Two childhood friend's differing paths makes one of them anxious because of her crush.
She watched him curiously as he inspected the room. A smile did cross her lips when he said that he liked it. "I'm glad, though are you sure?" she asked softly. Something about how he had looked around it made it seem like he wasn't completely on board.
Slowly she followed him to the wind and looked out on the city. A small smile appeared as he took her hand. "It's quite a view," she mused softly. She wasn't sure what to say or do. "So... what do we do?" she asked, unsure, "A movie?" It was their go to thing so why not? Surely, the hotel had a selection of things to watch.
He noticed her being pleased at her pick, and certainly he didn't mind much either, though he did ever have slight concerns about how she viewed money or expenses sometimes. Hearing her ask him as he took in the room around him he smiled at her, "It is nice in here. I like it."He stated, but he was usually agreeable like that anyway. Walking forward to the window he looked out at the city, the lights against the dark sky were very nice indeed, they certainly picked a nice place to come. Glancing over at her as she came beside him he took her hand in his just like when they were looking from up in the tower. He offered her a sincere smile, but still, he was trying not to think too far ahead or anything, he was sure that if both of them didn't go with the flow they'd end up getting into another quiet headspace for both of them.
She hadn't really considered costs when booking the hotel. After all, her family was well off and she had more than enough money. While she did spend some of it, most of the time it just piled up in her account so this was only a small dent in her account. Hearing his words, she did smile softly, glad he believed it was good.
Once they had their key she followed him up to their room. She had thought about doing something, after all, mangas gave plenty of ideas, but ultimately she had decided against it, as it seemed too presumptuous, especially considering she had no idea how the trip would go.
Either way they were met with a very opulent room. While it wasn't a suite, it was likely only a step below that. It had a huge bed with red bed sheets and a specious, fancy bath. The room had a balcony that overlooked the city, which could be covered by drapes. She looked around carefully. "What do you think?" she asked softly.
Hearing her uneasiness and seeing the fanciness of the hotel he looked it over a bit as well. Well..whatever it cost, she was worth it anyway. He didn't want her to worry about it either though, so he hoped this would prove to be a great place to stay for the night. "It looks great."He said sincerely enough. Still walking inside it certainly did look impressive. He approached the desk and got them their room keys, taking care of the room. He wondered if she had planned anything for them here or if it was just going up to their room, either way, they should at least check out the room, he was curious about that as well, what kind of room did she get them?
He made his way up to the room with her and opened the door with the key, taking a look around for himself.
She pouted ever so slightly. "That is very important," she replied, feeling in her heart it was, even if it was true that most of his books had migrated over to her place, but those she had asked before. Books were special to her.
It was definitely getting chillier. She could start to feel the wind through the relatively thick kimono. Still, the way he said that made her blush, even if she was aware of what he meant. "We probably should," she agreed, since the place was closing.
A bit later they were out of their kimonos and back on the streets as the temple was closing. "Our hotel isn't far from here," she said and navigated them through a few blocks. Soon they stood in front of a relatively fancy looking hotel. "I just chose the one with the best ratings," she explained, uneasily, as she had not really ever booked a hotel before.
Listening to her go on he chuckled a little bit, slightly rolling his eyes. "Nothing important then."He corrected, knowing the book would never have been important to apologize for to him, in fact it probably ended up finding a permanent residence with her, like most of his books did, not that he got very many. Still, sitting on this bench with her in their kimonos, in the cold air, it was getting noticeably chillier and darker outside. "I suppose it is time we head for the hotel then."He knew she was in charge of that, the booking anyway, he was trying to take care of a majority of their expenses. He wasn't wrong though, the temple seemed to be shutting down some things as well, so they probably had to go return the kimonos and be on their way now.
She wasn't sure how he would react to what she said. It wasn't that she believed he would act bad about it, but it was just hard, at least considering what she had accused him of. Was this how people felt that didn't have a filter and said whatever came to their minds? Perhaps.
Hearing that it was okay, was definitely a relied and she did give the smallest of sighs. That he pointed out her blushing, she felt herself blush even more, being something she definitely couldn't turn off. She was glad that he turned away while she took the time to fan some air to her.
What he said made her think for a moment. "Surely, I must have apologized for something before," she said, thoughtfully, "I'm sure I kept one of your books longer than I intended to." While that was likely a none issue for anyone else, it was a big deal for her, even if it seemed downright silly.
As they walked and she pointed out the facts about the tree, he looked at the one's she spoke of, though for now made a small affirming noise. Once she suddenly sat down he looked at her curiously and sat down next to her. He had never really seen her truly remorseful of things..she hadn't typically been in the situation unless it was silly and almost meaningless that she was apologizing, so this was sort of new. It figured that she'd match the currently not bloomed trees and the cold air, he chuckled a little bit. "It's okay."He assured her, "Though you blush even when you're apologizing."He pointed out, looked out to well, temple and not her, maybe so she could regain her composure. "I don't think I've ever heard you apologize for something before." Obviously, she had, but at the same time obviously for nothing very major, she kept to herself so much she'd rarely be in the situation.
Feeling his hand under her chin, she looked up at him surprised as he spoke about her. The more he spoke, the more it was becoming apparent that he did know quite a bit about her, even if she wouldn't have believed it.
Not sure what to say she was happy when he took her hand and simply led her further into the attraction part of the temple. Looking around, she did spot some trees. "In the spring time this is a very popular place to do some cherry blossom viewing," she told him, unsure of how to continue the conversation. She was bad at small talk, if that wasn't clear enough.
At some point she did sit down on a bench beneath the now empty tree as she looked up at him, feeling her face go red. "I am sorry for what I said earlier," she told him, hoping he understood that she meant the part about him not knowing why he liked her.
After she accepted the charm he sort of rose an eyebrow at her statement. She was occupied with the charm for the moment so he tilted her head up, his finger under her chin. "You are awkward. You are quiet. You are honest, even considering, you're bright, you're scared, you're loyal."He continued having his brow raised at her as his eyes peered into her own. He figured he didn't really have to follow it up with more, or by stating that he did in fact know her.
He let his hand slip back down and took her free hand into his own, proceeding further into the small area where there were snacks and more souvenirs. He seemed rather content for now as they got to look at more of the temple's attractions..clearly well past the traditional point now.
"I... suppose so," she replied with a shrug. It was easy for her to be sure in class. In class there was one right answer and she was smart enough to know it most of the time. In life there were a lot of answers and there was no amount of studying in the world that would allow her to find the right answer.
Her head tilted to the side. Sure, it was nice to hear him say that. That e would always be there for her. It was more than comforting to hear. Still, a small part of her was nagging. "But do you know who I am then? If I always acted differently, how can you say you would like the person that isn't awkward?" she pointed out softly. She knew it was a weird question, but it seemed fair to her.
Seeing him offer her a love charm, she felt her head grow extremely hot, almost steam coming from her ears before accepting it with a smile, her face almost glowing. "Thank you," she replied, looking it over in her hand.
He didn't really know that was how it would be either. His other frame of reference for dating he simply shook his head too, "I don't believe we should act totally differently..we're supposed to be more open aren't we?"He thought on what she said though, she gave him enough of a reason why she wanted to date him. "If I made you act so differently before based on what I'd do..then I don't want you to do that anymore..if there aren't anymore secrets then..a lot of things can be easier can't they..You don't have to be afraid of what I think of you cause no matter what I'll always be here."He informed her, he just wanted her to be more comfortable, he wanted to be able to feel like she was comfortable, at least that's what he was trying to get across he hoped. "Here."He let go of her and grabbed two love charms for them either way. Offering one to her he smiled a little bit, but warmly.
Was it like that? Did they trade being best friends for being a couple? She couldn't say. She didn't understand enough about all this to make that call. "I don't know. Is that how it goes?" she replied, obviously unsure herself.
Why? She looked up at him as she thought on it. How was she supposed to explain why? It felt like enough words didn't exist to explain it. Before she could open her mouth to speak he continued to talk. She did feel her face grow a little red at what he said. Had she really been open with him? Considering that she hadn't told him what she had felt for him for a long time.
"I wanted to date you because... I like how you make me feel. How you understood me, even though I was odd. You are kind and goofy. There are a lot of thing that I could probably say, but I don't really know how to put it...," she said slowly, feeling her head flush as she looked to the side, wondering what he would say to that.
Listening to her go on about it, he supposed he knew where she was coming from, but at the same time what did she want? He let out a small breath, they had the same problem with one another. "So what..? We can't be best friends anymore?"He looked to the side as well, his tone remaining a bit sullen. "We traded that away to be a couple?"He knew he had to drill the point in somehow, things were steadily different between the two. "I'm worried about..how much you're okay with..you're worried about how much I'm okay with..things aren't natural between us?"He looked down to her now, not wearing the usual smile. "Why..did you want to date me?"He asked her, he knew it had just sort of exploded into something on a drunken night, she had these feelings for so long, and he had never thought about a relationship with her before, obviously not knowing she was interested that way. He wanted to try with her because of course it made sense, there was so much he liked about her, he gave up another girl for her. He shook his head before she answered though and took both of her hands, "I don't want you to worry about what I do or don't like..I want you to be yourself and keep being the girl I was too stupid to realize that I could like. That made me excited to date you..not because you would be careful with me and start being different..because you were open with me.."
The way he looked at her and then simply stated exactly what he had said, she felt her face grow hot. "Of course not," she replied hastil, but it was clear that was exactly what had happened. She couldn't help it. That had been the only thing that came to mind for her.
When he spoke up she looked to him before slowly looking to the side, feeling embarrassed." Won't you?" she pointed out, not really sure how to explain what was going on, "Now, it's just different. Maybe I do something you don't like and then..." She didn't want to say it, but that that was the end. She had never been in a relationship, but the ones she had observed with friends or even in mangas seemed to end over such trivial things. She just didn't know how to tread with him and how much was too much and how much was too little.
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