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[b [size10 [#e63e62 I thought I would have been able to sleep soundly without writing my entire thoughts out over this.

But here I am, and about to preach it again for the ones in the back who don't seem to quite understand;

A person gets upset in another because the person in questions expectations were not met by the other party.

With this knowledge, why should the other person get upset, because they didnt bend to what you considered 'right' or 'wrong'.

That's the thing, it gets easier to not get angry with others when you realize

People perceive things differently than you.
You perceive things differently than other people.
How someone may perceive you may not be how you are

So why should you care about someone getting angry and upset with you? It's not like their own feelings have a genuine impact on yourself.

It sounds a bit robotic
But at the same time, it gives very logical, calm, and rational responses regardless of how elated the other person is.

I dont owe a person an apology because I'm recouping and figuring out what is bothering me.

I admit,
Not talking to your friends/giving them a check up on how you're feeling is wrong. And I blatantly admitted that I was wrong for it and apologized.

But again....
To get upset at someone else because their methods of handling their business is different than yours???

What if I don't care about you being upset? But Im sorry about making you worry?

Its sound, and simple.
I don't feel bad in the slightest bit, I made my due, and that's that.

I'm... really not going to be talking to her for a while, because, oh, no... I apparently "Dont care" for her. When IM the one who is figuring out my own baggage and what's causing me to break down in classes and cry. And having so many years upon years of knowing eachother....


Well, alright then, I guess?

Good luck out there sempai, because, deadass? I already know the cycle of emotional bullshit youre going to come to when you realize you have been GENUINELY left behind. Because I told you to not say that, and you should know better on who I am as a person. But in a fit of anger, you throw it in my face and say I don't??

Anger is a gateway to ones emotions.
It's a little,,, exaggerative, on how they're feeling, sure, but the gist of it still remains. "U dont carrreeee"

I just....
Well, I do get it.

Being so worried for someone that you get upset with them

Just because I understand doesn't mean I'm going to partake and get fussy right back when....

it aint got dik to do wit me fr (':

So,,, she can sort that and herself out,, and I'll continue doing the same over here.

I,,, feel better now aha-

Gotta, like, kinda understand that the same goes for me too, and I've been sitting here and checking myself when it was needed. I'm getting better at it.

I should really head to bed, I have to get up in a hour or two.

But this was just,,, kind of bothersome to me and I had to sort everything out.

Ty for coming to my tedtalk-

[size7 also do u like my ideal self bc I love drawing my own self insert huhu]
  - / Joo- / 235d 19h 47m 12s
[i [size10 [#710193

> <<
Not on here for long, as I decided to use this as an updater and for Y O U [s Chris] to not be too too worried over my wellbeing.

I mean, I still do care for you, after all. Sorry again that I’m incapable of simply... associating with you. That I do not know my own boundaries, so so bad smh

Let’s see here, let’s see

[right [b June 6, 2019]]

[center [youtube https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XXpjUePKFGk]]

I’m starting this off by saying I have completely isolated myself the second I was given a break. There hasn’t been any contact with the tiny circle of friends I have .

The entire week, I spent in a retreat of being asleep and getting high. I wasn’t talking to anyone verbally, nor through text.

I just.. Didn’t feel the purpose? It felt like energy, like it was an effort to try and relate to people for a moment.

Nami would bode on and on about her fashion notoriety, and she’d continuously talk about parties and gigs she was being given opportunities of. And, at the time before I disappeared, I would nod my head along and smile.
I’m happy for her! I really am, even now, I can still say I’m happy for her!

But.... I don’t think I’m one to be friends with someone who only talks about that sort of stuff? I have no interest in it, and the fact she apparently has gotten upset because [b I] was depressed and system shut down?? It makes me... question.

No, you aren’t supposed to leave your friends without notice.
No, it’s not cool to have them worry about you.
Yes, I would be worried for that friend if they were to suddenly drop off.

But would I get upset? Genuinely upset for them not taking the option to t a l k to me?
How... peculiar.

I get WHY she’s upset.
I understand completely, but,,,??? It doesn’t mean I’m going to agree with it.

Hence why I probably spoke to Marie first rather than her tbh oopsydoooo.

I want to say I don’t care? Well, I didn’t care about their worry.
Why else would I not respond to the few that had reached out to me on messenger over my memes not being in supply?
Smh, deadass? I know you’re going to laugh,
Some people came to my messenger, and were asking if I was okay because of my Memes not being in supply?
Them: Wheres my meme dealer

Bitch she sleep and stoned brb-

[center *~*~*~*]

I want to say the start of this was a couple of weeks ago, but I know I can’t pin it there, this is pinned back even further when I realized I was getting harassed by one of my coworkers.

So, that happened in January. It’s June now.

During class, a couple of weeks back, I was told to do draping and all of that. Now, this already made me uncomfortable, and I never expressed WHY it did to my instructor . And she thought it was a simple stone I can easily get over, so she was forcing me to do it.

I mentioned to one of my friends how I teared up during the process, but

That was an understatement. (:

I was full on bawling and she was wondering if I was feeling better/happy because I tackled an issue and I was just “I dont know (‘’’’’:” BITCH

Just kidding, I didn’t.
I honestly didn’t know what or why I felt uncomfortable until I said it outloud. Until I was questioning why I dreaded the thought of coming into school tomorrow (today?)

“I’m scared of making someone feel how I felt when-”

I wish I was able to catch my own problems without having to voice them or vent about them to someone else holy shit.

I just, JUST started to sort these issues out tonight. And they’re a bigger problem than I intended making them out to be. Fuck mountain is up there, fuckers.

So, I have an issue with touch. It’s bigger than I intended making it out to be.

But the question here is,

[right [b H o w a r e y o u g o i n g t o f i x t h i s m e s s ?]]


I mean it this time, I got the therapy number from Marie, and I pinned it up in a conversation I have with Gabby, that way I cannot possibly forget.

Honest to god love that woman. Like,,, no hate or trying to make you salty bab, but... thats my baby Im sorry.
My Gayby.
The o n e

That’s another thing I need to sort out, my feelings for Gabriela to be honest. I’m such a fuck up of a mess and I just need it SORTED PL E A SE JESUS CHRIST MONIQUE IF YOU DONT---
Ofc I love her
..... [b throws it on fuck mountain with everything else and waits for it to become an actual problem for me to address. Like this---]

I’m badgering my own plans.
Back on track.

[youtube https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NEGGgnO4_2E]

I got the therapist offices number
I’m going to ask my supervisor over the form of insurance we have, as I cannot find it in my own benefits feed.
If I dont have one here, at this work space? I’ll actually address my mother about this issue and have her involved.

I’ll also be messaging/notifying the staff at my school. They should have known about this topic of touch I have issues with. And I know they accept handicaps for others who have mental health issues?

I’m hoping to ideally get therapy and just the education based parts of this school down, so then I can worry about touch later. But.. I’m not too too sure.

I still don’t have my own basic necessities down, like,,,, bitch I still dont got my license but I got a car yeah I said it, what’s good? Im cardi B bitches wbu---
But seriously, I think... I really need to work on the internal clockworks of what makes a Monique, and I just keep trying to bite off more than I can chew

It’s ... getting overwhelming lmfao.

I just absolutely adore Faith Marie, bitch always has the right lyrics to bring me to tears

Actual fuckin tears, makin it smell like bitch in here

[size7 Also Chris I wasn’t too too sure but I still dont want to be logging in and out of here with a push and pull of your feelings and making you go “(: .. :( ... :DDD .... D:” >xDDD;;;;

Part of me wanted to ask; do u wanna rp
But another part of me is like, “Hush Monique... just let it go until youre ready.”
How else am I to keep the dark thoughts away hmmmmm---- by escaping into rp duh--- no omg
Actual- *cough*

Kinda joking, kinda not I know thats so fuckin weird but idc heyy i still luh u bitch... I aint ever gon’ stop lovin u. B i t c h]


[center ♡ Make an Email to your staff and instructors, you Troglodyte
♡ Figure out what insurance your work provides, if they don’t have one, talk to ur mum about need of therapy again
♡ Try your best throughout the rest of this quarter. Finish this through at least sweetie.
♡ Its okay if your parents don’t agree with your choices. You’re brave for finally voicing what you need help in, right?
♡ I love u, you psycho bitch. Even though you dont love yourself. ]

[youtube https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-1M5EMtit3k]
  |Admin| / Joo- / 236d 13h 20m 58s
Well I responded to it all via PM.
But than I got you didn't want me to and I was like.

God I gotta recode my whole story...
I'm glad it's back I missed it and wanted to write in it.
It relaxes me so much.
In some ways more than video games.

But recoding it?

Haha I know what you are getting at ;3

I got a Big mac!
I have splurged eatten this trip.
Diner food and the like.
Since not being paid Juzi has paid food.

What's WEIRD to me is eating the way we have? Me alone it's been more than 200 dollars a week.
So it's costed him more I feel AND
I don't save up.

With 200 a week before and I decided my own meals? I ate cheap and careful af.
While being able save money rather easily.
I feel we both lose out more this way but all well.

I haven't done any work this time since not here on the job and all.

Ohhh PMS almost as fun as PM's

Heading home huh?

Me? Just took a long walk to and from Mcdonalds.
Got food.
Nice walk physically.
But mentally?
My mind went places I didn't like.

When I get home brandon and me can both get a job.
Might start with Krogers apparently that is a union job with union benefits that get better as you work there?

With my mom being more stable money wise I can focus on saving up.
I don't mind I gave her everything before and all.
Didn't bother me but now I can save up for me.

Thing is I've realized..

The goal is to eventually move out right? And get/do what you want?
I don't.. Really wanna do anything?

I really wanna try that boxing amateur try out.
My mom would flip cause apparently it's not super safe.
I've never boxed anyone except David.

I'm a good scrapper/street fighter but I've always been fucking terrible at boxing tbh.
It's very different.

I wonder if I'll get to fight anyone that can actually put up a fight.
God I'm fucked up cause writing that made me smile.
And like that my mood has slightly improved.

I'm shy about the signing up process.
Adulting isn't my strong suit as you know
  Naofumi / ShieldHero- / 255d 21h 16m 34s
[size10 [#710193 don’t worry abt it- it was emotional whiny Moo
That’s me tho so it’s okay >xDD;

..... Wh- No >xD that’s not what I’m getting at goofy

No no
not pm
Girl stuff

I suppose owo I’m about to head home when this bus comes in,,,,
What about you though? owo
  |Admin| / Joo- / 255d 21h 53m 29s
No I forgot to mention crap!
I said call back when you get back right?
Jeez and you were not feeling good to.
Chris: "I'm here if you need me"
I suck.

Hahaha the trailers huh?
[b Snuggles in the dirt]

Okay PM me than! ^~^

You okay doll?
  Naofumi / ShieldHero- / 255d 22h 37m 35s
[size10 [#710193 Oh? Didn’t get my text message, did you?
It’s for the better I don’t feel like dealing with the drama I have created for myself-
Probably Pms or some shit I swear was emotional for NO reason last night like bitch chill

,,,, like the commercials s- [b skids into the dirt] x-x

Edit: It has to be Pms. It HAS to. I’m breaking out in my usual spots that I do when-

Ignore past me, she’s just having her hormones fucked with.
  |Admin| / Joo- / 255d 22h 52m 56s
[center [+green Hypersensitivity? Are you okay? Smell like bitch? Huh? XD]]

[center [+green Our program huh?]]

[center [b Tackle snuggles]]
  Naofumi / ShieldHero- / 255d 23h 52m 32s
[size10 [#710193 Wh,,,,, what’s that?? Was- was I making it smell like bitch in my own thread again???

Oopsie- back to our regularly scheduled program why am I like this;

[b Asks why am I like this while knowing damn well why I am like this-]
  |Admin| / Joo- / 256d 8h 23m 31s
[size10 [#FF1493 There is nothing I loathe more than my own hypersensitivity to the world around me. (':
  |Admin| / Joo- / 256d 10h 41m 37s
Ye for the ugh.

Like mother like daughter huh?

The table for massaging right?

WHAT?! It's got a warranty? So why can't I smash?

I didn't mean you give blowjobs and candies!
I meant they better give out blowjobs and candies with a 1000 dollar table!
Happy endings lmao I forgot that's a thing people hope for when getting a massage.

Annoyin? Me? NEVEERRR

Ahh well I'm proud you can pull all of that off!


Abdomens haha
I could never get one of those.
My stomach is so ticklish.
Not one person ever has ever been able to touch my stomach.
As a massage
Or a doctor even.
I giggle I laugh and I almost kick.
My stomach is so ticklish dear god.

Remember Noct in FF15? He couldn't do massages?

[pic https://i.ytimg.com/vi/kCsspQG4Fvk/maxresdefault.jpg]

Do they have an area for penis Massages? XD
I know they do booby ones instead.

Okay but what is Tactile?
Taste? Mother fucker gonna rock my taste buds than cure my depression?

Which hormones?
I'm sure getting touched makes some hormones rise
I'm so bad.

Oh wow yeah I know what those are actually... Have had my doctor ask me about those.
As well as a few other specialist.
Long story short I think I was always told to take a chill pill


I used to get so upset I'd hyperventlate. It was pushing the parts of my body made to fight stress way to hard to the point I was getting physical adverse affects.
Some things never got answered or didn't make sense to doctors when I explained it.

But other stuff was explained to me at least.
I'm glad you don't feel that way as much anymore.
[b He grabs her face]
You aren't meaningless.

Haha seriously though your awesome Moneck.
  Naofumi / ShieldHero- / 261d 1h 48m 9s
[i [size10 [#710193 Ye-
Ugh xD;;

Same, ehe nwn She's a workaholic,,, like me-

I believe it's called oakmont's or oakfron'ts??? >> It's a Nova table, a big black plush table huhu
You mother fuc-

Wh,,, No. :/ xDD
Not here,,, no bueno happy endings--

shush xDD Annoyin-

I'm a lil' storage rat who has a little savings account, ehe. So I can practically pay off everything I essentially require for this course huhu
I mean, I may have to take a tiny loan out, but so long as its not fckn overboard,,, I don't care-

It dooooo

They're subcourses in massage therapy one can take in a particular area :3c
For example someone can have more knowledge on correctly massaging out hands
while another would know how to do abdomens
There are many sub categories for massage therapists tbh? It's kind of,, interesting o wo

Aight bet
So, when I was going to school to be an OTA , they were blabbing on about our senses
y'know, hearing, sight, taste- blah blah
They say touch, but like
in OT they're more specific with going 'tactile' (:

And that's because of different textures one may feel .

As for explaining how it forms an emotional connection, I'll have to look into which hormone it is in particular that gets released to create that emotional connection.
However, what I DO know is that an hour massage could lower cistrol development by 30% , and increases serotonin by 28% .
o wo [b sits in nerd]

Being all,, sad and feeling meaningless (: That's all-
  |Admin| / Joo- / 261d 2h 15m 39s
Haha here we are huh?
No I know you didn't mean that at me haha xD

Oh yeah you texted me that xD
Glad she got sleep.

Your table?? What kinda table?
Lifetime warranty sounds fucking awesome to me.
[b Breaks the table]

1000 For that table? DAMN MONECK.
Better come with blowjobs and candy! XD

Sub wallets in tears?

I'm glad it makes you happy though hun.


Tactile touch?
They got something like that in Japan.
They call it... Cuddle cafes.
Explain to me what is tactile touch and how does it form an emotional relationship?

You just?
What way before?
[b He tackle hugs into her]
Also I'm proud you are striving for all of these things! That's good.
  Naofumi / ShieldHero- / 261d 17h 52m 30s
[size10 [#710193 lmao knocked my mom's ass flat via sleeping bc I gave her the massagie....

She began to be goofy/more relaxed than usual around me, I could tell- it was... interesting?

I'm happy I was able to make her feel so relaxed, even though I don't have my equipment;;;] [size7 I love my momma o no]][size10 [#710193 I can't wait for my table to come in;;;; shit was so expensive? Sure, it's a lifetime warranty/I can just get a new one if there's ever something remotely wrong with it

But at the same time?????
DAMN NEAR A FUCKIN STACK/1K???? BITCH WHO GOT THAT MONEY??? [s It was me. I had that money]]]

[size10 [#710193 My sub wallet is in tears for being emptied progressively.

But at the same time? Getting,,, a lot of cash while making others happy? It makes me happy, too.

I'm not quite too sure what I'd like to specialize in, as my school offers 'workshops' to enhance knowledge in particular fields.

But I think I want to work with clients that have depression and anxiety- things along those lines of mental illness. They.. feel so alone? And tactile touch does release hormones to give a feeling of emotional connection...

I just;;;;

Don't want people to feel how I did before; xux;;]]
  |Admin| / Joo- / 262d 9m 33s
[size10 [#710193 That was my shit ok shhh

,,, idk what to tell ya-
Yer stuck down here with me, sorrrryyyyy

I like you
The other one may leave lmfaoo.
  |Admin| / Joo- / 262d 10h 8m 27s
Haha I see

So wait.. I had a thing with Satan?!?!
As a Christian that is most strange!

Haha no problem hun! ^^
  Naofumi / ShieldHero- / 262d 10h 25m 13s

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