[size9 I went through some of our old conversations to find art to show my friend
I wasn't as good as a friend as I claimed
I see why you left
And sometimes I wish I could do it all again, differently
Sometimes I just sit here and get so upset.
Because even if I wasn't the best, the care I had for you was real
And no matter how many times I try to make myself stay away, hate, convince myself to never look back
.no matter how much I beat it into my head that you hate me now and I shouldn't miss you
That there is no going back
The pain is still so real and
I kept saying I hated you. I was mad. But at this point I'm not even mad
I'm just sad.
I'm that word you taught me.. wistful.
I wonder if you'd be proud of me.. if we hadn't had the fallout or if you magically wanted to talk to me again.. I never had goals like this when you were here..I have so many certifications. I'm going to groomer academy in april. I have a job I'm happy with and I'm even looking for a second job.
I got my GED
I started working on bettering myself and being nicer and..
You don't get to be here to see me accomplish things
You don't get to be here for me to be excited to
You don't get to see the person I'm becoming and I promise it's not the girl I was back then.
I really shouldn't think about you
I shouldn't talk about you
I have all this art, all these characters and designs
All these friends, servers, rps, world's
Memes, new knowledge. Things I wish I could rush to share with you like I used to but I can't.
And that's something I have to live with. And I wish I didn't have to live this way. I wish I didn't have to live on your blacklist. I wish you could see this.. older me but you won't because of my own faults.
I saw you in the fast food place
You acted as if I wasn't there
But.. I was happy just because it wasn't negative? I was happy to be in the room with you if only for a moment. Inside my head I was screaming. I just wanted to badly to reach out and say I was sorry and I missed my friend. I held back because "they'd just say I'm harassing them or tell me to fuck off" when I left and got in the car I broke down trembling and crying.
Don't worry I won't go back there. I didn't know you worked there and I don't want to ruin your workplace or safe place. I know you don't want to be near me.
I kept talking to my friends about how much I missed you.
But I shouldn't
Because you don't want to be my friend anymore
If you did.. you would be. I can't force you to care about me. I can't force you to talk to me. But God do I wish I could stop missing you.
It's been what.. two years? Why must I be so haunted.
Why did I do this to us.
You were such a good friend.
And I'm nothing but a bad memory.
Also genuinely concerned I'm going to be attacked for this but shit happens]
I bought the base for $4 and she sold for $10 I'm super happy
I purchased the rights to some bases from Nazaki-cain and I made this moth girl Adopt and I'm super proud of her design
Though mobile ruins the resolution
I have a better one in email
My fridge is stuffed
I have gas and dog food
Today is blessed
1. A PetSmart in Vegas ... Yesterday a bulldog was killed and it was 100% the groomers fault and I'm super upset about it.
It could have been prevented
They hooked an EXPRESS dog up to a table and left it ALONE and it sat on the table switch and... Omg I'm so fucking mad
I hope that employee was terminated
My managers kept lecturing us about prevention
DONT LEAVE DOGS ALONE?!?!
Last year I started introducing myself as genderfluid to new people and honestly I'm happier with it?
I've always ran around pretending to be a guy on here and it just-
It all makes sense now
3. I've also joined a DBZ server along with the SU server on discord and I've got friends to use my baby Chiplè with?! I did this piece recently I love it I worked on it for weeks [pic https://i.imgur.com/qH5zvnB.jpg]
4 academy is in April and I'm super excited to be a groomer I hope I do good..
I got my pet first aid certificate last week...aaa
I know absolutely no one gives a shit
But I run a few good SU servers with friends and we all make art and ship and ect
Also I got my Chiplè x Shin ship back
I've been working as a stylist apprentice
And in April if I pass my assessment I get to go to academy for 800+ hours of paid training and if all goes right.. I'll be a groomer
And I absolutely love the salon I work in.. the girls are so good to me
Also I get free doggy training classes starting January 18th
I'm just going to drop this here since a lot of old friends on this website would attack and villianize me for this shit
So my Cosmo kitty sold fast as hell
The buyer wanted my permission to use in their visual novel dating sim they're making
I said fuck yes just credit the species to my Twitter
Made another she is $10
I wanna make a Saturn one next
This baby is $15 PayPal or cash app lmk
Group interview with 15 people
Only 2 slots open
Here we go
So like someone started throwing fits on my Facebook because I said I don't like to be touched so they're all "UR THE WORST I HOPE U DIE ALONE" AND I blocked them cause who the fuck and why and now they're jumping on multiple accounts to bitch like damn boo I don't even know you but fuck off
I have a Twitter for art purposes and I will be posting tons of Adoptables
Check out @Dr4gonWaifu on Twitter
Also got a dog trainer interview I'm super psyched
I'm super proud of myself rn
I'm going to do a husky dragon next
I posted it in a digital art group asking for price suggestions and some said 100$ and I nearly pissed myself
What can I say except
oh MY GOD ITS BEAUTIFUL I CANT BREATHE
MY DARK FORCE BOYO
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