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[i [center Star born child, you were meant to write and so you shall.


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[center [size10 [#7B77A5 For someone that claimed I'd forgotten and given up on her, she sure likes to give up on me often...
  >>Ich bin da<< / Mercy_ / 5d 18h 32m 1s
[center [size10 [#7B77A5 Being so close to the ground in matters like these, it came to my attention first with the training of mariners and soldiers for amphibious landings after the North Korea scare but now the crisis in Europe. The eruption of political change in Spain is moving ever closer to another civil war in Spain that will be, as staffers believe, a quick resolution.

What does that mean?

They intend to crush insurrection. Those that supported sedition and separatists’ movements will be jailed. They’re already talking about Germany and France assisting in a martial law declaration in Catalonia where the ADF plans to send officers in and overseer role. We’ve been picked because we’re separated from the issue and do not hold a stake in it. I’m terrified. To be on the ground and stand at a command that could be responsible for potentially hundreds of civilians and soldiers. I’ve no one to turn to when I make my call or decision. No one to talk to when it gets too hard. Particularly with my father hospitalised.

I miss you.
I wish I hadn’t ever signed up for this.
I’m scared.
  >>Ich bin da<< / Mercy_ / 24d 9h 36m 26s
[center [size10 [#7B77A5 I set my sail
Fly the wind, it will take me
Back to my home, sweet home

Lie on my back
Clouds are making way for me
I'm coming home, sweet home

I see your star
You left it burning for me
Mother, I'm here

Eyes open wide
Feel your heart and it's glowing
I'm welcome home, sweet home

I take your hand
Now you'll never be lonely
Not when I'm home, sweet home

I see your star
You left it burning for me
Mother, I'm here
  >>Ich bin da<< / Mercy_ / 24d 16h 3m 39s
[center [size10 [#7B77A5 Nothing quite like an idiot who has no idea what marriage is talk about marriage..
  >>Ich bin da<< / Mercy_ / 35d 21h 57m 46s
[center [size10 [#7B77A5 I love you, it's all I have and know.

[youtube https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EGuzSXMF7nU&feature=youtu.be]
  >>Ich bin da<< / Mercy_ / 37d 23h 6m 42s
[center [size10 [#7B77A5 Fuck me. Do you abuse every other cunt that writes about drama on JE? No. Hardly. You're just another sychophant that loves to stab people in the back! Thanks so much.

[center [size10 [#7B77A5 Remind me, what have you waited for? Your parents to love you? To be loved? Oh wait, you don't believe in that shit?
  >>Ich bin da<< / Mercy_ / 53d 11h 32m 41s
[center [size10 [#7B77A5 Five days away from the internet, from city life and training to come back to this. What on earth happened that we're all willing to kill each other over it?
  >>Ich bin da<< / Mercy_ / 53d 12h 22m 28s
[center [size10 [#7B77A5 Delusions of Grandeur, that'd be right..
  >>Ich bin da<< / Mercy_ / 61d 13h 59m 16s
[center [size10 [#7B77A5 Life hit me hard
[center [size10 [#7B77A5 More than I planned
[center [size10 [#7B77A5 It knocked me down, like an avalanche
[center [size10 [#7B77A5 On the edge of hopeless
[center [size10 [#7B77A5 I called You from the darkness

[center [size10 [#7B77A5 God, come quickly
[center [size10 [#7B77A5 Only You can save me
[center [size10 [#7B77A5 Will You lead me where the light is?
[center [size10 [#7B77A5 God be with me
[center [size10 [#7B77A5 Don't know where I'm going
[center [size10 [#7B77A5 Will You lead me where the light is?
[center [size10 [#7B77A5 I've been living in the dark
[center [size10 [#7B77A5 I've been looking for daylight
[center [size10 [#7B77A5 You're my daylight
[center [size10 [#7B77A5 So God, come quickly
[center [size10 [#7B77A5 Only You can save me
[center [size10 [#7B77A5 And lead me where the light is

[center [size10 [#7B77A5 There's no hurt
[center [size10 [#7B77A5 No scar or bruise
[center [size10 [#7B77A5 There's not a wound too deep for You,
[center [size10 [#7B77A5 'cause
[center [size10 [#7B77A5 You're everything You say You are
[center [size10 [#7B77A5 You're bigger than a broken heart
[center [size10 [#7B77A5 So hear me now, hear me now
[center [size10 [#7B77A5 I'm calling

[center [size10 [#7B77A5 God, come quickly
[center [size10 [#7B77A5 Only You can save me
[center [size10 [#7B77A5 Will You lead me where the light is?
  >>Ich bin da<< / Mercy_ / 64d 21h 2m 15s
[center [size10 [#7B77A5 Absolute terror, anxiety, depression and loneliness. Is this all I am for? To cry and scream into my pillow late into the night. Is this purgatory? An eternal purification.. am I to suffer endlessly for no reason but for being?!

[center [size10 [#7B77A5 I am alone, again. No sisters. No friends. No shoulder to cry on. Just the pulling of my hair and the sobbing into the night. My regret is it isn’t raining so everyone in the hallway can hear me sobbing. I’m losing it. I miss you J. More than I can possibly describe. I wish you’d lived in my place. You’re a better person then I.
  >>Ich bin da<< / Mercy_ / 65d 7h 45m 9s
[center [size10 [#7B77A5 I would love to know how I'm a liar even now, even now after all I have done I'm still considered 'The Liar'. It's just typical really, I'll stick to my own writing I guess. No one trusts me.
  >>Ich bin da<< / Mercy_ / 65d 15h 56m 26s
[center [size10 [#7B77A5 It isn't unsurprising, this attitude and behaviour. When all the facts would speak to the contrary shall we resort to abusing one another? As difficult as it has been to just carry on, shoulder my rifle and take every day as it comes your abuse and the abuse of your peers is surreal. It's a drowning feeling, overwhelming hatred bombarding me. Yet I've continued. In an effort to fight on.

[center [size10 [#7B77A5 I wonder how much what people say is truth anymore. Your hatred of my own father, the man you don't even know, you can't speak of. "You're smart, Claire", "Keep at it, Clogs", "That's actually kind of cute." People I trust and had trusted have said these things and now I question it.

[center [size10 [#7B77A5 I am my own woman, nothing you or anyone else say will make that not so. I have a soul. My heart is good. My intent has always been for good, even when I fall.

[center [size10 [#7B77A5 I will never surrender.
  >>Ich bin da<< / Mercy_ / 69d 10h 11m 16s
[center [size10 [#7B77A5 I'd teach you if you let me, but you hate me. Your friends hate me. I've literally no one but my friends from my section and class.

[center [size10 [#7B77A5 I really need strength and perserverence right about now. I'm struggling.
  >>Ich bin da<< / Mercy_ / 69d 19h 23m 41s
[center [size10 [#7B77A5 Warfare. Urban warfare against an insurgency and against a trained enemy. I trained for days under the assumption I would return to friends, a woman that despite it all I would be loved. I can’t emphasise how scared I am to be so close to the end of my training that by next year I’ll be leading from the front, men and women. It hasn’t sunk in yet. But when we fight an enemy using Soviet doctrine or an insurgent doctrine in training it feels real. The heavy rain, the cold nights. The sudden outbursts of gunfire. It grows intolerable, where the only warmth you can find is by sitting side by side.

[center [size10 [#7B77A5 Picket was torture, watching the same damned field, the same road. Attacking a hill line only to lose person after person, to carry them back. Of course there were jokes about weight, laughing and the dreary reality of carrying almost one hundred and fifty kilograms of human on your shoulders. But it’s the end of the day, crawling into your sleeping back and one-man hootchie that your imagination wanders, that nightmares creep up on you. It’s not even real combat and yet. I wake up to bolts of lightning that crack in the night sky.

[center [size10 [#7B77A5 I write this and all I can think about is that someone will make fun of me, someone will call me out. Is my self-esteem so low? I’m so angry. I want to snap and break, twist and crack. What the fuck is it? What gives any of you the write to challenge me for giving my everything.
  >>Ich bin da<< / Mercy_ / 72d 8h 35s
[youtube https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FTQbiNvZqaY]
  >>Ich bin da<< / Mercy_ / 77d 9h 44m 39s

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