Kianna, more than you know.]] That was the end of the message. Was he really that fucking stupid? She wasn't about to forgive him. He had raped her, and made her feel like a dirty person. Even to this day she felt like that.]

[font "tempus sans itc" Nothing she ever did was good enough. She knew that. She sighed lightly as she hit reply. Her fingers started moving across the board. [#D7ACAC [i Issack I'm glad you think of me, and honestly you shouldn't. I know things haven't been the best, and I prefer it to stay that way. You haven't crossed my mind once, you are pretty much dead to me. If you don't recall, you raped me, you made me feel horrible about myself, and you sure as hell didn't make me feel like you cared about me...]]]

[font "tempus sans itc" [#D7ACAC [i I know you are wanting forgiveness, but you aren't getting it from me. I will never forgive you. If you message me once more then I will let my boyfriend handle this. Please don't bother me again. Goodbye.]] She hit send, and then sighed a bit. Maybe she was a bit harsh, but she didn't care. She finished packing, and then her and Lyale were in the car. They were a good couple of hours away, so the drive wouldn't take too long. She logged onto the chatroom real quick and read the messages, a smile on her face.]

[font "tempus sans itc" She shook her head lightly, and then went out to the car, loaded her things into it and slid into the passenger seat. She could tell Lyale wasn't doing okay, but she wasn't about to question him about it. She leaned her head back, closed her eyes, and then felt the car start moving. They were finally on their way, and she couldn't be happier. It was finally happening, and pretty soon she would be meeting the male she had fallen head over heels for. Now all she had to do, was get rid of the urge to cut, and everything would be perfect.]

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[font "tempus sans itc" Lyale kept his phone shut off. He wasn't in the mood to get his heart ripped out again. It was already going to be interesting to see how things are gonna play out. He was a total asshole, and he knew it. Did he care? Not in the least, if she wanted to make him feel like shit, and accuse him of being like everyone else, then he's gonna make it where he is like everyone else. He won't give a damn about her anymore. She burned that bridge with him. He sighed lightly, knowing that was all a lie.]

[font "tempus sans itc" He would still care about her, that's just the type of person he was. Yeah it hurt like hell cause she didn't even know him. Yet she wanted to think he was like everyone else? He sighed lightly wishing he could back out, but he wasn't going to do that to Kianna. She was looking forward to this. She was the one who set all of this up. He wanted so badly to start drinking, or something. He wouldn't though. He would fight that urge like a mother fucker, just for his sister.]

[font "tempus sans itc" When the day finally arrived, he was up before his alarm clock, and he knew that Kianna was awake as well. He had heard her in the night, and then he fell asleep for a little while. He got dressed, brushed his teeth, and then finished getting ready. The drive wasn't going to take long, so he wouldn't mind if they were running a bit late. He heard Kianna come out of her room and went down the hall, and he knew it was time to go. He grabbed his own bags, and walked out of his room.]

[font "tempus sans itc" On his way out to the car, he stopped to make sure the windows were locked, along with the back and side door. When he felt comfortable with leaving the house, he went to the car. He opened the back door, threw his things into the car, and then shut it. He then slid into the driver's seat, started the car, turned on the air conditioner, and pulled out of the driveway. This was going to be a long ass trip for him. He didn't want to see Erin, but what choice did he have?]

[font "tempus sans itc" He was still hurting over what she had said to him. He still hadn't read her message, if she even sent him one. He didn't care at the moment. As they got closer to the cabin, his heart started racing. A little bit later, he pulled onto the dirt road, and the cabin was in view. It was beautiful. He hadn't even taken the time to look at the pictures Kianna had found either. He trusted her more than anything. When he spotted another car, he had a feeling it was Emil and Erin's.]

[font "tempus sans itc" He parked the car, and looked up towards the cabin. There was a male already standing there, and he had a feeling it was Emil. He wondered where Erin was. He shut the car off, and Kianna climbed out. The male climbed out as well, and waved towards the male. [#01A9DB "You must be Emil, I'm Lyale, and that's Kianna"] he said nodding towards his sister. He then went to the back of the car, and started unloading their things. He didn't know what else to say at the moment. He hadn't seen Erin yet, and that saddened him even more.]
  ѕυιcιdal / HoneyBee- / 59d 5h 16m 8s
[center [font "Letter" Emil held his sister as she cried not really knowing why she was a skin and bone walking facet. He picked her up before setting her on her bed and sighed before he could even get to asking her what was wrong his phone had gone off and he immediately looked smiling at the message. [#008B8B “I know there is no reason to spoil you other that me wanting to spoil the girl of my dreams. And when we meet up I will give you all of my attention you’re the only one who deserves it.”] he smiled as he hit send before realizing his sister was still balling in front of him.

Ever since he began to have feelings for Kianna when ever they had private messaged eachother he got lost in another world he ignored the one right in front of him and focused on talking to the girl across the screen. Once again before he could say anything to his sister he received a message about it being in two days and it made his heart skip beat. Two days and he would finally be meeting his girl, not officially his girl but he planned on trying while they had met eachother. Emil never even looked back into the group message to see how his sister had messaged Lyale.

Once putting his phone away he looked at Erin before touching her face softly. [#008B8B “Are you okay?”] he spoke before standing and walking to her closet pulling out her suitcase. [#008B8B “Look, we need to pack we leave tomorrow okay.”] he spoke before leaving the room to go to his own room which still had some of his stuff still in it.

He packed all the nessesities and brought his sisters medication thinking she would forget. He was to busy preparing for the trip to notice that his sister had begun to starve her self. Once on the plane he let her fall asleep on his shoulder as he watched some free movie they had for them to watch.

Once on land he had opened his messaged and messaged Kianna. [#008B8B “Hey we are almost there if we get there before you than we will set up the place.”] he pressed send as he got into their rental car stopping by the liquor store byeing three cases of beer and a few bottles of whiskey vodka and tequila. He couldn’t help but feel his heart beat fast he was finally going to meet her he was finally going to meet Kianna the girl on the other side of the screen the woman of his dreams in a matter of hours.

Since the two were the first ones as promised he set the place up putting the beer and food in the fridge the harder alcohol on the counter. When he turned to look for his sister she had already gone to her room. Emil wanted to go check on her but he wanted to make sure that everything was ready for their friends to show up still not getting the hint that Erin and Lyale may not be friends any more.

After a while he heard a car drive up. [#008B8B “Erin they are here come on.”] he spoke walking out the front door his heart beating even faster. He stayed by the front door until the had got out of the car. Erin still not outside yet.

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Erin held onto her brother before being set in her bed she needed to be embraced by her brother but she could see that he was preoccupied he was happy something she would never see. She heard her computer Ding twice and was afraid to go over and look. One of the messages was to tell them that the place was booked earlier than expected they had two days. Two days before she would be face to face with Lyale who probably hated her which was okay. He needed to hate her.

She watched as her brother left the room not even giving her time to talk to him about if she was okay or not. Erin walked to her computer reading the group message first before opening her private message and just as she thought. He had hated her now. She tried to smile but tears ran down her face and onto her keyboard. Her fingers didn’t want to make any words she just read the message over and over again her heart breaking repeatedly. She deserved it.

[#6495ED “Im sorry, I don’t think before I act its something I have always done what I had said I didn’t really mean it... but then again you don’t know exactly a persons feelings when they type you don’t know how they are saying it. I will make it less awkward for when everyones all together some how…”] She paused before starting to write again. [#6495ED “I will make it easy for you not to speak to me so you wont feel so disgusted to see someone who had broken your heart. The Ice queen. I wont ask for your forgiveness and I wont beg for it I deserve the treatment I will receive when I meet you both. One last thing before I send this last message to you…. I never once said you were not good enough, your too good for me it was me who was never good enough for you in the first place. Bye….”] she hesitated before essing send.

Erin didn’t eat that night or the next day she followed her brother staying quiet looking at how happy and excited he was to see the group which made Erin dread it even more. What was the point of her coming on this trip in the first place now she had no reason to go the only person she really wanted to see was no longer going to speak with her.

Erin felt dizzy as the plane had landed it had been a while since she went this long without getting some substance into her body. Emil didn’t notice because he was to caught up with the trip to remember to make sure she ate. The dark haired female followed behind her brother to the bag area people staring at her boney frame and it made her want to put another jacket on. Putting her hood on she waited for her bag.

After about an hours drive they were already there the cabin was beautiful the scenery was just amazingly breathtaking. Since they were the first there they choose there room Erin choose the smallest and looked at her phone before turning it off completely. She had looked at herself in the mirror taking her clothes off and sighed looking at her skin and bone body. Every rib was showing as well as as her cheek bones. [#6495ED “Not thin enough are you? You monster you disgusting Monster.”] she stayed in her bra and underwear as she put her things away then looked out the window.

Erin would step out once to greet the pair but after that she would stay in her room to make it less awkward for everyone she would be a good monster and stay caged. So she thought as she sat down on the bed her spine showing as if it wanted to pop out.]]
  Tendencies Emil& Erin / BelialPrinceLust / 60d 14h 59m 37s
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[font "tempus sans itc" Reading the message from Emil she smirked a bit. So he had already bought her things? That's not fair in the least. He didn't really know what she liked, but then again with how they talked, he would know her better than Lyale even. She hit reply and started typing. [#D7ACAC [i There's no need to really spoil me. Honestly I'd be perfectly happy with your attention, and that's about it. I don't need gifts, just time and attention will make me the happiest female in the world.]] She hit send, and then switched back to the group chat.]

[font "tempus sans itc" She was slightly pissed off with Erin. Who was she to say that shit to her brother? She knew Lyale wasn't going to take it easily, but she ignored it the best she could. She then switched back to the other chat. [#D7ACAC [i Honestly, I haven't told anyone else. We will be meet up in two days. I couldn't book it for a month out, the soonest was two days from now.. I know we had agreed to a month, but it was all booked.]] She read the message, pressed send and sighed.]

[font "tempus sans itc" She had the e-mail in her mailbox, and then messaged in the group messaging as well. [#D7ACAC [i Change of plans. Meeting up in two days. Make sure to bring swim suits, and a lot of booze. See you both soon.]] She then signed completely off. She didn't want to read any other messages right now. She knew that Emil would reply back, but she wouldn't get them until she logged back in. Right now, she had to get her ass moving. She had to get packing, and get to the store to pick up some other supplies.]

[font "tempus sans itc" She couldn't help but wonder how Lyale was feeling. It was like Erin just dumped him, and it pissed her off. Even though they all had their own secrets, at least Emil wasn't treating her like that. She would have called the whole thing off, if Emil was acting like Erin. She shook her head lightly, and moved towards the bathroom. She started packing up her things, and went about make sure she had everything she would need. She bit the inside of her cheek lightly, as she went from the bathroom, to her bedroom and back.]

[font "tempus sans itc" She found her suit case and placed it on the bed. She went to the dresser and found some of her summer clothes, and a couple of her favorite bikini's. She was debating on getting a whole new suit. Emil would see the huge scar on her stomach, but she wasn't about to hide anything from the male. He deserved to know everything, and that's just how she was going to do it too. She wasn't going to let anyone down, including herself. It would be hard, but it would be worth it.]

[font "tempus sans itc" She sighed lightly, as she finished packing, and made a small list of what other supplies she would need. Once that was done, she went to run a hot bath, and added some bubbles into the water. She was nervous, but she was looking forward to it. This was a trip they would all need, and hopefully it would open up Erin's eyes, and make her realize not to fuck with her brother's heart. She sighed a bit, running her fingers through her hair, and then climbed into the bathtub a couple minutes later, letting herself relax a little bit.]

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[font "tempus sans itc" Lyale's phone buzzed and he read the group message, and his heart sank into his stomach. She couldn't mean that. Was she really that stupid to let Kianna and Emil read it too? Then another message popped up, and he read the message. It was like she was ripping his heart out of his chest, and stomping on it. He had pretty much told her he was in love with her, and she was treating him like this? Like every other male on the planet? Really? That pissed him off more than anything right now.]

[font "tempus sans itc" Then Kianna's message came though, and he narrowed his eyes even more. Really two days from now? Great. First he gets dumped by the woman of his dreams, and then he has to see her in two days? This was really fucked up. He sighed lightly and saw that Kianna was no longer online. He sighed as he went to the private message from Erin. He read it over and over again, and it broke his heart even more. What was he supposed to say? Should he lash out? Or should he take it like a normal break up?]

[font "tempus sans itc" He was slightly torn, but hit reply anyway. [#01A9DB [i Honestly I don't know why the fuck you would think I was like every other male on the planet. Yeah I might be a cocky bastard, but I'm not someone who cares about looks, or whatever. I care about personality, and I care about how you treat me. But if that's really how you feel, then fine. It's just gonna make it really awkward for everyone now. Instead of putting what you did in the main chat, you should have brought it up to me and only me.]]]

[font "tempus sans itc" [#01A9DB [i Now because Kianna read it, and I know Emil read it as well, thanks for making me look like an asshole. I hope you are happy, and don't expect anything from me anymore. I'll go and support my sister, but since you pretty much put a stop to something that hadn't even started, tells me you weren't that interested in me anyway. So don't bother talking to me on this trip, and don't bother even trying to fix what you already broke. I laid my heart out to you, and for what?]]]

[font "tempus sans itc" [#01A9DB [i Just to be told that I'm not good enough, that you know me when you know NOTHING about me. You don't know how I would have treated you, but because of whatever's going on with you, you think I'll just be like everyone else. Fine by me. Just don't be surprised if I give you the cold shoulder. Good job.]] He was pissed off, and hurt. He hit send, and didn't even care at the moment. He logged out like Kianna did, and put his head into his hands. Erin really fucked up already.]

[font "tempus sans itc" Maybe he shouldn't have said what he said, but he hoped that she would realize the mistake she had. He didn't care if she was overweight, or whatever. He liked her personality, and that's what drew him in. Since she pretty much tore his heart out, he was going to act like a total asshole towards her, and in reality she would deserve it. He sighed lightly, and pushed himself up. He went back to his car, started it, and headed home. He would have to get packed, before they left in two days.]
  ѕυιcιdal / HoneyBee- / 60d 16h 16m 8s
[center [font “Letter” Emil had immediately pulled over shaking when he heard shots in the distance. What had happened? What would have happened if he was still there would he have been in that mix? The male took a couple deep breaths in before putting his car in gear and started off again. The males hand Shakely began to dial 911 when he noticed dust in the distance the two cars that had passed by him were now gaining on him.


The dark haired male pressed his foot on the peddle shifting into the next gear. His car had to be faster than his they were more beat down than his brand new car was wasn’t? his family could afford anything and his father had made a deal with him that if he would stop shooting up that he would buy him an Austin Martin for his birthday. And of course he hasn’t shot up there were no track marks on his body any where so he was able to get a new car. A car you could only ever dream about or see in some sort of James Bond movie.


Emil was able to get out of the vision of the two vehicles and blend in with normal traffic once on the highway but was it to late to save his friends? Emil heard his phone ding a few times as he was being chased but was to shook up to check instead he dialed 911.
[b 911 Whats your emergency?”] a woman on the other end asked and waited only to ask again. [b 911 whats your Emergency? Hello Is anyone there?”]


[#008B8B “H..hi I would like to Report a shooting, at least I believe it was a shooting I heard gun fire and then I was followed by two cars. I lost them but I need you to check on the people in the house the address is 1948 Raven way it’s a farm please someone hurry.”] He spoke before hanging up knowing that they did not have enough time to ping his phone and Emils number was blocked so no one could call him back.


He pulled over and parked in the back of a gas station. Of course his car made him stick out like a sore thumb but no one came over to bug him. The shaken male searched his glovebox in the secret compartment pulling out a bag of speed laying out a line on his phone before snorting it then held his nose for a minute letting out his breath.


IT only took about 10 minute for it to hit his system and he calmed down taking just a couple more breaths and then grabbed his phone looking at the group Messages. Kianna had reserved and paid for a cabin for the four and it slightly upset Emil he didn’t want her to pay for anything Emil and Erin could have paid for it all they had a monthly allowance that they both have been saving well trying to save Emil had more than enough even though he bought himself coke and speed at least twice a week and well Erin who knows what she spends her money if she even does. [#008B8B “Sounds good. Thank you Kianna but you know a beautiful woman like you should not be paying at all let me know how much it cost and this knight in dark armor will refund you 110 percent.”] her wrote before letting his finger linger over the send button and pressed it.


He finally had calmed down completely and began to drive to his sisters place his parents third or maybe fourth house now? It didn’t matter as long as they were not around. His phone dinged again and he looked down at it it was just Lyale talking about getting his sisters attention. Emil shrugged and then waited for the gates to open driving up the large home. Emil was greeted by Erins buttler which he just walked passed him. [#008B8B “I can watch over my sister tonight I don’t want your filthy hands anywhere near her as long as I am here.”] he spoke putting his hands in his pocket and walked upstairs knocking on his sisters door before looking back down at his phone messaging Kianna Privately.


[#008B8B “Hello Beautiful, How are you feeling today? I know this is out of the blue but I really can wait to meet you face to face. I have bought you beautiful gifts to show the amount of Affection I have for you.”] he went to delete his post because he thought it sounded to cheesy but on accident he sent it. [#008B8B “Shit Shit Shit.”] He spoke before meeting eyes with his sister who pulled him into a hug her eyes filled with tears.

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Upon opening the door it was the butler with a small snack and the next set of medication which put her mood in a total upside down. She wanted to pout but she took the medication down with water before eating the small snack and slapping the door on the males face locking her door. Erin walked back to her computer as it dinged. Kianna had bought a Cabin for the four of them.


Erin would be alone with three other people and two others who didn’t know the Extent of her problems one of them she began to have feelings for but never once thought of telling him. She didn’t want him to have to suffer being with someone like her someone who had an eating disorder. As soon as Erin began to write she noticed that Lyale had began to message in the group about a woman flirting with him and wanted to get him into bed with her.


He must have been very handsome for some stranger to come up and ask him to sleep with him and Erin felt a little pressure in her heart area. Was this what someone would call heart break? She had thought to herself but sighed. Erin had began to message back in the group. [#6495ED “Why did you deny her than? I know it may have been an awkward thing at first but she could have given you more attention than I can. Im only over the computer the woman is right there in front of you…. Besides we wont see eachother for a month right?”] she hesitated to send but it was for the best.


She then noticed he had sent her a private message which put her into tears. He had been so kind and then told her that he had feelings for her. But he would come to regret it once he saw her in person. She wanted real love she wanted to be embraced by the man across the screen but moment he sees her he wouldn’t want to stand by her side. Erins fingers began to glide over the key board as she typed.


[#6495ED “ I see, im glad that I have captured your attention but really think about it Lyale. You don’t know what I look like. When you see me these words your writing me are going to mean nothing but talk. When you see me you are going to regret writing me as a love interest. I have come to really like you and it hurts me to write this but knowing what will happen when you see me in person I just wanted to warn you. Im not a beautiful queen. Im disgusting I cant help what I do to my body it has become habit I have tried to stop but I cant. The minute you deny me is the minute i…. Never mind. Just know Lyale you will not have feelings for the monster across the screen at best you will just want to be friends. Really made me happy knowing you have grown interested in me and if we could have just had it going over the internent then maybe one day I could have been more confident in showing myself to you. But I just know. I know how you will react when you see me. Its always the same. I Really hope that you can find someone so beautiful inside and out that she will make you happy.”] she cried as she hit send Erin looked at her face in the mirror and went to the bathroom locking herself in there she sat by the toilet puking and purging forcing all the fluid out of her body. She heard noise downstairs and then a knock at her door. She knew her brother was on his way. She walked to the door opening it and hugged him tears still streaming down her face ]]
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[font "tempus sans itc" As the messages came though, all of them were still game. That's something she was looking forward too. A small smile passed over her lips as she opened up a new tab, and started looking for small cabins, or a really nice hotel. She had been the one to first bring it up. She didn't know how the other's would have reacted to it, but she was glad they had been all for it. She bit the inside of her cheek wondering what it would be like to really meet them face to face. Then it all of a sudden hit her.]

[font "tempus sans itc" What if she wasn't what Emil was used too? She hadn't really asked him what he looked for, and she all of a sudden felt like she wasn't going to be good enough. She had hit it off with Erin, the two had clicked, but then again she was always clicking really well with females. Something about them made her feel more comfortable. She did flirt with men, but that's only if she was really interested in them. She bit her lip lightly as she googled hotels in New York.]

[font "tempus sans itc" They were amazing, and the prices were pretty decent. She wondered if they should all split the cost, or if they should just pay her back. Then again, it had been her idea for them all to meet up. She then went back to the main page, and started typing again. [#D7ACAC [i I think we should somehow split the cost if we want a hotel. Or a cabin. Just to make it fair for everyone. Did we want something where we wouldn't be in the same place, or would a cabin be better? We'd all be in the same space pretty much.]]]

[font "tempus sans itc" [#D7ACAC [i Honestly I'm game for whatever. I'm just looking up prices right now for hotels. Some of them are really nice, but I feel like it would be more personal if we didn't have a lot of other people around.]] She read the message over, and then hit send. She then clicked back to the hotel's page and rolled her eyes. Maybe she should start looking at cabins, and if they weren't in New York, so what? At least that could be their meeting place anyway.]

[font "tempus sans itc" As she started looking up cabins, she found a really nice one. The pictures were amazing, they would be up in some mountains, and the cost was amazing. She then decided right then and there they would stay there instead. She went back to the group messaging. [#D7ACAC [i Change of plans. Found the perfect cabin! It's in the mountains, and it's perfect. It has a lake around it, and it'll be away from the busy life. Which I think we all need. I'm going to book it now.]] She hit send, and closed out the hotel's page.]

[font "tempus sans itc" She then went about booking the cabin, and paid for it right then and there. It was for a month out, and her heart was hammering inside of her chest. Everything was happening so quickly, and she didn't know what to really think. It was happening. She sent the conformation number to the other's, and then logged off. She shut her lap top, leaned her head back, took a breath and sighed. It was finally happening. She would meet the man she'd slowly been falling for. Their talks away from the other's was amazing, and romantic.]

[font "tempus sans itc" The way Emil talked made her feel comfortable. She didn't have to put on a mask around him. The only person she didn't have to put a mask on around was her brother. Now that Emil popped up into her life, she had someone else she could trust. She was still worried though, what if she wasn't what Emil wanted? That thought darkened her mood, and she stood and went to take a shower. She was off work for the next couple of days, and she had some home work to finish. She made her way to the bathroom, trying to clear her mind.]

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[font "tempus sans itc" Lyale was trying to keep his mind off of what was going on. He could feel his phone going off in his pocket, and yet he was on the clock. He had a feeling it was Kianna doing all of the messaging right now. She tended to do that when she was excited about something. As the male stood there thinking, a red headed female walked into the bar and walked up to the counter. [b "Excuse me, but I was wondering if I could get a strong ass drink at the moment"] she said taking a seat.]

[font "tempus sans itc" The male shook his head, and looked towards her. [#01A9DB "Sure, what kind can I get you?"] he asked her. She shrugged a bit, and looked up at him and batted her eyes at him. [b "Well I was hoping it would be you. I haven't had a good lay in a while, and hell, you look like you could use a good lay as well"] she cooed. Lyale raised a 'brow towards her and shook his head a bit. This woman wasn't going to stop, and he knew she wasn't going to stop either.]

[font "tempus sans itc" He took a deep breath and started talking. [#01A9DB "I'm sorry sweetheart, but I'm interested in someone else, and I'm not about to cheat on her. Even though her and I aren't together, doesn't mean I'm going to randomly sleep with someone else"] he said with a small shrug of his shoulders. He watched as the woman's eyes clouded over. She wasn't used to being told no in such a manner. She leaned forward, her chest showing a tad bit. [b "What can I do to make you change your mind?"] she asked him lightly.]

[font "tempus sans itc" The male shook his head a bit. [#01A9DB "Nothing will change my mind. I'll get you a drink, and after that you should leave"] he said. The woman shook her head a bit, and flipped the male off. [b "Don't bother with the drink. I just wanted the sex"] she snapped. Lyale raised a 'brow and watched her storm out. The male laughed a bit and rolled his eyes. The woman was pissed off, and he honestly didn't care. He went about cleaning the glasses, and taking orders as people came in. When his break rolled around, he was glad.]

[font "tempus sans itc" He made his way outside and sat on the ground. He leaned his back against the wall, and opened the messages. Of course it was all from his sister. She had found the perfect place, and booked it. He would pay her back, and she knew it. He then replied to the other messages. [#01A9DB [i I think we should meet up sooner or later. Some chick just tried getting me into her bed, and it was really awkward for me to deal with. I really need Erin's attention right now more than anything.]]]

[font "tempus sans itc" He added a winky face, and didn't care if Kianna and Emil got grossed out about his message. He really did care about Erin, and the moment he would see her, would be the moment he would know he's found his perfect match. He couldn't wait for that time to happen. He opened up a different chat, and made sure it was just with Erin only. He didn't want Emil and Kianna to see what he was about to say. [#01A9DB [i Hey beautiful, that other message was true. She did want me to sleep with her.]]]

[font "tempus sans itc" [#01A9DB [i I told her that I was interested in someone else, and it's true. You've captured my attention more than anyone else ever has. So when this trip finally rolls around, I'm going to treat you like the queen you are. I can't wait to finally see what you look like, and I sure as hell can't wait to finally kiss you. Maybe you and I could end up going somewhere else, away from Kianna and Emil. Lemme know what you think.]] He read the message over and sighed a bit before hitting send.]

[font "tempus sans itc" He might end up regretting it later. None of them had ever video chatted, so when they met up they would finally see what each other look like. He leaned his head back, closed his eyes and relaxed a little bit, enjoying the small break he deserved at the moment.]
  ѕυιcιdal / HoneyBee- / 67d 20h 36m 48s
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[b “Emil Baby wake up Nikki gave me some new stuff he wants you to try. If its good we are gunna make a great profit and we can buy that dream home that we talked about. The one you said you wanted to take me and your sister too.”] she spoke knowing how to get to Emil. Emil used to be a good guy until he met Ally and Nikki they both had got him into some pretty shitty situations.


He began to date Alley who was also dating Nikki a man you didn’t want to get mixed up with if you wanted to keep your sanity. Emil was okay with it because he was what he thought was in love with Alley. It was really just one sided Alley loved Nikki, Nikki loved Emil and Emil loved Alley. Its probably the reason Alley would feed him the drugs that Nikki gave her to try.


Emil looked up at Alley smiling as he touched her face finally coming back to his senses from the last batch. He looked at the bag, [#008B8B Another line of speed?”] he asked as Alley made two lines one for her and one for him. As Emil had finished the line his phone began to ring looking down it was his father. What could his father want from him its not like ever time they talk its on good terms. His father hated his friend he hated how Emil had turned out and tried to tell him how to live his life and he wasn’t going to.


Emil ignored the call and watched as Alley began to prepare two needles. Emil told Nikki and Alley that he would never shoot up that’s the one thing he would never do but the male wasn’t even in the right state of mind. His phone began to go off once again it was his father. Emil answered. [#008B8B “Your really a persistent Bastard if I don’t answer the first time….”] He was interrupted by crying and yelling he heard people in the back round. [#008B8B “Pa… Pa whats wrong!”] He asked.


[b “Erin…. Erins Not breathing. She… She.. overdosed! Shes going to Everinies Memorial Hospital I expect you to come.”] he then hung up. Emil sat there frozen the Speed now starting to hit him and Alley sat next to him with two needles filled with Meth. He looked over to her. [#008B8B “I Need two more now!”] he screamed making her jump up and do as he said. [#008B8B “I Need more now hurry the fuck up before I kill you!”] he shouted putting the two needle in his pocket ore putting his jacket on and grabbing the two other needles from her taking Nikkies keys from the table.


[#008B8B “Tell Nikki I am barrowing his Car he can find it at the Hospital.”] the male hissed rushing to the hospital. Once there he burst into his sisters room before screaming in agony. His father was telling the truth she was there on the table a tube down her neck as they pumped her stomach. He wasn’t about to let her go alone he walked to her side pulling out the four needles taking two at a time pushing the liquid into his vains before dropping them and grabbing Erin’s hand. [#008B8B “I wont let you go alone my dear little sister we will cross the Bridge together.] He spoke before falling to the ground the drugs hitting him hard.


[b Present]


Emil sat on the couch having a couple of laughs with Nikki before looking over at Alley who seemed to be strung out of her mind sitting up against the wall. [#008B8B “Hey why don’t you take it easy on her.”] He spoke and Nikki looked at Emil and sighed.


[b “That bitch almost let you die she gave you enough to OD on and your trying to still save her?”] he laughed Emil just sat there and took out a smoke.


[#008B8B “Ill be back later I have to go check on my sister okay?”] he spoke before leaving the place grabbing the last of his things from the house. He no longer wanted to associate himself with these people and once he got to his sister he would call the cops and free Alley of her suffering. He found out that she really was trying to get rid of him making him try different drugs together. Emil really didn’t mind he wanted to go but he wanted to do it slowly.


As Emil had drove away from the house four cars had passed him going to the house . [#008B8B “That’s weird having so many people show up together like that. All Well.”] he said taking a drag of his cig looking at his phone and the group chat asking if they were all still going. [#008B8B “No other place I really want to be right now so of course ill meet up with you guys.”] he pressed send then drove to his sisters.]]

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[Center [Font “Letter [b One Year Ago]


Erin stood in front of the mirror her shirt of as she touched her stomach. [b “Your so fat, How can anyone ever love a fat Hog like you Erin you should go back to your country we don’t care for people like you in our country.”] She heard their voices on repeat in her head. Of course if you saw Erin’s Body she was thin she was below the healthy weight for her age and height but id didn’t matter to the bullies its because she had a thick accent she wasn’t from America originally but gained Citizenship when her father married a rich millionaire mother from Beverly hills California.


Everyone loved her at first but when she realized people were only trying to be her friend because she had money and she would spend on them. The moment she stopped spending hundreds on these people she called friend was the moment they started to hate her call her names. They left notes in her locker telling her that she had to kill herself because no one wanted her here.


The Abuse from these people got worse. Erin began to purge every time she ate, she couldn’t keep it down she wouldn’t her Brother Emil was the first to notice her drastic weight loss. Erin could eat one or two peas and felt like she had to throw them up since they would make her gain weight. Erin lost all contact with her so called friends even her Ex. She Had lost it she lost everyone in her life her brother had even ignored her in the end. Erins father was to far up her step mothers ass that they no longer sat at dinner together.


The siblings still got their own credit and debit cards that their Step mother would give them a hefty Allowance but Erin hasn’t used hers it racked up. Erin shook her head he body seemed fragile but she wasn’t skinny enough was she.


Erin wobbled to her room where her small frail hands had written two letters. One to her older Brother Emil and One to her Father and Step Mother. [#6495ED “Im So sorry My dearest brother, im so sorry that I have not been able to be around you. Im sorry I ignored your problems because I believed that my own were far worse. I am So sorry that we drifted apart. I hope that my Passing will help you grow stronger. I hope that you will see the light and your own worth in this Life. I Love you My Dearest Большой Брат Эмиль ] Erin put the letter aside and started her parents letter.


After all was said and done she looked at the bottle of pills that she should have been taking to help her with her problem and began to tear up it was time she would pass peacefully right? Erin walked to her bed with the bottle of pills letting them fall into her hand.


[#6495ED “The last thing that will ever go in my body and the only thing I will not Purge.”] she said to herself before downing the pills with the glass of water she had prepared for herself this morning.


[b Present]


Erin sat on her bed putting her thumb and finger around her wrist to make sure that she could still touch her finger to her thumb when someone had knocked on her door making her jump slightly. [#6495ED “C..Come in.”] her voice was corse. A Male had walked in with a plate covered, it was the butler that her parents had hired to directly take care of her and only her. He had to sit there with her make sure she at least had three bites of food and wait 30 minutes after the bites so she wouldn’t go throw them up.


They believed it worked but in the end it had only made it worse, her parents had her in mind since last year she ended up in the hospital flatlined on overdosing on her medications so the butler also had to regulate her meds as well. Of Course her Father never really bothered to check on her it was her Step mother who was more worried about her. She waited until the butler was gone before she got up to go to the bathroom quickly getting distracted when her computer had dinged. It was the group, the group of friends she had made. One of the people was her brother the other two were siblings Kianna and Lyale They both had suicidal thoughts and tendencies.


These were the only people that she could really get close to was it because they were like her? Erin walked to the computer sitting at the chair seeing that Kianna asked if they were going to meet up in New York in a month. Right before Erin had sent her message she saw that Lyale had said he was still game if everyone was. [#6495ED “I wouldn’t miss it for the world you can count me in.”] her finger hovered over the send button before pressing it only to hear a knock on the door again she quickly locked her computer walking to the door.]]
  Tendencies Emil& Erin / BelialPrinceLust / 72d 22h 38m 49s
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[center [b [font "tempus sans itc" [u One Year Ago.]]]]

[font "tempus sans itc" A small sigh passed though the woman's lips. She wasn't in the mood to be dealing with people. Yet here she was, standing behind a counter taking orders, and plastering on a smile that hurts her cheeks. She narrowed her eyes when an old friend of her's came into the small shop. She couldn't believe her eyes. The woman standing before her, was wearing pretty much nothing, and then men in the building were out right watching her. [#D7ACAC "How can I help you?"] she breathed out, she was trying to keep her temper in check, but it wasn't going well.]

[font "tempus sans itc" [b "Kianna! I didn't know you worked here. How are you darling? How's the love life going?"] the blonde asked, as she leaned against the counter. Kianna just shook her head lightly and tried not to roll her eyes. [#D7ACAC "Why the fuck do you care? You never did, so why do you now?"] she snapped. The two girls had been close for years, but when Julia started growing in places, things changed. If Kianna had her eye on someone, Julia wanted the same thing. It was like she was second place to the blonde woman.]

[font "tempus sans itc" Julia looked slightly taken back. Then her eyes narrowed, and she leaned up and crossed her arms. [b "You were my best friend in the world Kianna. So of course I'm going to care"] She said with a hurt look in her eyes. Kianna just shook her head, [#D7ACAC "Rose will take care of you"] she snapped and walked away. She didn't care at the moment, and she knew her job was already on the line. Why did it bother her so much that Julia was even there? She didn't know, but she hated it none the less.]

[font "tempus sans itc" She tore off her apron, and she walked into the back to clock out. She knew it was bad customer service to do that, but she didn't care. Julia always got under her skin, and today was the same way. She sighed lightly when she gathered her things, and grabbed her book bag. She walked out of the building and straight to her car. She slid inside, and sat there for a moment. She lowered her head to the wheel and let the tears fall. She felt like she was losing control over her life.]

[font "tempus sans itc" She sat there for a couple of minutes, before she put herself back together. She had to get home, and get her homework done. She had early classes tomorrow morning, but she couldn't get Julia out of her head. She started the car, and pulled out of the parking lot. She headed towards home, and pulled into the driveway. She spotted her parents cars, and groaned. [#D7ACAC "Great..."] she muttered. She had to deal with them, and she didn't want too. She just wanted to have a quiet night to herself, was that too much to fucking ask for?]

[font "tempus sans itc" She shut the car off, grabbed her things and slid out. She walked up the front steps, put her key into the lock and opened the door. As soon as she did, she heard her parents whispering, but then they stopped. [i "Kianna? Is that you?"] her father's voice floated through the air. [#D7ACAC "Yes daddy, it's me"] she called back. She dropped her keys into the dish, and slowly made her way to the kitchen, her bag across her shoulder. She let her hair down, when she entered seeing her parents at the table. Her heart fluttered in her chest at the sight.]

[font "tempus sans itc" Her mother pointed to a chair, and she sat down. She looked between them both, and then Lyale walked into the room. She jumped to her feet and hugged her brother. That's when the smell hit her. She took a step back, and they all started talking about why Lyale was home. [#D7ACAC "I'm going to go shower, and then work on my homework though. Come with me?"] she asked. The male only nodded, and followed her out of the kitchen, and went into his own room to wait for his sister..]

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[font "tempus sans itc" It's been a year since Lyale came home, and things have only gotten worse. Kianna was sitting in the bathroom, her blade in hand. She had just gotten into another fight with her mother, and all she wanted to do was bawl. She had tried taking her life again, but since then her mother has been keeping a really close eye on her. She missed being close to her brother, but she had met a man online. He had the same issues as her. They were all suicidal, and she didn't even understand why he would even be there for her. She was grateful for it.]

[font "tempus sans itc" She bit her lip lightly as she looked down at the blood dripping from her skin. She stayed in there a while longer before she finally washed the blood away, and bandaged herself up. As she was putting the first aid kit back, she heard her mother banging on the door. She rolled her eyes as she opened it. [#D7ACAC "What? Are you scared that I'm trying to take my life again?"] she snapped. Her mother took a step back and shook her head. [b "I just wanted to let you know, your phone is going off"]]

[font "tempus sans itc" Kianna's heart jumped inside of her chest. Was it him? She couldn't help but wonder if it was. She had been talking to the male for the past month. She knew Lyale was talking to someone as well. They had started talking to the other adults at the same time. She had been the one to come across the so called [i [b 'Suicide chat room']]. She didn't know if it was a good idea at the time, but she was glad she had. She finally had someone else she could talk too.]

[font "tempus sans itc" She felt her mother's eyes boring into her, and she narrowed her own. [#D7ACAC "Bloody hell mom. Leave me alone"] she snapped as she walked into her room, and slammed her door closed. She raced to her phone, and checked the ID. It was Julia. Her heart sank into her stomach, and she was curious to know what the woman wanted. She flipped her phone open, and read the text message that was sitting there.]

[center [font "tempus sans itc" [b [i Hey. I know you and I haven't been on the best of talking terms, but your mother told me what's been going on. I just wanted to say how sorry I am for the past year. I shouldn't have been such a horrible friend to you, and I would like to make it up to you. I miss the old days, when you and I had been close. I know since Lyale's been home, you've shut off even more. I know I'm the last person you want to hear from, but I'm here for you. -J]]]]

[font "tempus sans itc" That's all the message said. She narrowed her eyes, and started typing out a reply.]

[center [font "tempus sans itc" [#D7ACAC [i Don't bother with the whole bullshit. You screwed me over, and honestly, I don't want your fucking friendship. You changed when we started getting older. You started wanting everything I had. Including my brother. You hurt him, and you fucked me over so bad in the end. Julia I don't want to hear from you. I don't want you to even come around. You can talk to my mother all you want, but don't bother talking to me. I will never forgive you, for what you did to me.]]]]

[font "tempus sans itc" She read the message over, and then hit send. She then blocked Julia from contacting her again.]

[font "tempus sans itc" Maybe that was a bad idea on her part, but she didn't care. She sat down at her desk, looked at the fresh cuts on her arm, and sighed. She booted up her laptop, and signed into the chat room. She has asked the other's if they would want to be in a private room. They had all agreed, and she saw that the other's were on as well. A small smile passed over her lips, as her fingers flew across the board. Her mind trying to figure out what to say.]

[font "tempus sans itc" [#D7ACAC [i Good evening, or morning. I can't remember. Did we still wanna try and all meet up in New York in a month?]] She made sure the message was simple as that, and then hit send. All she had to do now was simply wait for their replies.]

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[center [b [font "tempus sans itc" [u One Year Ago.]]]]

[font "tempus sans itc" The male let out a small sigh. This wasn't happening right now. He didn't want to be moving back home, but the woman he had been living with, was treating him like shit. He knew she was cheating on him, and he wasn't going to have that. When he had been at work, he asked his best friend to keep an eye on her. Sure enough she was out sneaking off to meet a blonde man, and she would always go to his apartment. Lyale sat in the living room, with his head in his hands, slightly shaking.]

[font "tempus sans itc" He was going to corner her, and make her tell him everything. He had the right to know, even if it meant killing him in the process. As the hours slowly ticked by, he started packing up his things. He had made the choice on letting her keep the apartment. She could finally sleep in their bed, with her new fling. He didn't give a shit anymore. As he was taping up the last box, was when he heard the door unlocking, and Andrea walked though the door. [b "Baby? Are you here?"] she called out, closing the door behind her.]

[font "tempus sans itc" [#01A9DB "I'm in the bedroom"] he called out. He wanted her to see what he was doing. He wanted her to see the pain she was causing him, and he wanted her to see what she was doing to him. He had trusted her, he had given her his heart, and for what? Just to have her fucking around with some other guy. [b "I was thinking about ordering in some dinner, and watching some movies. What do you think?"] she asked. The male didn't say anything, he just waited for her to come into the room.]

[font "tempus sans itc" [b "Baby? What do you think?"] she called again. When he didn't answer, she made her way into the room and stopped dead in her tracks. [b "Lyale, what are you doing? What's with the boxes?"] She asked crossing her arms over her chest. [#01A9DB "Don't play fucking dumb with me Andrea. I know you've been cheating on me, and it's the last straw. You are making me leave, and I honestly don't even want to be around you anymore."] he snapped. He saw the hurt in her eyes, but he didn't care. She had done worse.]

[font "tempus sans itc" [b "I seriously don't know what you are talking about. Why would I cheat on you? I love you"]]

[font "tempus sans itc" [#01A9DB "Bullshit you love me. You've been sleeping with Stephen. I have the damn proof"]]

[font "tempus sans itc" [b "You are really bringing up my ex right now? I haven't been seeing anyone."]]

[font "tempus sans itc" [#01A9DB "Don't fucking lie to me! I have the pictures. The pictures of you two, Daniel fucking followed you! You've been going to his apartment, and coming home smelling like him. I don't fucking smell like you do when you come home."]]

[font "tempus sans itc" [b "Lyale.. You are scaring me.. Why are you doing this? If this is some sick joke, you win.."] she said her eyes filling with tears. He shook his head, and he knew she was trying to trap him. He walked over to the dresser, and threw the pictures at her. They fell to the floor, and he gathered his things and left. He wasn't about to listen to her lies anymore. His heart was shattering, and he knew if he didn't leave now, he wouldn't be leaving at all. [b "Lyale.. Please.."] she begged, her voice cracking.]

[font "tempus sans itc" He didn't listen. He just packed up his things, and left. He threw everything into the back of his car, and sped home. He had made a stop to pick up some vodka, and that was it. That was the start of him drinking his life away. He thought about over dosing too along the way. He knew his parents would kill him. When his home came into view, was when he was all of a sudden nervous. He parked the car, walked inside, and started telling his parents and sister why eh was home...]

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[font "tempus sans itc" The bottle of vodka was wrapped in the males fingers. He was thinking about Andrea, and it always drove the male to drink. He hated the woman with such passion, it scared him. She had tried messaging him the other day, and he had ignored her. The message was still sitting in his phone, and he didn't even know if he wanted to reply. He knew sooner or later he would have too. Right now though, he wanted nothing to do with her. He wanted nothing to do with anyone. He knew he had to get to work, but he didn't want too.]

[font "tempus sans itc" The male took another swig of the vodka, and then set the bottle down. He reached for his phone, and read the message once more.]

[center [b [font "tempus sans itc" [i Lyale.. I know you haven't heard from me in over a year. I know what I did was wrong, I had cheated on you. I didn't want to cheat on you, but I wasn't getting the attention I needed from you either. You were too busy going out and doing god knows what. When Stephen started coming back around, I told him I didn't want to even see him.]]]]

[center [b [font "tempus sans itc" [i He kept coming around, and that's when the sleeping around started. The way he looked at me, the feelings he stirred up inside of me. You don't understand those feelings. I had those with you, but you never looked at me like you used too.. In all honesty, I want you back. I want our life back. Talk to me please. I miss you so much. Message, or call me sometime. Xoxo.]]]]

[font "tempus sans itc" The male sat there, shaking his head and then finally started to reply.]

[center [font "tempus sans itc" [#01A9DB [i Andrea, I honestly don't know what to think right now. You fucked up so bad last year, I don't know if I can even trust you right now. I can't trust anyone anymore because of you. Since I left, I haven't done anything but drink. You drove me to that. The reason I wasn't giving you attention was because I was working. I was working on buying you a ring, I was going to ask you to marry me. But that doesn't matter anymore. Please don't message me again. I'm done with you. I'm done with us. You enjoy your life with Stephen.]]]]

[font "tempus sans itc" The male read the message over and over again. He wanted to add so much more, but decided not too. He kept everything else to himself. He hit send, flipped his phone off, and stood. He heard Kianna walking around, and knew she was logging into their chat room. He opened his laptop, signed on and saw her message. [#01A9DB [i I'm game if everyone else is.]] Was all he said. He then stood and walked to the dresser. He pulled out his work clothes, and got dressed.]

[font "tempus sans itc" He might as well go into work, and just get this night over and done with. He would check to see what the other's said later. When he was ready, he walked out of the house, straight to his car and climbed inside. He made sure his phone was turned back on, and he knew Andrea would message him sooner or later. He didn't want her too, but he knew she would. He shook his head and headed into town, and went to the bar, clocked in and let himself get lost in his bar tending job. The only job he loved more than anything else right now.]
  ѕυιcιdal / HoneyBee- / 73d 12h 18m 21s
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