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[center [size10 suddenly, ending my life seems so very appealing.]]
[center [size10 My self introduction would basically be "Hey I think I'm worthless and that no one really likes me, and none of my friends really tell me otherwise sooo ... Sorry in advance !"
which is probs pathetic that I have to be reassured about it lmao
welcome to being me !
[center [size10 it's quite obvious I'm irrelevant. No one really ever gives me a second thought.
I'm easily forgotten, and I give up.]]
[center [size10 I don't feel like talking to anyone right now. Time to poof for a while.]]
[center [size10 list of potentially protein rich foods.]][list [size10 Greek Yogurt
Light Tuna (canned)
[center [size10 gods I feel sick. I don't know if it was the little bit of food I ate at work, the fact I didn't actually eat, or I overworked myself, but I'm feeling sick.
Sick to my stomach. I don't like it. I hate being sick. Hate feeling sick.
I need to go to the doctor. Get a scope done or SOMETHING. I have had so many stomach issues for ... Nearly 6 years now. I don't know why I've let myself suffer for so long.
I really need to start eating right. Less pasta, more veggies. Probably more meat too, because as it is, I barely eat any meat. Especially red meats ... Or I should at least find other ways to get protein, because I'm sure that I'm lacking in protein.
actually, I'll just make a list right now.
so I have it for later. + for anyone else that may wanna look ;; not that I'm 100% sure on most of these ... probs gotta do more research. when I'm not feeling so sick to my stomach. I also wonder if oatmeal has a decent amount of protein in it ;;
actually going to put list in a separate post cuz it'd be easier.]]
At this point I'm probs just not worthy of talking too anyone
Cuz almost no one talks to me anymore
So I give ;;
[center [size10 when you see a username you used to own and it's like
"why the f is someone on my account"
then your remember you changed it and it's just like "oh yeah I got rid of it a while ago"
I hate it when I forget about that shit ;; cuz I get all weirded out and worried and then it's just like "nah you gave up that name"
it's even worse when you regret giving up the name lmao
like I did when I gave up my yandere account
but ... that aside
I just feel forgotten by most of my friends. most of the online ones, though there aren't that many anymore.
and ;; I feel like Tally is probably going to cast me out of her life . Not because I did anything ... But because everyone is stressing her out.
It .. Makes me sad, but I'll let it happen, because I don't want her to be stressed.
She probably thinks I don't care, if I don't fight to keep her in my life but ... I don't want to force her to stay, when she's stressed out and not feeling well. I'd rather let her go, if it means she can recover and start feeling better.
so .. I'll just be sad and bummed out, all on my own. Though she isn't the only reason I've been feeling sad. There's been a lot of reasons. So many reasons, really ... Anyways. I think I'm going to relax and play some Kingdom Hearts. Now that I have I.5 & II.5
[center [size10 I always forget just how much Nirvana means to me. I did grow up with them though ... That band has always been one of my favorites. Probably the biggest influence on me ever, if I have to be honest. Tool, Nirvana, and Avenged Sevenfold have affected me in ways other bands haven't.
Just ... random thoughts before I go to class.
[center [size10 I guess I'm not worth talking to right now?
Because it seems like most of my friends have just sort of poofed on me ;;
or they're just finding newer, and better friends ...
I suppose it's ok though. I can't blame anyone for wanting better friends, or just friends that aren't me. I'm ... Too much work.
I've always had issues with keeping friends ... And it has to be my fault, right ? It can't be everyone else's fault ...
But ... At least my relationship is going well. I always have that to count on ... Although I doubt he'd want to listen to me complain as much as I do in my head.
[center [size10 I feel like two of my friends are going to be at odds with each other and now I'm nervous and scared
Please just don't drag me into this
Edit; a coworker of mine bought a set of pink dice because her current DnD character loves pink and for some reason that makes me super happy ;;]]
[center [size10 I think I just lost most of the respect I had for someone ;; because reasons I don't feel like discussing
It's ok though. I'll just go back to not talking to them unless necessary. Which sadly is more often than I'd like. :/
Oh well .... Not much that I can do about that. .-.
Just ... Gotta push through the next few months then I'm gone free. Here's hoping I find a place by then. Maybe I'll just suck it up and get a one pet only apartment ... Because at least R would have her own room and I would be able to keep things clean because I wouldn't be living with a certain someone anymore ;;
[center [size10 I WILL NOW BE SHIPPING SASHA AND MIKASA
because they're cute and now that I think about it, I've shipped it secretly for a while ;; but kept it quiet bcuz reasons
but now I shall loudly ship it and have no one to ship it with bcuz crack ship I guess
nah .. more like everyone is too busy shipping mikasa and eren or eren and levi
[center [size10 I'm feeling pretty great right now, actually ;;
despite not sleeping all that much
I did ok on my history exam
I got extra points for one of my class assignments for a different class
which bumped me up to a 70, which is GREAT because I was struggling in that class
I have 3 Cs
and a freaking A that's at 100% because my teacher made that class super easy
you literally just have to do work and you ace everything
although I'm not sure that's how it was with the quiz ??
either it was or I actually aced it, which if that's the case then I deserve a pat on the back and some head scratches ... cuz damn that quiz was worth 100 points and I got all 100 and I'm just happy about that
also ;;; my grades are getting better, I just need to stop missing classes
If I sleep and eat better, along with exercising some, I should be fine
I'm a bit sad I have to work during some of animarathon, but it's ok
Money is more important than me trying to get the shift off
if I have more money, I can set it aside for other things
I really need to get to looking for a new place to live
maybe I'll look out of town, if my babe can drive me to and from classes
I really need to get my license though, and my own car, so I don't have to rely on him all the time
I'm so terrified of driving though ;; it fucks with my anxiety so bad and I just hate every bit of driving
anyways that's all for now ;; time to go to sleep and stuff so I can be up early tomorrow !
[center [size10 we're going to pretend that I'm not internally screaming / wishing for death right now
because homework omg
I just want to sleep / eat food
attack on titan season 2
pretty excited for it
it's only been two years or so lol ...
but gosh am I excited for it
for starters ;;
it gives me a reason to love Sasha even more
my precious potato queen has a bow now
I love me some bows ... so again
more of a reason to love my potato queen
IF ONLY I HAD SOMEONE TO SHIP HER WITH THO
but really I'm just super excited because potato queen is back
and so is eren
and I'm thinking they might be bringing annie back too
and now I'm just wishing I would read more of the manga
I own two of the volumes, I think
but I haven't really read most of it
it's def on my list to read ... along with Tokyo Ghoul
I'm about halfway through the first series ;; and I just really wanna keep reading, but it's so hard when I don't have time
the part I'm at isn't even officially released in the US, so I can't even read it in print, which is what I love
so I'm just kind of stuck not knowing wtf is going on ...
I really do need to catch up on AoT/SnK
it's just so much money to buy the manga, as much as I love buying it
maybe I'll talk babe into buying me a few volumes this weekend ...
one more thing about snk
WTF EVEN IS THIS TITAN
I saw it in the trailer and it's literally the derpiest titan i have seen yet
it isn't even scary omg
it's just super fucking derpy
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