[size10 I sometimes wonder how life would've been if you were here.
I think maybe life would be a little less lonely.
We might've been inseparable. Of course I love our older sis, and I know we'd be just as close. But it'd be nice to have had my twin by my side.
Maybe I'd be able to get through certain things easier.
Imagine attending school together, being in the same class.
Going through things together. I’d have a best friend who was right beside my crib.. how cool is that?
I can just imagine the times we would have together.
I really wish I got to live a life with you.
Maybe I will join you when it's my time and we'd get to meet..
But by now you'd be long gone with another family.
I just hope you're living a happy life and you're the healthiest as can be.
All I can do now is live for us both..
I'm not doing so great.. but I'm gonna try and motivate myself because you deserve that much, and so much more.]
[size10 Lately I've been thinking about what you said to me.
The one thing that stings..
That honestly, you were so happy after our breakup..
It truly opened my eyes and it has been on my mind since.
And you knew why. It's cause you had your new friends.
Hanging out with them, I can see that you enjoy them very much..
I can see why, they're fun people.
I know I can't compare like that, so I just accepted it after what you told me.
Today, you told me you were social today in class.
It actually made me happy for you.. because, well, it is something you wanted. And everyone deserves as much friends as they like.
But it did make me realize.. as long as you have friends..
I'm not needed. I don't think I'd be wanted either.
Thinking about it stings.. but..
I know you're in that happy place again and.. your happiness matters the most.
So.. I'm just going to step back and let it all happen..
This way I'm not causing you pain anymore..
I'll be happy for you too..
Should you decide to distance away from me..
I'll just accept that too..]