☆ ᴛʜᴏᴜɢʜᴛs ᴏғ ᴀ ғɪᴇɴᴅ ☆

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[Center ᴀʀᴇ ʏᴏᴜ sᴇɴsɪᴛɪᴠᴇ? ᴇᴀsɪʟʏ sᴡᴀʏᴇᴅ ʙʏ ᴛʜᴇ ᴏᴘɪɴɪᴏɴs ᴏғ ᴏᴛʜᴇʀs? ᴄᴀɴ'ᴛ ʜᴀɴᴅʟᴇ ᴄʀᴜᴅᴇ ʟᴀɴɢᴜᴀɢᴇ? ᴘᴇʀʜᴀᴘs ᴛʜɪs ɪsɴ'ᴛ ғᴏʀ ʏᴏᴜ.

ᴛʜᴇ ᴘɪᴇᴄᴇs ʜᴇʀᴇ ᴡᴏɴ'ᴛ ᴍᴀᴋᴇ sᴇɴsᴇ ᴛᴏ ʏᴏᴜ ᴀɴʏᴡᴀʏ.

ɪᴛ's ʙᴇsᴛ ʏᴏᴜ ʟᴇᴀᴠᴇ.

ʙᴜᴛ ɪғ ʏᴏᴜ ʟɪᴋᴇ ᴅɪᴠɪɴɢ ɪɴᴛᴏ ᴛʜᴇ ᴇʏᴇs ᴏғ sᴏᴍᴇᴏɴᴇ ᴇʟsᴇ ғᴏʀ ᴏɴᴄᴇ, ғᴇᴇʟ ғʀᴇᴇ ᴛᴏ sᴛᴀʏ.

ɪ ᴅᴏɴ'ᴛ ᴛᴀᴋᴇ ʜᴇᴄᴋʟᴇʀs. ʏᴏᴜ'ʀᴇ ʜᴇʀᴇ ᴛᴏ ʟɪsᴛᴇɴ.
ɪ'ᴍ ʜᴇʀᴇ ᴛᴏ ʀᴇғʟᴇᴄᴛ.
sᴏ ᴇɴᴊᴏʏ ᴛʜᴇ sʜʀᴇᴅs ᴏғ ᴍʏ ʟɪғᴇ ɪ ғᴇᴇʟ ɴᴇᴇᴅ ᴛᴏ ʙᴇ ᴘᴜᴛ ᴅᴏᴡɴ.


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Roleplay Responses

Love and hate are two sides of the same coin, huh?

Doesn’t make sense to me.

I don’t hate people I’ve loved.

Even Travis, that raggedy bitch. Hate is a strong word. Yes, he manipulated the fuck out of me. Yes, he used me and wore me down until he got his way. But I don’t hate him.

Yes, I loved him. But now? I just don’t like the dude. It took me three years to finally see who he was. Technically two, but he forced me to stay.

I don’t love my abusers.
I did try to make excuses for them. Like I did with my ex friends. I made excuses. It takes me a year to assess if someone is worth my time romantically. Friendship wise it goes under my nose until years later.

That’s some shit.
Wish my intuition worked faster than that. C’mon Pisces.
  ʟᴀɢᴇʀᴛʜᴀ / Indefinite / 17h 10m 15s
That’s the thing about wanting to meet people. I want to talk to them. I want to be their friend. But I always let things stop me. I know I shouldn’t.

I’m just sorry I couldn’t be closer to you. I wish I could have been your friend.

I can’t imagine the hurt your loved ones are going through. But I hurt for them. And I hurt only knowing of you.
  ʟᴏᴠᴇ / Indefinite / 1d 19h 39m 23s
I normally live off of cursed shit but this was so cursed I am physically ill

pls have mercy end my life

when the world needed Jesus the most he fuckin vanished

pls come back ion even believe in god but we need you to come pick up ya white homies sticking butter sticks up their asses
  ʟᴏᴠᴇ / Indefinite / 4d 16h 48m 24s
Kinda dumb I don’t know the drama going around with Claire anymore LOL

I mean she was a literal garbage bag who was desperate for attention

I probably wouldn’t have heard the end of it about the other one either if I kept in touch/lurked lmao

At least when I was friends with [i them] things were always interesting. Never bored.

Like I am the past few days.
  ʟᴏᴠᴇ / Indefinite / 5d 18h 27m 15s
I had a nightmare.

It was a wonderful dream.
I was at a beautiful dock, with a summer house in the middle of it. There were gators everywhere. We were fishing for them. We would let them go afterwards. I befriended my Senior Chief’s superior. We were all having fun. In these boats, fighting off gators. Enjoying the sun. And we were even given baby animals to nurture. I got a duck. With beautiful wmwhite feathers. I think I was iceborne another bird with colorful ones. Our group has quite a few and I lived them all. They were all orphans and we were all a family.

And then the superior officer said that he hopes I understand what they’re doing. I didn’t quite catch what else he said, but I told him I’m sure he knew what was for the best for them.

He said, “well-“ and I couldn’t catch the rest of the sentence. Our babies had a cage enclosed around them, and the cage was thrown in the water. For them to drown.
  ʟᴏᴠᴇ / Indefinite / 6d 7h 11m 20s
I’m not okay today. Something just wasn’t right.

I drew on myself hoping that since I’m not a traditional “witch” that these “spells” could help me.

I don’t think getting off my meds will help. I don’t think therapy will help. I don’t know why I get depressed. And people who say “you’re not giving yourself a chance if you don’t eat right and exercise” can fuckin bite me. Shits dangerous out here to be doing any exercising. And good food is expensive and has a short life.

Just want this all to go away.
  ʟᴏᴠᴇ / Indefinite / 6d 12h 56m 39s
I had a dream about him.... her? Idk what their pronouns are...

I miss them.

It’s gotten easier after all these years to not be so bummed but

It still comes and goes

It’ll be the same for them too, unfortunately

I wish I knew how to let things go
  ʟᴏᴠᴇ / Indefinite / 14d 6h 27m 1s
Our offer got accepted
We gonna be grown ups
With a house and shit
With a yard and fuckin

A basement
Wild man

A house

Jamjam finally gets that upgrade I’ve been dreaming of

I can lay on the floor that is carpet

This is amazing
The house is beautiful
And 1800 ft

The neighborhood is so cute too

I hope the inspection comes through with flying colors
  ʟᴏᴠᴇ / Indefinite / 16d 10h 26m 12s
As much as I hate being reminded about travis lately that’s all I’ve been thinking of

And I know it’s because my brain would rather be defensive and to prevent Travis from ever happening again. But it still makes me feel so gross.

I can’t help but remember what a fuckin piece of shit he is and being thankful I am where I am now. The only problem is when I remember it brings that headspace back. The feelings, the fear, the anger, self hatred, disgust.... all the ugly emotions that I’d rather die than to have again.

He still haunts my dreams, he still makes my stomach turn, he still holds the trauma over me. I know it doesn’t make it right by saying I wasn’t great either. But I definitely know I turned so ferocious because of how he controlled me. So it wasn’t like I was innocent either. Doesn’t change what he has done to me.

And I’m sure what I’ve done to him hasn’t affected him as severely as his actions have on me.
  ʟᴏᴠᴇ / Indefinite / 16d 22h 39m 32s
Ever feel like you are señor fuck up that can’t do anything goddamn right

Because hi
It’s me
Just gonna drink some Tabasco straight that usually calms my goddamn suicidal thoughts lmao

I guess it’s how I repent for my damned sins of having the audacity to be alive lol
  ʟᴏᴠᴇ / Indefinite / 18d 14h 44m 36s
bruh i'm all on board with saki and tohru getting married

saki's love for tohru is absolutely adorable and these boys cant compete at this point because you cant even acknowledge his feelings and Yuki just too damaged to be able to marry her

y no one else ship dis
  ʟᴏᴠᴇ / Indefinite / 19d 21h 54m 36s
I feel disgusted with this sitting on me today.

Mainly because it reminds me of when I ignored when Travis literally slept with a minor and I chose to ignore it knowing well I couldn’t forget it. I try to tell myself it’s because he wouldn’t let me leave him. Which is true. He wouldn’t. He physically wouldn’t let me pack. He threatened his life. I was trapped. But I still feel guilty about it.

I feel sick for enabling it.

I always feel sick knowing I dated two guys who willingly would have sexual relations with minors.

I want someone to make me feel better, but I feel like what I need to do is repent.
  ʟᴏᴠᴇ / Indefinite / 22d 14h 20m 13s
It sucks that cryaotic was what got me into creepy pastas. It sucks that so many people who have trauma used him as an escape and now are triggered by him.

Well I’d say it was nice but you shitted on all of it and it only seemed to be so you could save face before you could be exposed.
  ʟᴏᴠᴇ / Indefinite / 22d 19h 38m 50s
bruh i finished bakarina and domekano fucking what do now

my life is incomplete and I'm now suffering the "lol back to the real world this fumking sucks" feels

i loved that feeling after leaving the movie theaters and tbh its nice tog et that feeling even with the pandemic going on

domekano made me want to try writing again and practicing my Japanese but

das work LOL
  ʟᴏᴠᴇ / Indefinite / 22d 22h 54m 2s
Bro everything I touch is muthafukin cursed .-.

Frank fucking jumped out of the tank even when the lid was on
And died
How tf do I just have this bad of luck

This city’s water is fucking cursed too u.u
  ʟᴏᴠᴇ / Indefinite / 24d 12h 31m 25s

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