[size10 Lately I've been thinking about what you said to me.
The one thing that stings..
That honestly, you were so happy after our breakup..
It truly opened my eyes and it has been on my mind since.
And you knew why. It's cause you had your new friends.
Hanging out with them, I can see that you enjoy them very much..
I can see why, they're fun people.
I know I can't compare like that, so I just accepted it after what you told me.
Today, you told me you were social today in class.
It actually made me happy for you.. because, well, it is something you wanted. And everyone deserves as much friends as they like.
But it did make me realize.. as long as you have friends..
I'm not needed. I don't think I'd be wanted either.
Thinking about it stings.. but..
I know you're in that happy place again and.. your happiness matters the most.
So.. I'm just going to step back and let it all happen..
This way I'm not causing you pain anymore..
I'll be happy for you too..
Should you decide to distance away from me..
I'll just accept that too..]
This time, I'm going to try really fucking hard.
No love is worth this much pain.. when it's unrequited and one sided.
Once I get over this.. I swear, no more long term relationships.
I want relationships where I can lose somebody romantically and we can kick it as friends right away..
My heart is guarded.