I don't know if you'll ever read this. I'm sorry I'm not brave enough to say it over Discord. I realized I had this tab open after leaving the server and I knew that I had to say this somewhere. Where do I even begin?
You made me feel truly happy and for that I'll always be thankful. I don't have to tell you how I feel, because you already know how I feel. You really did make me feel, and to this day, I don't know if it was one-sided or not, but I'm thankful that you made me smile so many times. I wish I was different and not needy and didn't make the choices I made. I wish we could still hang out and play and talk and laugh. I miss that. I miss hearing Ben sing like an idiot, Jimmy and Vincent talk funny in the background, Tara picking on people playfully, and most of all you. I miss you, so, so, much. I want nothing more than to message you and tell you all of this over Discord. God, you have no idea how much I miss your voice and laugh. You made my day every day, you really did.
Honestly it was just a day ago that everything felt perfect, but then I did what I always do. I put myself first, and it happened to be on a day when you were already going through stuff and for that I don't really forgive myself. All you ever did was make my day better, but today I stopped returning the favor. That's why I don't believe I deserve to be in your friend group, server, or life, honestly. You deserve better and I know you'll find it. I really liked you, I still do. But I know you'll find better than me. I'm happy that you will. I miss you and I hope you find happiness, Sherry. Thank you for giving it to me.