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[center [font "Segoe Print" It's been thirteen years now, more than half my life ago that you left us. There isn't a day that goes by I don't think about you and miss you. Someday's are harder than others. Where the pain is so fresh it reminds me of the day you died. And others it's a tender pain that barely exists in my chest and I learn to live from you. I wonder if you'd be proud of me. I work a full time job, I graduated college. I grow closer to my sisters each day. Someday's it's hard but I get through it.]]

[center [font "Segoe Print" I'm getting my anxiety under control dad, I'm not going to let it scare me into staying home forever, like I know it did you. I miss you more than words though. I wish you were here so I could tell you all the things I've done. How I'm going to training for work, and feel your warm daddy hug. See how much we've grown and changed. To see how big your grandson's have gotten. Bailey and Eli are built just like you, you know. Broad shoulders, bubble booty. Bailey even has the pillow belly going on.]]

[center [font "Segoe Print" I still remember that day so vividly, it comes back to me more and more each year. I've come to the realization I don't know what it's like to have a dad as an adult, how those relationships work. I'm going to try to get into counseling because..honestly it could help. I just want you to know, I miss you daddy and I love you. I'm so proud of the man you were and everything you did for us kids. How you turned your life around and pushed us to do our best. I couldn't call a better man my father.]]

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  -PureImagination / 36d 13h 13m 36s
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[center [font "Segoe Print" The last several month's have been a bit of a roller coaster. Up's and downs with anxiety but slowly I'm learning how to control it better. I'm going to try to get myself into counseling once I can afford it. Something that will help me greatly in the long run I think. I just need to make a doctor's appointment and discuss with her the options as well as get the thing I've been avoiding done. Being a female really sucks sometimes and I'm not a fan of it.]]

[center [font "Segoe Print" I have to say my friends are pretty awesome and I would be utterly lost without them. I've never felt so much support and love as I have in the last few months. It's nice knowing someone always has your back no matter what and they ware willing to stick up for you. I've struggled a little with ex friends trying to rile me up and get me going, but with the support of my other friends I'm learning to let it go. I will not feel bad for my muses moving on. Their happiness is important to me. So you won't guilt trip me with sad muse journal posts like you tried a few weeks ago.]]

[center [font "Segoe Print" Life is good and I honestly can't complain. Been trying to help the girl at work since she's struggling with anxiety. Been trying to get together a DnD Group so we can all meet up and discuss what our next move is. I ordered a starter set and the players guide. Life is looking up and this year I'm going to push myself out of my comfort zone. Go to DnD meet ups. Make friends, try to actually go on dates instead of chickening out. For my mental health I'm going to. And I've amazing friends behind me to encourage me on.]]
  -PureImagination / 110d 13h 14m 49s
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[center [font "Segoe Print" I wish they would fucking figure something out with this. My sister can't keep living her life going to the hospital so they can shove the hernia back in and send her home. She does one tiny physical thing and it's back out again and back they go. This time though, it's different. She's vomiting, she can't move it hurts so bad, and they are saying that the surgeon doesn't have time today. Really? Well than you need to figure something out buster or send her to a different hospital where there is a surgeon who does have time.]]

[center [font "Segoe Print" I'm terrified something is going to happen to my sister because if that hernia strangulates her bowls could die. Which means she could die. I'm not ready to give her over to dad yet. She has five kids who need her, five kids. You people can't just keep tossing her around until it's to late because if you do you bet your asses I'm suing. I'm not going to be the only one my sister H will be there suing along with me. This is bullshit and I'm tired of the hospitals fucking games. Do something, it's your jobs people.]]

[center [font "Segoe Print" On top of that now we got to figure out what to do with the kids. I mean my nephews would be easy enough. On Monday, Wens, and Friday my brother could take them to school and pick them up because all he has is the one class. Tues & Thurs I could take them and go in late and stay late, mom could go in early and leave early to pick them up from school. The one residing problem is my niece. She's two so she doesn't have school to go to. Someone has to be able to stay with her during the day. So I may be taking Tuesday off to watch her. That or have H work from home and take Grace over there early on Tuesday morning.]]

[center [font "Segoe Print" I just wish this thing would figure out. I'm stressed, I'm tired, and I just want to scream. Gracie is sick and so is Bay. No one knows what the fuck is going on right now and I'm just drained. People figure your shit out or you ain't going to like me.]]

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  -PureImagination / 183d 14h 49m 22s
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[center [font "Segoe Print" Reflecting over the past year and a half a lot of things have changed. I've grown up a hell of a lot from what I was at that time. I'm not mean, I'm not snotty, I don't try to ruin peoples friendships. I'm encouraging them. Even if that person and I don't get along I encourage my friends to work it out and hope that their friendship lasts. I'm not a spoiled, snotty, selfish brat anymore. Sometimes I find myself wanting to but I stop myself, remind myself, and veer onto the right path once more.]]

[center [font "Segoe Print" When they say the people who surround you make the most difference, I have to agree with them. It's the truth, through and through. My friends now? They are angels sent from heaven to me by God it seems. They've encouraged me to be the best me that I can be. And got my to let down my walls with them and let them in. Let people see a vulnerable side of me. To understand that side is [i not] a failure. It started with Riley. She was the first person to show me what true friendship is and should be. She encouraged me, fought beside me, protected me. I owe a lot to her because she opened up my world.]]

[center [font "Segoe Print" Than the twins came along and Sapphire. They do the same thing. Encourage me, show me what it's like to be truly loved. More angel's have come into my life sense them. More have shown me that things will be alright in the end given time. No longer am I up at night in a ball on my floor crying because nothing seems or feels like it's going to be okay. I have the most wonderful people in my life and I couldn't be more grateful. Things are going to keep getting better, and I'm going to keep improving myself as a person. After all if your not learning you aren't growing. That's what mom always says.]]
  -Ohana / 238d 13h 40m 6s
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[center [font "Segoe Print" Oh what a tangled web we weave when those we love we do deceive. This hasn't been more right in a long time. This is the last entry I will write on this subject and than I won't write anymore. I caught you, Ciri & I made a pretty damn good team. I know the truth, I know who you are. It explains why you run away like a coward every single time. I'm pissed, beyond pissed, but I am going to move on from this because that's what I need to do. You where shady, a liar, and a pain in the ass. You didn't deserve the love and attention you always sought out. I wonder though, what made you do it?]]

[center [font "Segoe Print" At some point you were on here under your original name. So what made you decide to make up your persona? What drove you to pretend to be someone you are not? What did anyone do to you to deserve this shit? It wouldn't of been hard to tell me the truth but you didn't. You ran away from it like a little coward. Well guess what princess you are caught red handed. Here is a tip, when making a snap chat don't register it under your real name to a phone number you gave people. It's a huge red flag you are lying. I looked you up in white pages, I know who you are. I know your real name.]]

[center [font "Segoe Print" The address is one I've sent things to before. With a name like that it's not hard to figure out that 2+2=4. Your life events match up perfectly with who I found and so do your obsessions. But this is it, this is my closure. I can move on with my life. My muses can move on with their lives. They don't have to hurt and suffer because of your lying ass anymore. I'm done. I'm over you. Don't ever try to contact me again because guess what cat-fish, you've been caught. I dont' want to hear your lies and excuses, not at this point. Good to know your BF doesn't exist. At least it's not who you claim it is. So goodbye, farewell, fuck you, I hope karma bites you. This is my last song, my last word, my last breath on you.]]

"Everybody's Fool"

Perfect by nature.
Icons of self-indulgence.
Just what we all need,
More lies about a world that...

...never was and never will be.
Have you no shame? Don't you see me?
You know you've got everybody fooled.

Look, here she comes now.
Bow down and stare in wonder.
Oh, how we love you.
No flaws when you're pretending.

But now I know she...

...never was and never will be.
You don't know how you've betrayed me.
And somehow you've got everybody fooled.

Without the mask, where will you hide?
Can't find yourself lost in your lie.

I know the truth now,
I know who you are,
And I don't love you anymore.

It never was and never will be.
You don't know how you've betrayed me.
And somehow you've got everybody fooled.

never was and never will be.
You're not real and you can't save me.
Somehow now you're everybody's fool.
  / -Ohana / 272d 10h 57m 59s
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[center [font "Segoe Print" I don't normally post stuff like this but Jesus I have to get this off my chest. I can not believe how badly you [i lie] about everything and expect people to just love you. Well you know what? I know the truth now. I know who you are and I don't love you anymore. You tried to act like the perfect prince when in reality you were lying to each and every person. I tried rationalizing why you might of told us you were a man when you aren't but nothing works out. Not with the shit you talked and the way you treated people.]]

[center [font "Segoe Print" You played us like a game using your boyfriend as a cover up. So that when he went off on us you could pretend to be so sorry about it. It's all a bunch of fucking bullshit. I'm hurt, others are hurt, and what for? Because you fucking wanted to be mr. perfect? I know that you are not who you say you are. I've caught you cat-fish and the fact that when I confronted you and asked for an answer you deleted my pm tells me everything that I want to know. You are lying, you are hiding something. If you weren't you'd jump on the chance to tell me that I'm wrong. That it's not what I think, I must be mistaken.]]

[center [font "Segoe Print" But once again you delete the evidence ignore a person and hide. Just like every other fucking time. I'm not going to block you though. No you don't hold that much power over me. You are out of my life and this is my closure. I can move on and be happy. My MUSES can move on and be happy. Despite everything that you fucking did. So piss off. Don't try talking to me again because you will be ignored. If I was your best friend you wouldn't treat me the way you do. I deserve better. So does everyone else that was in our friendgroup. So goodbye, farewell, fuck you, live your life and I hope karma finds you.]]

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  -Ohana / 277d 12h 31m 53s
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[center [font "Segoe Print" Things are finally starting to look up for me around here. I've got some friends that I wouldn't trade for the world, my job is going wonderfully, and I couldn't ask for more. So much has happened good that I can't contain myself it seems. Firstly I've been hired on full time with benefits and a raise. I'm so excited for that because now I don't have to stress to terribly much about the twins coming out for vacation! It'll be okay because my vacation is paid for so I won't have to squander money.]]

[center [font "Segoe Print" Which leads to the second exciting thing! THE TWINS WILL BE HERE IN A MONTH FROM TODAY! It's horrifyingly exciting. Makes me nervous, because I'm afraid something will go wrong, but excited because it will be here soon! I think I saw the hotel we will be staying in, it's a bit a ways but it'll be okay. It's not terribly to far out. I've got the adventureland tickets, mom should have the fair tickets, it's all going to work out! I can NOT wait. It's going to be a blast.]]

[center [font "Segoe Print" Than next year in September I FINALLY get to meet Riley in person! Oh god am I so excited for that! Not only that but it will also be paid for! Which means I can enjoy myself. I'll set aside money and be ready to go. Baby-K will be a year and like four months old by than so hopefully he'll interact more. God it will be so much fun to just hang out and do stuff together. Not to mention Kylie isn't moving away for a few years so I can still see her without to much travel. Everything is working out!]]

[center [font "Segoe Print" My muses are super duper happy lately too. Glad to be living their lives happily. One of my oldest came back today. He left when I was a teenager and returned. I am beyond happy about that. I've got so much to be happy about and live for it's wonderful. I'm advancing in final fantasy fourteen and it's so much fun. Though sometimes memories do sting me, and make me miss the old days. Things now are really awesome. I hope life just keeps getting better and better.]]
  -Ohana / 293d 11h 46m 5s
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[center [font "Segoe Print" Well I got made full time at work! It's such an exciting thing. I'm so glad that it finally happened. It means I can take time off! I can enjoy vacation time! If I'm sick my time will be paid! No fear of figuring bills! My vacation may be paid for when the twins visit which is so exciting! I can't wait until they are here to visit. <3 It's strange to think that it's only two months away. We got our fair and our a-land tickets. May be going to the Omaha Zoo. Lot's to do and so little time!]]

[center [font "Segoe Print" Riley is going to visit next year. She's just staying with me though so it will be a little cheaper. I may try to help out with her plane ticket since there is no hotel fee, if she will let me. It's exciting and thrilling all at once! So many people to meet, so many faces to see! Two of my friends have had babies recently and both are equally adorable! I love babies! Though I'm waiting to have some of my own until I'm married or in a serious relationship with someone.]]

[center [font "Segoe Print" Everything is going good but I'm anxious. I'm going to be taking on a lot of new job responsibilities with my being made full time. JL and JK explain it really well but I'm not entirely sure how G & my sister training me will go. I guess we will find out. I'm nervous I won't have as much time to talk anymore but I think I'll be alright. I won't loose my best friends, we won't drift apart. I just gotta remind myself of that. Instead of what's happening with someone else. Before you assume who it is, please ask me fyi for my lovely stalkers.]]

[center [font "Segoe Print" Life is looking up and I just need to roll with it. To relax and trust that everything is going to work out alright in the end. Despite how scared I am things will be okay. They will always be okay. I'm getting more mentally healthy, going swimming to help with my depression. Camping to enjoy the time outdoors. It will be okay, everything will be okay. Just not looking forward to dealing with fathers day. :/]]
  -Ohana / 316d 12h 24m 16s
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[center [font "Segoe Print" It's raining so hard today and all I want to do is lay down and go to sleep for like, several hours. Though that might also have to do with my depression making a grand return. I was doing so good for awhile and now it's back. I'm sure I'll get through it, I always do. I've got an amazing support system to help me trudge through this and get to the other-side of it all. I guess it's just the time of year that's dragging me down, among other things in my life.]]

[center [font "Segoe Print" I'm finally an Aunt again. I was so excited but I didn't expect it to suck so much that I couldn't be there. I wanted to so badly too but money just wasn't going to fall right for that to happen. Oh well I'll get to meet him next year along with his mommy. Now that I am stoked about. After Christmas I'm going to start saving up as much as I can so that I have plenty of spending money when she comes out here. I'll have to find out early in the year when it is so I can take some time off.]]

[center [font "Segoe Print" And in August the twins are going to be here to see me. I'm so freaking excited you have no idea. I've got their tickets for Adventureland already. Now all I gotta do is get Fair tickets for when they come out and the rest of the money for the hotel together. I think we are going to have a blast, or at least I am hoping that we are going to have a blast. Fingers crossed that it turns out really well for us in the end. Just gotta keep trudging forward until it's time. <3]]
  / -Ohana / 349d 13h 48m 0s
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[center [font "Segoe Print" It's cold as all crapping hell outside, been raining for like three days maybe four. But I can't complain to much, it's been nice to listen to when I go to sleep at night. Got a new game yesterday, Persona 5. Than spent all day playing it. It's been a long time since I've benged on a game like that to the point my head is spinning around a little bit. It's just so fun and addicting though. Suck's you right into the game, unlike the fourth one does. THe four one start's out so freaking slow you can't see straight.]]

[center [font "Segoe Print" Keep waiting for baby-K to make his appearance. He seems to be taking his time about it though but who knows. He could surprise us and come tomorrow like I think he's going to. He could wait, he could come today. It's all a waiting game at this point but that's okay. Like I keep telling Riley, he'll be worth it when he gets here. Hopefully I'll be able to skype her when he's here afterwards in the hospital. If my family and my brothers dog don't make it almost impossible.]]

[center [font "Segoe Print" Going to my sisters this weekend to watch her five kids with my mom and possibly my brother. Gonna take them to A-Land on Saturday. It's going to be warm and mostly sunny so hopefully we will have a good time. Aunt Megan just can't forget sunblock. Unlike the little tikes, I do not tan. I burn. Life's good so far and I really can't complain about it. Just excited for it to get to August already so the twins can already be here and I can get those booties for baby-K that I'm dying to get him. <3]]
  -Ohana / 358d 12h 45m 13s
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[center [font "Segoe Print" I'm so grateful for the friends I have. They mean more than the world to me. They listen to me talk about life, mostly what's going on at home or work, and reassure me. Thing's have been hard lately, we found out my grandfather has dangerous skin cancer on his face. Luckily they are able to do a procedure to remove it and hopefully it stays gone. I don't know what I'll do if I loose grandpa. He's the only one whose been around for awhile. The only one I've ever really known as Grandpa D died when I was seven.]]

[center [font "Segoe Print" Otherwise I just wish my cat would let me sleep. It's like four thirty every morning she's in my face meowing. I give her food and water before bed. She has it when I wake up to her meowing so I really don't know what her deal is. Other than since we got the puppy she just wants to play all the time. So if the puppy is in my brothers room, she get's all mad and wants out. I'm going to have to get a dog just simply for my freaking cat. I mean don't get me wrong, I want a dog but for me not because my cat hates other cats and is attached to my brothers red heeler puppy.]]

[center [font "Segoe Print" Weird to think any day now I could be meeting Baby K. He's due on the second of May but who knows. I'm excited and nervous all at the same time. Excited he'll be here, nervous because my anxiety makes me worry. I just want everything to be okay. I mean I'm sure it will be, I'm probably just being silly. I can't wait to actually meet him next year. I wish I could go out there for his birth but sadly I can't. Being the newest one at work means not enough time off to do it. Plus I'm broke as a joke being just graduated from college. But next year! That's when we begin our yearly visit traditions, or so we hope to.]]

[center [font "Segoe Print" Life is good, things are good. I'm happy, my muses are happy. Riley is happy, the twins are happy. It's a nice feeling. I'm taking leaps and bounds at work, and I love my job. I'm building relationships with my sisters which is nice. The twins are going to look into four year schools here so maybe they will move out. I'm hoping they will anyways. Ani wants to move out here, which will rock. Life's moving forward in a good way and I need to keep moving with it. It's nice to look at myself and see how much I've changed in just over a year. I've grown up quiet a bit and I'm going to keep growing.]]
  -Ohana / 1y 4d 14h 49m 8s
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[center [font "Segoe Print" Life is good right now and I'm slowly coming out of the seasonal depression. It's nice to have friends who I can turn to when things are not good. To know they aren't going anywhere despite how bad my mental state gets and they cheer me on as it get's better. It is honestly one of the best feelings in the world and I love it. I love knowing I have people who have my back all the time. Even if they are thousands of miles away from me. I just keep trying to think of the good things. I'll be an auntie again in May when baby-K comes. The twins are coming out in August and it's going to be a blast. Riley is visiting next september and we will have an awesome time. I just gotta keep focused on the positives.]]

[center [font "Segoe Print" My cousin is moving up in August, or he's supposed to be. My brother, cousin and I are going to start a DND group for people ages like 21-32 or so. So that he can make friends here in Iowa and my brother and I can make a few more friends ourselves here in town. It'll help too because if I already have friends in town when the twins move out than I can introduce them. Plus I think it'd be fun to do a DND night once a week. I miss playing that game with my cousins.]]

[center [font "Segoe Print" Things are going good at work, I was given a login finally for product we sell. I guess thing's are being shifted around? J made the comment that I'll likely start getting the residential orders from here on out. Especially when things get busy. I think R put his foot down with them. He made a comment at the Woodford dinner and now suddenly all of this is happening. So I think he decided to give me more permenate jobs and take away some of J's as she doesn't always do the best at it. It's a nice feeling though.]]

[center [font "Segoe Print" On top of that muses have become active as all shit. Just trying to get them back on is a shit show. I lost three families though, and that's my own fault. I don't blame them for leaving, especially when staying here was to hard. I just hope someday they will return to me. It's just a matter now of getting them to hush long enough not to drive me up a wall. My office is to small for the number that follow me to work sometimes. @.@]]
  -Ohana / 1y 12d 13h 41m 40s
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[center [font "Segoe Print" [i Weather man said it's gonna snow. By now I should be used to the cold. Mid-February shouldn't be so scary, It was only December I still remember the presents, the tree, you and me. But you went away, how dare you!? I miss you. They say I'll be okay, but I'm not going to..ever get over you.]]]

[center [font "Segoe Print" It's hard to believe it's been a year since you where taken from us Aunt Jeanne. And it still breaks my heart every single day. It still doesn't seem real, like some sort of nightmare I'm going to wake up from. Except, I know it's not. I'm not waking up from this nightmare. Just like I will never wake up to my daddy alive again. That's what makes this so hard, I want him to comfort me but your with him now. Probably causing to many jokes and pranks just for the hell of it. Getting your own personal show from Prince. Doesn't make me stop missing you though.]]

[center [font "SEgoe Print" I miss your smile and your laugh, the way you would bear hug the shit out of me every time you saw me. How you would make me feel so special and loved teasing the crap out of me. Like when you gave that waiter my email and he was older than me. God I was so embarrassed. Or how you would ask us to keep an eye on Drewzer while he was in college up here. The pranks you played on B where always hilarious and you always had an opinion on everything. You lite this world up in ways that you could never imagine and you were like a second mom to me in a way.]]

[center [font "Segoe Print" I guess though you just had to have the best seat in the whole house for my college graduation. Had to be there with my daddy right up close and personal to see it all huh? Make sure he didn't cry to hard when his baby walked down to get her diploma. The one thing he always wanted for me in life was to go to college and I did it. God I miss you both, and I love you more than words can say. I'll try not to cry to much, I know you wouldn't want me to. I just miss you. </3]]

It's perfect outside its like god let me dial up the weather
Got the whole crew here, I ain't seen some of them in forever
It's one of those never forget it, better stop and take it in kinda scenes
Everything's just right yeah except for one thing

You should be here, standing with your arm around me here
Cutting up, cracking a cold beer
Saying cheers, hey y'all it's sure been a good year
It's one of those moments, that's got your name written all over it
And you know that if I had just one wish it'd
Be that you didn't have to miss this
You should be here

You'd be taking way too many pictures on your phone
Showing them off to everybody that you know back home
And even some you don't yeah
They say now you're in a better place
And I would be too if I could see your face

You should be here, standing with your arm around me here
Cutting up, cracking a cold beer
Saying cheers, hey y'all it's sure been a good year
It's one of those moments, that's got your name written all over it
And you know that if I had just one wish
It'd be that you didn't have to miss this
Aw you should be here

You'd be loving this, you'd be freaking out, you'd be smiling, yeah
I know you'd be all about what's going on right here right now
God I wish somehow you could be here

Oh you should be here

Yeah this is one of those moments that's got your name written all over it
And you know that if I have just one wish it'd be that you didn't have to miss this
Aw you should be here
You should be here
  -Ohana / 1y 17d 15h 32m 16s
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[center [font "Segoe Print" This week has been insane with things to do and people to see. Phone calls and orders. I'm glad for it, in a strange way. It distracts me from thinking to much about what Friday is. God it seems like yesterday that it happened. Still breaks my heart to and makes me want cry. God why did you have to take her? I don't think anyone was ready for it. No one, not a single person was prepared. I was doing okay until that song came on the radio. "You Should Be Here." I listened to it all the way down to Kentucky last year when..when she died.]]

[center [font "Segoe Print" My biggest worry had been a test you know? I thought I'd failed it and I was so mad she put the wrong study guide up. Wondering to myself if I was even going to graduate because I totally bombed that fucking test.I got back to my room to see that my sister A had called me. I figured it was baby stuff, she was trying to adopt my niece at the time. So I called her back. No answer. Than my brother calls me and I was not prepared for what he had to say. "Megan she's dead. She died. It was a car accident."]]

[center [font "Segoe Print" I thought maybe he was talking about my other aunt who'd been on a downhill spiral. I just remember asking him who and than thinking he was joking. I have never cried so hard in my life before that day. Sobbing and shaking to the point my sister was concerned for me. It was a blur and a nightmare. She was my aunt, my second mom, the person I knew I could be myself around without judgement. And suddenly she was just ripped away from me. I fell into depression I didn't want to talk, to eat, to move, to do anything. I just wanted to curl up in a ball and simply not exist.]]

[center [font "Segoe Print" I didn't mean to shun people like I did. To make them feel ignored. B had to force me to get up and go to class because I just didn't want to. I didn't want to talk to anyone, to do anything. I was sure I was not going to graduate college. My roommate was in a downward spiral, it was just an awful time. So weird to see where my life has gone from then to now too. How much has changed and how much I've learned and grown as a person. I'm just ready for this month to be over with.]]
  -Ohana / 1y 19d 12h 6m 1s
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[center [font "Segoe Print" I feel really good today, almost on top of the world. The dinner went wonderfully last night and nothing felt so good as hearing R say that as I learn more I'll put names with faces. Heidi told me they've talked seriously about bringing me on full time. It makes me happy, and I hope that it happens. I hope I become full time because I love this job with all of my heart. While there are annoyed times there are times that it makes me feel loved and special.]]

[center [font "Segoe Print" Today Fales told me that I should go work with the shop guys. I jokingly said it was because I'm short and can fit into basins. He looked at me, seriously, and tells me it's because I'm smart, learn fast and he can make me a lot of money. Kinda shocked me to be honest. I've been told that before, especially working Adventureland. But I didn't realize others could see it. Though that explains why S & R are testing me so much. Maybe they see it to and maybe that's why G feels so intimidated by letting me come on full time. She's afraid I'll do better than J and J will lose her job.]]

[center [font "Segoe Print" Politics of work aside, I also tied up loose ends with people. While we may not be friends and may never be, it feels good to get that off my chest. To get that air cleared between us. I'm learning and growing more and more everyday. I'm proud of who I've become and grateful to try harder to become better. I'm not giving up on becoming the best person I can be and I've got wonderful friends to help me along the way. Friends who mean the world to me. So if you are reading this guys, I love you more than the world. You are wonderful and beautiful and don't you forget it.]]

[center [font "Segoe Print" You prove to me that it's okay to trust people. Something I'd forgotten after what happened my freshman year of college. The games that my ex roommate would play to turn people on one another. When I think back, I realize when my trust issues started. Not from my dad dying but what Maddison did to me after he died. Prank calling me and turning on me. Taunting me into teasing her when I didn't want to. Than attacking me. I lost both my best friends at that point and I never felt more alone. I hid myself in an imaginary world because I was so scared. I didn't really make friends again until seventh grade of Middle School.]]

[center [font "Segoe Print" Than the games through out middle and high-school of odd man out. Those nightmares and headaches. Than finding out what I did my freshman year on top of the games. I was unhealthy and in a world of negativity. Now? I feel so free and happy. My life is moving forward and I'm learning to live and trust again. Learning to build healthy relationships and be honest with one another. It's a freeing feeling to not talk shit anymore, to not play games, to not cause drama or be involved in it. I'm happy and I'm grateful.]]

[center [font "Segoe Print" I've mended broken bridges that needed to be mended and apologized to people I needed to apologize to. Now to continue working for a brighter future. Not only for myself but for my nephews, all seven of them including Baby-K. I want to give them a good influence to follow. No more pettiness, no more drama, no more shit talking, no more muse thieving, none of it. All of this stuff I've stopped and I'm going to stick to it. Going to keep with it even if it's really hard.]]

[center [font "Segoe Print" Song from "Moana" but lyrics changed by me. I love this song. [i I know a girl from an Iowa, She stands apart from the crowd. She loves her writing and her people. She makes her whole family proud. Sometimes the world seems against you. The journey may leave a scar. But scars can heal and reveal just, where you are. The people you love will change you, the things you have learned will guide you, and nothing on earth can silence the quiet voice still inside you. And when that voice starts to whisper Megan, you've come so far, Megan, listen do you know who you are?]]]

[center [font "Segoe Print" [i Who am I? I am a girl who loves my writing, I'm the girl who loves my friends. They call me! I am the daughter of a single mother. We are descended from survivors. Who found their way in this world, They call me! I've delivered me to where I am. I have journeyed farther, I am everything I've learned and more, Still they calls me! And the call isn't out there at all, it's inside me. It's like the tide; always falling and rising I will carry you here in my heart you'll remind me. That come what may I know the way I am Megan!]]]
  -Ohana / 1y 24d 13h 40m 47s

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