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It's times like these where I wish I could talk to the two people closest to me because I honestly need their input so badly right now
These thoughts are tearing me apart, am I thinking this way just cause I've been depressed and out of it all day or am I actually thinking this way because its what I really want deep down
I'm so lost and I just can't do this by myself
I hate telling people straight up that I'm depressed because of past issues so I've been dropping alot of hints to him but all he's been doing all day is play his damn game...
Are these thoughts what I really want..? Am I just going through certain emotions because I feel like I have to, that its just life..?
I need my best friends so badly, but maybe its for the best I'm not as attached to them? Idk...
I’ve been really depressed all day
I shouldn’t be though, I have plenty to be happy about
Don’t really have anyone to talk to, I’d try making new friends but the thought of it seems like a big pain..
Maybe sleep will help
I’ve been sick for days kms
Ugh, this baby is kicking my ass
I hope its a girl, i want a daughter so bad but I'll still love it the same if its a boy
I can't wait to move in to our new place, sure its not ideal but its a great start
I'm saving all that i can, currently i have about $2300 which is good for a start, We're gonna need alot more though
Holy fucking shit
I can't do this anymore
She makes me wanna kill myself
Oh you are the best
The fucking best, I swear
I didn't know what it was like to want to be with someone so much
The last one didn't count, still doesn't count
Despite all that pain I'm so glad it happened because who knows where you and I would be if it hadn't, who we would be with
We both have some heavy baggage but I'm gonna make you realize fully that I'm here and I'm not leaving
Hell, we've already talked about certain stuff and there's no way I'd wanna leave anyway
I'm so glad I found you, finally
I feel so sick
I can barely handle this, why does it have to be this way
Why can't I just be a normal person for once
I feel like I'm dying
This is the worst I've felt in a long time
My chest hurts, I can feel myself numbing, I'm pretty sure I'm having an episode on top of a panic attack and it's the worst
I'm so worried, I want him to be okay, he needs to be okay..I can't loose my best friend, my family
I feel so out of the loop
It kinda feels really bad..
Holy fuck he's amazing
Im going to see him again today and I'm so excited
Yesterday I met his dad and step mom and I was really nervous at first but they were both really nice, I hope I made a good first impression
Cody said they liked me though so I was happy about that
I can't wait until next week, I really can't I'm so impatient
Holy fuck dude
After months of hurting and wanting to find someone special...I finally found him
Last night was just amazing, he's amazing..and he's mine now
I didn't want him to leave and he didn't either, I'm really hoping I can see him again today
This is actually happening, totally not what I'm used to but very very welcome
We're like the same person and everything
We haven't even been on a 2nd date yet and already he's so willing to meet my family just so we can hang out more, amazing
I've been having that familiar feeling all day today
I missed this
This is different
This might actually be a thing that's happening
Holy shit, it's about time?
Life has a funny way of bringing people back together, that never would have expected to talk again
I would be lying if I denied the bitterness I've kept inside, towards you for leaving
Then again, I don't blame you. You needed to hide, for reasons I'll never fully understand but I will accept
Talking to you last night was different, you told me everything I wanted to know and how you were sorry
I didn't want to forgive you but I could hear how sincere and upset you were that you let me think you were gone
Unnamed and off the grid, you risked a lot to get in contact and for that I am grateful
You asked me if I'd go to our meeting place
But if I see you, it will be dangerous and nothing else will matter after
Close it off again
Do you just not get it?
No one likes you around cause the only thing that comes out of your fucking mouth these days is negativity
The very first thing that comes out is bitching and complaining about something
There's no "hi" "how are you" "are you feeling okay"
Tonight have been terrible for me and just had to push me over the fucking edge. I need to cry so badly but years of suppressing it just gives me a pain in my throat
Guess what I'm gonna do now?
You don't know cause you're off to find something else to fucking complain about
I'm fucking done
Just let me sleep
I've been so tired
I need to rest
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