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[center [size10 Since Davey doesn't really come out much at all anymore, I'm gonna go ahead and migrate to my account and start working on it~. I'll log in here every once in a while to check if anybody has messaged or anything or if Davey want's to post. Until then, see ya~.]]
[center [size10 -Rami]]
[center [size10 I just want to hug you and squeeze you until you are gasping for breath.. I want to kiss you and cuddle you and never let you go. I want to keep you chained, contained, and captivated, only for me to see. I want to keep you so close that you forget what life was like without me.. You're mine.. Completely and fully. And I'm going to keep you forever. All for me.]]
[center [size10 -Rami]]
[center [size10 P.s. You're beautiful when you sleep.]]
[center [size10 I haven't felt so real in so long.. This was what I was so used to feeling back then, in those few times in my life where I felt like I would lose everything. Where people that I loved were hurting, and it tore me to pieces to see them hurt, instead of feeling bad because I didn't feel like those people were my people anymore.]]
[center [size10 I almost don't want the dread to go away.. I'm afraid that this feeling will pass too soon before I can talk to any of them again, while feeling like the Davey they knew. I don't want it to all go away again.. Why.. Why is it only when in pure pain that I can feel like the old me again..? Why couldn't it have been something else.. I don't wanna stop hurting cause I don't wanna stop loving everyone completely as my family.]]
[center [size10 I don't want to stop crying over my brother, I don't want to stop missing my Dad, I don't want to stop feeling like a scared little child who just want's his family to be okay.. I don't want to feel so disconnected again.. Fuck I hate it so fucking much. I hate feeling like I'm not Davey and that nobody here cares about me because I'm not who they want.. I'm tired of being so paranoid I'm tired of feeling crazy I'm tired of holding onto things to make myself feel real again but them never working I just want to hug them all I want to hug my dad and I want to hug Aleks and I want to hug my brothers it all hurts so fucking bad because I don't think I'll be able to.. I won't be able to tell them all that I'm so sorry for my stupid fucking brain and tell them that I love them I miss everyone so god damn much I can't stop crying I just want my family to be okay but I don't want to lose this desperation I can't get that fucking song out of my head because it feels to personal and fitting to the situation but every time i think of it I break down again. I can't think of the last time I've felt like me.. It must have been almost 2 whole years ago please don't let that happen again I want to be back and I want to stay back I can't lose everyone like that again please.. If i can't tell you all how much I love you later I'm so so sorry I love you all so much.. So fucking much..]]
[center [size10 I just realized a fear of mine that's so strong that I feel like I'm going to cry and punch something just at the thought of it happening. I probably shouldn't feel this way but fuck I do. I'm fucked. It's probably unlikely that it would happen so I shouldn't worry... but what if????]]
[center [size10 Uhhhh kill me i'm the fucking worst someone end my life i hate speaking to people i always make a fool of myself ]]
[center [+purple [size17 ٲنَا بحِبَّك]
[center [size10 -S]]
[size10 I just think It's funny that people choose to believe the amnesiac when they have been "forgetting every thing that happens to them" for over a year. Yes. Trustworthy person that is. The person who stomped all over people and then came back and was like "WHY SO MEAN TO MEE????? I NEVER DID ANYTHING TO YOUU??"
I had to show someone what they did and they just said "oh wtf past me that wasn't nice yeah i was fucked up and hurt literally everyone around me lol " Then she tried to be buddy buddy after that like nothing happened. That's not someone I would trust 100% in all situations, just saying.
Just because you feel strongly about something, doesn't mean you are right. Ms. Breakdown is no exception to this.]
[center God I hate being so unstable and having everchanging triggers and things I can and can't handle.]
[center Nothing feels right without you. As an independant person, I hate that. But as a person who's so madly in love with you.. I love that.
Something so natural to me brought me to tears because you weren't there. I got hit by a wall of emotions and I could only think that nothing is ever going to be as good unless you are there with me.
How could you do this to me, you big meanie man. I love you though, so I guess I forgive you.
[size11 Tfw someone you dislike gets into a fandom that you have been in since you were literally 13 and you just wanna end SOMEBODY'S life regardless of who's it is. :)
But in good news me and bebe fianlly started our rp on here!!! I'm rly nervous about it tbh cause my roleplaying is rusty AF but I know he ain't judging. Fuck im obsessed with 2 things now GFDI]
[center [size8 Today's been.. a doozy. I hope everyone is okay in the end.]
[center [size8 [+white ..fuck.. nice real smooth me they prolly already know this white text is here hhhhh]]]
/ 1y 9d 23h 51m 54s
[center [size8 That's so fucking freaky honestly. It's like this show [b knows]]]
[h3 [center Vague stuff for no one to worry about]]
[center I'm the biggest hypocrite honestly,
What's wrong with me
[s [size10 Why cant I be normal??? [size8 aaaAAAA]]]
Fuck. So many feelings. So many unneeded and troublesome thoughts and feelings.
I wanna stop being such an edgy teen honestly.
No body has time to deal with my shit, not even myself.
I genuinely don't understand all of this
And I think I'm really testing everyone's patience and how much they are willing to put up with me talking about this stuff
It's really not that important and shouldn't be, in all honesty
I feel like laughing at myself so much rn but also crying
Because someone is laughing at me
[size10 *Trust no one not even yourself meme*]
Sry for rambles aaa
Wait this is my journal I can ramble if i want hhhuuuu]
[center I hate ES honestly wtf. I just like editing shit. If i had somewhere else to do it i would just ugghhhh fuuucckkn. Mmmenkpssnana]
[center Tfw someone you never talk to doesn't have you on their friends list and you are somehow upset about that??? Lol dude please fucking chill the world isn't about you omg]
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