You don't have permission to post in this thread.
[center [pic https://i.imgur.com/zoX94SO.jpg]]
[size10 For the longest time and still to this day, I restrict parts of myself.
I don't know why that is, and I always wish to try and live more free.
But I never allowed myself to. Not until I met you.
I still restrict myself on certain aspects, but you're slowly changing that.
I'm free around you, you liberate me.
You're someone who inspires me to find my voice, little by little.
You make me do things I would never think of doing, had you not mean so much to me.
I can feel the way I want to, good or bad.
I will always be grateful for meeting my sun that helps me navigate through life.
That's not to say I won't find my own footing, but.. you're a driving force.
You may not have ever been aware of it.
But thank you for always pushing me to live free.
Little by little, I know I'll get to full freedom.
And I hope you'll be there to see that.]
[center [pic https://66.media.tumblr.com/a6e3488902f0b64141474d1debb27494/tumblr_ootxphcXin1uzomqmo1_500.gifv]
Hot summer nights, mid July
[i [b When you and I were forever wild]]
The crazy days, city lights
The way you'd play with me like a child.]]
[center [pic https://66.media.tumblr.com/4fd7df0e1dfffe8eb818392e3a21d440/tumblr_inline_op1hgcMA7M1qiqpah_500.gifv]
And I fail.]]
If I can't have you, let love set you
Free to fly your pretty wings around
Pretty wings, your pretty wings
Your pretty wings, pretty wings around
I came wrong, you were right
Transformed your love into light
Baby, believe me, I'm sorry I told you lies
I turned day into night
Sleep 'til I died a thousand times
I should've showed you
Better nights, better times, better days
And I miss you more and more
If I can't have you, let love set you
Free to fly your pretty wings around
Pretty wings, your pretty wings your
So pretty wings, your pretty wings around
Say pretty wings, oh pretty wings, yeah
Pretty wings, your pretty wings around]
[center [youtube https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nY_it3eGASs]
You don't know you're beautiful.]]
[center [pic https://66.media.tumblr.com/0cc797cc6dbb07ee6fdfd72e5648e462/tumblr_pczvuilPxr1r05bkco5_540.gifv]]
[size10 Once upon a time. . . there was just me and you dancing under the sky of endless stars.
We matched our steps so well, we never skipped a beat, we were each other's stars.
Our dance was beautiful, a constellation that people admired.
They all wanted a closer look with their telescope, to see where these two shooting stars were going.
But we used up all of our fuel, like all stars that die out.
We died out, we no longer shined together in the night.
Our dance was messy, clumsy, lacked rhythm and soul.
People can't find our constellation beautiful, even if they wanted to.
So where do we go from here?]
[size10 I like my girls just like I like my honey; sweet
A little selfish
I like my women like I like my money; green
A little jealous
'Cause I'm a beautiful wreck
A colorful mess, but I'm funny
Oh, I'm a heartbreak vet
With a stone-cold neck, yeah, I'm charming
All the pretty girls in the world
But I'm in this space with you
Colored out the lines
I came to find, my fire was fate with you
Heartache would stay with you
Fly great escapes with you]
[center [pic https://66.media.tumblr.com/f428d2b6ff5944d6e72c22b46e0183c1/tumblr_pnpkdy0T0c1tw2hyao3_r1_540.gifv]]
As much as I resent you right now.. I'm living in memories that honestly help me be less angry at you -- even though it spikes up when I think about things again.
I miss us, a lot. I'm not even saying the ones in the honeymoon phase years ago, that's a given. I'm saying us two months ago. It was short-lived, but we were.. all over each other, we were happy. I know it's cause I had visited and gone back home, so all those feelings are like a breath of fresh air, and it feels new again. I didn't have those worries of being replaced, I had no insecurities for a small moment.. I miss that.
Something about me being there in person, and knowing I only have a small amount of time to have fun.. pushes you to learn to be understanding and patient, and actually wanting to make up. You were right about that.. it's easier to forgive when they're in front of you sometimes. Because I'd be able to hold you and tell you sorry, and you'd feel more sincere, we'd make up and make out.
Maybe you'd be able to see me saying you 'screw you' from anger, you would be able to see a hint of actually wanting to literally. I know it sounds bad. But I notice sometimes we just.. have to do that to get it out of our system, and that gives you more ease to talk to me, to walk me through your true thoughts, to be more open to me.
I miss calling you these pet names again. I miss teasing you, making fun of you till I know you make that 'hmph' sound and a jigglypuff face.
Passion is what I put out, whether it's anger or love.
And passion is what I loved seeing in you.
So.. when I see you've given up, when you don't bother -- it cuts me more than you spouting angrily back. Because it feels like you admit I'm right, and I don't want to be. I want to be proven wrong for once.
I sometimes blame myself for not getting over what I need to let you back in.. because I miss it so bad. I desperately.. just want to forget it all and truly leave anything that happened in the past where they belong. No reminders, no lingering things, nothing. I'm still trying to heal certain wounds, otherwise.. I'd be having you back with open arms like always..
And maybe you wouldn't have -- maybe we wouldn't have end up this way.]
[size10 We came too close to the edge now
We almost died last night
This champagne laced in regret now, I relapse every time
Your heart too hard to protect now, it hurts to watch you cry
My feelings mixed up right now]
[center [youtube https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0QTlz9mbfOo]]
[center [pic http://i63.tinypic.com/2evrz1z.jpg]]
[size10 I read the old letters I made you.
A lot are pretty cringey, and cheesy.
But.. I know that each one came from me pouring my heart out, my real feelings into every word to you.
I know I'm not the most comforting to you right now.. quite the opposite.
I caused you pain, and I hate myself every time I do.
I may have changed a bit over the years
But-- those letters.. I still mean every word and feel every emotion in it.
I remember the previous post I made about soulmates.
You will always be my soulmate.. you've been such a big part of my growth as a person, helping me and supporting me.. being patient to me, loving me more than anyone could and would love me. I know that.
Through all the changes that we both had, we fell in love with each other again with them.
I know that no other person will accept and know me as much as you.
That is someone I did find worth moving my world to.
I would be a complete fool to let something like this go..
And a fool I am for making you feel not worth it.
Though you loved me, it came with pain.
Even though it has ripped me to shreds, you made the right call.
Because I'll be damned if I have you suffer more than you did when you're with me. I know it only gets more complicated if shit doesn't go my way..
We found out we are not meant to be lovers.
But I truly believe.. we are meant to be soulmates.
You will soon find out what I'm about to say means but..
You are my person.]
[center [pic https://66.media.tumblr.com/07521a000c69f65a127d70d9f2d3efdc/tumblr_pq91tuXCK61qhg86k_400.jpg]
I love it when you make posts about me, about how much you're in love with me. Because.. I obviously feel the same way.
Hearing it from you just.. makes my heart warm.
When I hear you cry happily, I can't help but get emotional too.
Just when I felt like I wasn't doing good.. having a night like that lets me know that maybe I am doing right, that I treat you how I plan to.
You deserve the best.. and I always aim for your happiness.
I love nights like last night..
I never thought I would have no trouble professing my love for someone.
Considering how I am, I always felt like I would have trouble but.. meeting you has shown the opposite.
You make me love to my fullest.
And I am so.. grateful and overjoyed that you love me back with just as much passion, that you're madly and deeply in love with me.
I'm so so so madly and deeply in love with you too.
My love, my precious bunny.
I didn't think I would use so much pet names either.
But cause I use those.. know that I'm just.. all about you.
You feel like home.. that's how I know you're my soulmate.
I love you.]]
[center [pic https://66.media.tumblr.com/2d78ecb953d1ede34957bb827825252e/tumblr_ppzdr5QW2J1s5bkp1o4_r1_540.gif]
[i You are my queen.]
Somehow your presence instantly makes my body react.
And I just wanna give you all of me without stopping.
I like when you have that suggestive tone, when you're about to surrender to me.
Though you put up a challenge sometimes, which only drives me even more.
I don't know if my energy alone is the reason I get the way I am.
But undeniably, our chemistry has been a force unstoppable.]]
[size10 I thought of a future so many times with her.
I imagine just being happy and living together a lot.
Sometimes.. the white dress on her came to mind.
Even now, I think about it. How twisted am I?
It only makes me hurt more.]
All posts are either in parody or to be taken as literature. This is a roleplay site. Sexual content is forbidden.