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[#b4c8ee Well I told you about my kitten. I hope you will like her... I really do.
I still need to try explaining some things to you. Why I was so bitter towards you at work... I mean I'm happy you got a new job I really am. I just the though of only see you once a week. It's killing me. I can never seem to get enough time with you... The thought of less time with you breaks my heart.
Then I get bitter try pushing you way in hope that when I do only get to see you once a week it wont hurt as bad... Even that hurt... It hurt a lot... The though of cutting you out of my life... When you my whole world. It's funny how tangle you are in my the strings of my heart. I wont admit it but you don't ever leave my mind. You are always there sometime towards the back of it... Mostly in the front... thinking of you...How I messed up... Hearing you disappointed... It get stuck on repeat..
I feel like I am losing you now... I can't see you... Then again I need to get used to not see you very often anyway... Then again maybe there's no point in us anymore... I kind feel like we are falling apart we just don't want to admit it...
[center [#2a457a I can't believe you're gone... You were the best cat I have ever known. You were so sweet. Everyone loved you. You always greet me at the door when I would come home. I just loved that, I am gong to miss you so much. Miss hearing your little meows.
Miss hearing your demand food that you normally got... Miss hold you ... hearing you purr. I think I will miss the most is when I would cry, you would come and comfort me. I thought that was the sweetest thing. There are so many things I am going to miss about you... You were the best cat ever! I love you Kato. I hope you make it to that rainbow bridge... I hope we meet again someday. Same goes for your brothers. I am glad you can be with the again. I am sure Fred missed you a lot. I hope Fred, Kash, Rascal and Oliver got to greet your first.
[#b4c8ee I wish I could say today has gotten better but sadly it really hasn't. I hope that I can see you Tuesday or Wednesday Kirai. I really need to get out of town. I'll text you about the days. I know, I will be taking Austin home on some of those days. It be nice to spend sometime with him. I just hope I can get rid of this depressing attitude.
[center [#2a457a So today hasn't been great... Let start off with what went wrong....
I got to see him at work it was nice. He asked if I wanted to come to dinner next Sunday. I told him no right away. I work Sunday and if have to work Monday morning that would make things rather hard. I need to sleep on top of all this I am dog sitting until Sunday. I am not sure what time they will even home Sunday... I think that bothered him just a little.
I think part of me is trying to push him away. He told me his last week would be the 15 of this month. That is coming up fast. I need to get used to only see him once a week. I think part of me becoming bitter towards him at work so It wont hurt so bad when he is gone. It'll be strange without him there. It be lonely but that is okay I getting use to the loneliness. Considering I am alone 80% of the day....
Then my coworker bothered me. I managed to wrap all hard crust bread all by myself... of course I got called slow first... It was frustrating. I had to worry about the church oder . Which they weren't there when I got there. They showed up as I was leaving so I had to turn around and talk to them...
Now I get home. The dog seemed to be good. I let him outside left him out there for a while. What does he do. He shits in the house. It so fucking frustrating. I was ready having a crappy day. I'm tired...luckily my cold is almost gone... Still this is all too much....
[#b4c8ee I feel better talking to people after my little melt down today. Thank you everyone. You know who you are. Thank you for hearing this old fox out...
There are somethings I need to work on. And things that he needs to work on as well. I think we have both come to those terms. I ended up texting him today. I apologized again, since I was the one to get snippy first. He said it was okay that he need to work on handling things. At least it not over I think that is what I feared the most.
As I have said before when I am down I remember everything bad that has happened and it just builds up and I blow up. I need to work on the things that I keep locked away. I need to talk them through more. Although to be honest he never really bothered me much. Just today I was a little more irritable. I think it because of this sickness.
All in all I think things are going to be okay. I got this toxic feeling out... I will work harder on letting him in, trying not to snap. Trying not to be bitter.
Again thank you everyone for listening to me.
[center [#2a457a Sigh... I did it again... I pissed you off you probably are thinking bad things like how much of a bitch I can be... oh wait you like to use that word... That word I hate the most. Cunt... Well is that right I can be one. Just like you you can be a bitch.... I tried to apologize... I even said sorry because I knew I hurt your feelings... I hugged you. You hugged back... I know you were upset...
I was really stressed out you were only trying to be funny... I know it was wrong of me to snap but does it make it any better that you barely respond to what I said... I told you I was sorry. I know you accepted my apology but.... you were still hurt were you...probably thinking bad things about me... I know you told me before you thought I could be a real cunt.
Well if that scares you then you are a fucking pussy....
If what I said bothered you that much why wouldn't you just say something to my face... instead of being all cranky... bitter... were you just trying to be bitter back? Look I really do love you... Today was a very stressful day. One I am still still... I was quiet sore until I took a pain killer... Two corporate official were coming to to look at our department... and the donut fryer was messing up badly which all in all makes me look bad along with our department... As much as I want to just be so lovey dovey with your at work I can't I have a lot to worry about...
I try to apologize I even got your a bagel I work on the stupid bad and told you I loved you A.... Look if your not ready to get hurt don't why bother saying you love me....because no ever said love didn't hurt... How painful it really can be...
I think I am done having my melt down... after shedding a few tears and freaking out running to this account... I just wanted to clean this account up... try clam my mind but sadly I still hurt.... Sadly I am still quiet bitter and bitchy as ever...
[center [font "century gothic" [#2a457a ☾✩] [#b4c8ee Fox or Foxy [#2a457a ☾✩] Ageless [#2a457a ☾✩] Fluid [#2a457a ☾✩]Bi sexual [#2a457a ☾✩] Alone [#2a457a ☾✩] Not For You [#2a457a ☾✩ ]
[#2a457a ☾✩] Feel free to Pm if you want. I'm normally pretty friendly unless I am in a foul mood.... [#2a457a ☾✩]
[#2a457a ☾✩] I will rp almost anything...but there are something I just wont do...) [#2a457a ☾✩]
[#2a457a ☾✩] "...Love is like the wind you can't see it but you can feel it..." [#2a457a ☾✩ ]
[h3 [#2a457a What I like in Roleplays ]]
Anime Picture are the only thing I will use in Roleplays
Anthro (Furries)| Yaoi | Yuri | Straight | 1x1 | Drama | Horror / Murder | Paranormal / Supernatural | Yandere | Romance |
[h3 [#2a457a What I hate in Roleplays ]]
Real Pictures | Group roleplays | One liners | Annoying People | Pregnancy of any type | Controlling people | God-modding | I also really hate it when people leave my roleplays with out telling me... -___-'
[h3 [#2a457a What Anime and Manga I like ]]
Wolf's Rain| Inuyasha | Hellsing |.Hack Gu | Naruto | Pet Shop of Horrors | Nightmare Inspectors | Godchild | Loveless | Chobits | Black Cat |
Thanks for reading until the very end. Here a cute gif to look at ^^
[center Name: [#0f6bc7 Yoku Shingetsu ]
Age: [#0f6bc7 He appears to be in his late teens ]
Species: [#0f6bc7 Fox demon]
Gender: [#0f6bc7 Male]
Sexuality: [#0f6bc7 Bisexual ]
Loved One: [#0f6bc7 Haji ]
Personality: [#0f6bc7 Loving / Alluring / Sweet / Shy / Charming ]
Hair color / length: [#0f6bc7 His hair is mixture of blues. He keeps his hair mid-length. ]
Eye color: [#0f6bc7 Sapphire ]
Height: [#0f6bc7 5'7']
Weight: [#0f6bc7 Unknown]
Favorites Songs: [#0f6bc7 We Don't Have to Dance ~ Andy Black / Fade ~ Dex and Daina ]
[#0f6bc7 Yoku's Speaking color #0f6bc7]
[size10 Ame and I share this character... ]
[font "century gothic" Name || Akira
Birthday|| October 17th
Race|| Wolf-demon that can take the form of a human
Hair color and length || His hair is blonde color it is between mid-length and long
Eye color|| Ice-Blue
Sexual Origins || Homosexual
Relationship status|| Taken
Markings or Tattoos|| His shoulders, back and chest are tattooed with tribal markings.
Weapons|| His wolf like form and His metal claws
Character theme / Favorite song|| Let it Die ~ Starset
[center [font "century gothic" Name [#c49be4 ☾✩] Kage Tsume
Birthday [#c49be4 ☾✩] October 13
Age [#c49be4 ☾✩ 25]
Hair color and length [#c49be4 ☾✩] His hair is normally purple with black streaks but sometimes when thirsty his hair changes to mix between purple and silver. His hair is between mid-length and long.
Eye color [#c49be4 ☾✩] His eyes are normally lavender
Height [#c49be4 ☾✩ ] 5'9'
Weight [#c49be4 ☾✩ ] 145lbs
Gender [#c49be4 ☾✩] Male
Sexuality [#c49be4 ☾✩] Bi Sexual
Loves [#c49be4 ☾✩] ...
Married [#c49be4 ☾✩] He had thought about it a few time but the person he with never turns out to be the one
Weapons [#c49be4 ☾✩] His claws and fangs, two daggers he has hidden on
Favorite Song [#c49be4 ☾✩] Throne [#c49be4 ☾✩] Bring me the Horizon
[#c49be4 ☾✩ Text color]
[#c49be4 ☾✩ Wolf appearance]
[center Name: [#f8c4e4 Kanbi Kangetsu ]
Age: [#f8c4e4 He appears to be in his mid-twenties ]
Species: [#f8c4e4 Wolf that can shape-shift ]
Gender: [#f8c4e4 Male ]
Sexuality: [#f8c4e4 Homosexual ]
Loved one: [#f8c4e4 Kirai]
Hair color / Length : [#f8c4e4 Ivory color that often appears as silver. His hair is quiet long]
Eye color: [#f8c4e4 Golden]
Height: [#f8c4e4 5'4']
Weight: [#f8c4e4 "None of your business"]
Personality: [#f8c4e4 Sweet / Loving / Shy / Charming / Alluring ]
Favorite songs: [#f8c4e4 The Phoenix ~ Fall Out Boy]
[#f8c4e4 Kanbi's speaking color #f8c4e4]
Name: [#ff5605 Ikari Kangetsu]
Age: [#ff5605 He appear to be in his mid-twenties ]
Species: [#ff5605 Cat demon ]
Gender: [#ff5605 Male ]
Sexuality: [#ff5605 Homosexual ]
Loved one: [#ff5605 Kanbi]
Hair color / Length: [#ff5605 His hair is black color he keeps his hair mid-length]
Eye color: [#ff5605 Pumpkin ]
Height: [#ff5605 5'9']
Weight: [#ff5605 Unknown]
Personality: [#ff5605 Cold / Vicious / Violent / Alluring / Dangerous]
Favorite songs: [#ff5605 God Syndrome ~ Madame Macabre ft. Ashe ]
[#ff5605 Ikari's speaking color]
[size10 Ame and I share this character... ]
Name || Ame Kuromo
Birthday|| May 5th
Birthstone | Birth-flower|| Emerald | Lilly of the Vally
Age || 20
Race || Vampire
Hair color and length || Mixture of blues, his hair is mid-length and often messy
Eye color|| Piercing-Blue
Sexual Origins|| Homo Sexual
Loves|| Mavu Kasukedo
Relationship Status|| Single
Married|| Still Single
Weight|| None of your damn business
Weapons|| Anything he can get his hands on...or his vampiric abilities
Character theme | Favorite song|| Let It Die ~ Starset || Kanakuri X Burst ~ Rin & Len Kagamine
[size10 Ame and I share this character... ]
Name || Kumori Kuromo
Birthday|| February 20th
Birth-flower | Birthstone || Primrose | Blood-stone
Species || Human mixed with a vampire
Hair color and length || His hair is normally back color, his hair is short and spiky.
Eye color || Is normally a pink-red but when he is in the mood for blood they change to lavender
Gender || Male
Sexual Origins || Homosexual
Relationship status|| Complicated
Height || 5'8'
Weapons|| A beautiful pocket knife his brother gave him
Favorite Song / Character theme || Bruises and Bitemarks ~ Good with grenades || Evil Angel ~ Breaking Benjamin
[#ebd1fa Text color ]
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