[center [size12 Our Thoughts and Feelings About Life. Don't Like What You Read, Then Don't Read.]]
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Awh, isn’t that cute? You need to make a profile to stalk us? Bitch, get the fuck out of here. You are a worthless pile of shit. Stop stalking my shit. You did this to yourself! You wanna play victim? You continue to block me on all your profiles, but wanna stalk my shit? Girl - you got fucking issues. Go get a mother fucking life. No one cares about you. You will get what is coming for you! :)
[google-font https://fonts.googleapis.com/css?family=Merienda] [center [Merienda I've discovered slowly over this past year many things, from being a witch to who my true friends are. It's been a wild ride but one worth taking. I feel myself becoming more comfortable, more confident, less afraid. I'm not afraid of being alone because I'm not truly alone. I have my ancestor's and with them by my side I'll be perfectly fine. Sure the living come and go by these guys have been with me from birth. Besides the friends I got now make me happy and comfortable. I'm no longer with toxic people or in a toxic work enviorment. I'm happy, truly happy, for the first time in awhile.]]
[center [Merienda It makes it easier to keep myself from doing things like pushing people away and clinging onto only one person. Because I don't need to do that. Sure some people I'm far closer to then others, but I don't have to have the one person. If it happens, it does but I'm not seeking it out. I talk to everyone equally about everything unless their to stressed out. I'm growing and I'm going to continue growing. I'm a witch. I'm damn proud of it. I don't care if my uncle thinks it will send me to hell. I've honestly never felt so comfortable in my life before. Not even in Christianity and going to church.]]
[center Ain't it just amazing how you play innocent when we all know you're a lying bitch, who can't take responsibility for her own actions. Well guess what. Karma is coming bitch. I cursed you.
[center [font "Century Gothic" I really wish you understood the pain I endure in one day.. You think you know. But you don't. You don't at all. If you would slow down for a sec, you could see that the longest we do this, the longest it's gonna be hard to fix my heart again.. I'm broken, alone, and I'm such a mess. and we just continue down this road. You say this is best, but is it, honestly? Is heartbreak the best? Is this what we show our children when it comes to never giving up. Because that's what we are doing. And I can't even talk to you about it, because I don't want you to tell me to come back because I'm upset about a mutual decision.. I'm going to break. And I'm going to break hard... We let drug court win, and it's tearing me completely apart.]]
[google-font https://fonts.googleapis.com/css?family=Merienda] [center [Merienda Wow really? Your going to steal names from me? Because what we are five years old? I love how their names change now that your [i mad] but isn't that how it works? Your not a real muse holder. I don't like saying that about people but honestly you aren't. Your muses are full of drama 100% of the time. And I'm sorry honey but no HEALTHY person is going to be six foot and weight 95 pounds. They would be dead. I'm five three and a half and I weight 169. I'm considered healthy for my size. Maybe a tad bit pudgy by not really. 140 is the goal weight for someone my height. So that is NOT normal. I can't be friends with you again, I just can't. You do anything to hurt me and my friends. Let me tell you one thing. You hurt Jess and I will destroy you. That will be the last straw. Nice girl will die and bitch will live.]]
You obviously aren’t a real muse holder if the names just continue to change because you want to be a child. So glad I’m done with you.
Okay you know fucking what this is a damn game and I am getting tired of this. I said I needed SPACE not that I was WALKING. There is a DIFFERENCE. Buuut if you want to take them us the same thing than that is on you. You are the one who did ALL of this to yourself and yet we are SATAN. Good luck and hopefully you treat your new friends better
[google-font https://fonts.googleapis.com/css?family=Merienda] [center [Merienda I can not fucking believe you. You are so god damn childish. I took a side when you ASKED me if I was upset. And I was. I was just being honest and you ATTACKED me over it. So I walked away because I honestly have enough bullshit in my life and enough children. I don't really need a twenty-eight year old who acts like she's thirteen. You go throw your fit to your new friends. And FYI Jess and I are super tight. So if you think your going to convience her to hate me your dead fucking wrong. So go ahead and throw your little tantrums. We know the truth]]
[Shadows+Into+Light [size15 Honestly I think we're all feeling a little lost right now. Or have our moments of darkness and weakness. But I also know that we're not as alone as we think either. Just the thing that is hardest is reaching out and asking for help. Maybe because we don't want others to worry...or because we don't want to drag them down too... But it's okay to ask for help too...]]
[google-font https://fonts.googleapis.com/css?family=Merienda] [center [Merienda I've had terrible anxiety lately. It's realing like the dickens. I had an anxiety attack last night and I can't get rid of this gnawing fear that I'm going to end up alone. That my muses will end up alone. I"m tired and I'm totally unsure what to do. Feels like my world is collapsing around me anymore. I don't know how to deal with it. I'm going to take a shower soon. Hopefully it will ease my mind. Somehow, someway. I'm going to curl up into a ball, maybe, or talk to JEss about this whole thing.]]
[center So I was diagnosed with severe ptsd and ptsd related psychosis.
The doctor wants me to do animal assisted therapy with horses which would be great and all but my fiancé is seriously deathly allergic to horses so not sure how I’m going to pull that off.
I went to the surgeon and he thinks that because of my medical history something else might be wrong and he wants to do Scopes and Radioactive fluids to take a look and see if everything is functioning right.
I’ve been in the middle of a psychological breakdown and hiding away from everyone, I have more bad days than good and I just can’t put others through it even if they can handle it.. I don’t want to say things to them that will make them worry too much. No matter how bad it gets.
Astral has been more or less absent due to his own issues and it’s a rather empty feeling, he’s my person, the Christina to my Meredith, the Apple to my Pie, the pain in my butt. I miss him. I just want him back now.
[google-font https://fonts.googleapis.com/css?family=Merienda] [center [Merienda I can not believe you, you fucking [i asshole]. Your quitting DND because I've been 'pretty distant with you'. No shit sherlock! We just broke up! And the Holiday's are HARD for me. Excuse me for wanting some time to gather my thoughts before we are friends again. And no being friends doesn't mean you get to call me every single night. Which you only did twice. And I messaged you on Christmas to which you didn't reply to me [i at all.] So don't even try to turn this on me you selfish prick.]]
[center [Merienda You are so self-centered it's ridiculous. Unless it's what you want you don't give a shit. Everything is disposable to you. People, things, food, money. All of it. "I'm focusing on my career." BULLSHIT. YOU DROPPED OUT OF MEDICAL SCHOOL BECAUSE YOU JUST DIDN'T FEEL LIKE GOING TO SCHOOL ANYMORE. Your going to get certificed to be a CNA and make LESS MONEY than I do right now. Which is not something you are used to. The only reason you get away with it is because mommy and daddy pay for everything and always will. It won't be long before you fly back to Texas and become a stoner again. I'm damn well sure of it.]]
[center [Merienda If you aren't still one and lying about it. No apartment just smells like weed when you walk into a place through the vents. Not multiple days in a row. You smoked it in your apartment and then wanted to pretend like you didn't. That's why you had so many sprays around so that you could cover up the stench. The world runs on what you want. And I'm so fucking done with you right now. So done. Go to hell.]]
[google-font https://fonts.googleapis.com/css?family=Merienda] [center [Merienda I refuse to be an [i obligation] to someone. If spending time with me is not a priority than we are not meant to be. I will not be made to feel bad for wanting to spend time with you. And since you can't love me right it's time you backed down and let someone else step up to the plate. I shouldn't feel guilty because you decide you want to play games last minute with your dad. I shouldn't feel bad for getting upset and crying. I shouldn't have to fight you tooth and nail to go to my grandma's christmas only to have you tell me that I'm [i inconveniently crying] so you can't have a conversation with me.]]
[center [Merienda You should of kissed me by now, it's been three months. Instead you talked about getting laid with me. Wanting some action. Why? You can't even kiss me so why should I let you into my most delicate parts. You make plans for [i you] and not with me in them. You do what you want, when you want and it's all about what you want. You want someone to cowtow to you, give you what you want. It's all about Connor, Connor Connor. You didn't care how badly you hurt me. You didn't care about anything. "Oh well I just was forcing myself to do stuff you wanted and that was making me resent you. So I'm taking my mental health into need."]]
[center [Merienda So all those times we couldn't hang out and you played video games instead of doing homework wasn't focusing on you? All those times I stepped back so you could have a better homework schedule meant nothing? All the times your parents came to town and I didn't bother you about them once didn't matter? You didn't want to be with me. You wanted to dick around and play games. You often lied to me that school went longer so you could play games. You lied to me about having homework and would go home and do what you wanted. You lied to me about a lot of things. But you never lie you know. Your an honest person.]]
[center [Merienda You drink like a fish, constantly. Doing shots at home by yourself. Getting drunk was your prerogative and you wanted me drunk too. You dropped out of school because your 'tired of it.' If soemthing doesn't suit you then you toss it aside like garbage. You don't give a freaking shit about anyone but yourself. And I am tired. I'm done. I'm ready for a [u man] who takes care of me and makes me a priority in his life. Who makes me his number one. Not a boy who wants to play house so he's not lonely.]]
[google-font https://fonts.googleapis.com/css?family=Merienda] [center [Merienda Little Drizzt is in the hospital right now fighting for his life. And there is nothing I can do to stop it. Only pray and send spells to help him get through. I'm trying to earn money for my friends if I can, because this is a hard time. I feel so broken. I just want to help. But I can't. I can only pray he doesn't die. Not yet. Our little fighter can't go yet. Auntie Meg is not ready for that.]]
[Rosario [size12 [center A lot has been going on. My fiance is in the mental health hospital and diagnosed with psychosis disorder. I'm tired honestly and so easily irritated by basically everything. I just want to tell the world to go fuck itself and go back to sleep.
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